Hi Sam,
I came across your profile recently on X when researching about alphas and have been reading a bit about how hierarchy works and your posts, but still have a lot to learn about it as I just started looking into it. Recently, I had a meetup with a DL guy for a quick hookup to give him head and let him nut in me. When we met up he asked if it was okay to do some roleplay saying he liked went he was in control and I agreed since I liked being more submissive anyway. It started off simple just him telling me to appreciate his body and muscles before facefucking me which I really enjoyed. However, it took a turn when I tried to move my mouth away from his dick he grabbed me by the hair and said something like “did I tell you to stop faggot?” and slapped me on the face. I was really shocked for a moment but realized it got me hard when he forced me down. I’m guessing since I didn’t say anything he just went with it and eventually had me kneeling, saying I could only call him sir, making me say thank you every time I touched him, and even giving me a wedgie when I wasn’t listening to him. I’ve never had this experience before but I can’t deny I was aroused and at the end he asked if I was okay saying he gets caught up in it, but only continued since I seem to enjoy it. I agreed and said I never had this happen to me but for some reason I enjoyed it and like being told what to do. I ended up driving him back to his place and we had a really nice conversation just about what we study and what we like, which was so different than his dynamic earlier. It was honestly just a very wholesome talk that I wasn’t expecting and since all. of that happened I’ve been looking into more hierarchal aspects and that’s how I found you? My main thing currently is things are moving really fast as he said he wants to meet up again and while I enjoyed it 100% and have thought about it a lot, it’s a big step forward and Idk how to really approach it ig? Just trying to figure out everything has been a whirlwind of emotions and Idk if you just have any advice on just how to approach literally any part of this bc I just have so many unknowns right now that Idk what to ask.
Thank you for writing!
Yes, it’s a huge moment when one discovers they are, in fact, a faggot! Your experience mirrors mine in some ways. My first Alpha pushed me down and throat fucked me before claiming me. And, like you, I had something of an “Alice in Wonderland” moment where everything I thought I knew about my life was flipped upside-down. I wasn’t just a gay boy, or even a submissive gay boy. I am a faggot.
And that made all the difference.
The first way you approach this is to fully commit to serving Men, and this new Alpha in particular. He’s making a claim of ownership on you and wants to keep using you, so you should be obedient to that. It sounds to me like this Alpha knows more than you do about hierarchy, and obviously understands what you’re supposed to do. He’s already taught you some valuable truths about yourself, and I think he wants to keep training you. These are all very good things.
The reason why you 100% enjoyed everything you experienced with him is because you ARE a faggot, so there’s no reason to question it any longer. The only real task before you is how quickly you can assimilate your new purpose into your refashioned old lifestyle.
I’d start going through the vast resources on this site, particularly the “Advice for faggots” section.
Just know you are far from alone. You’re going through something every faggot goes through … just be glad you have the information that many faggots in the past never did!
I also advise you to join the Hierarchy University Discord (CLICK HERE). The fellowship of other faggots and the many resources within will help you as well!
I hope it helps!
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