

I hate when Masters like @RealPussyMaker refer to faggots as “objects”, because being a full-time object is not a realistic goal.
I think he’s primarily using “object” as a trigger word, and not really referring to a fag object.


I hate when Masters like @RealPussyMaker refer to faggots as “objects”, because being a full-time object is not a realistic goal.
I think he’s primarily using “object” as a trigger word, and not really referring to a fag object.
Hello Brother Sam, I’m curious. Have you heard any updates regarding fag Kamal and his Alpha? It’s somewhat surprising how unique fag Kamal’s circumstances are and how fortunate he is that he’s able to serve an alpha who chooses to remain compassionate and loving after his confession to him.
Thank you for the question!
Sadly no, I haven’t heard an update from Kamal since he bravely submitted to his Alpha uncle Master Farid (CLICK HERE for all of his posts). I do publish everything when I receive it, so I assure you I’m not leaving anything out!
I do hope it’s going well! Thank you for checking in!
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Hi fag, interested follow up on Bergvall. But it seems he has girl friend, but still would serve as a fag for his team? Also interesting aspect is that he’s very rich so probably had people working for him, even doing his laundry. Don’t you think it may or some chaos into hierarchy? On that note, what you think is relation between wealth and dominance?
Thanks for writing!
Okay, well thanks for that updated information. Maybe Bergvall isn’t a faggot after all. Totally cool with that, although I do find the way he’s manhandled by the team a bit suspect. But whatever.
He does looks like he comes from money. There’s just something about his blonde, chiseled, well-groomed look at that makes him seem a bit aristocratic. As I’ve said, I don’t know anything about soccer and very little about his culture, so these are all barely-educated guesses.
As far as wealth and hierarchy are concerned, I’ve done a bit of studying on this, actually. I don’t find convincing evidence that wealth itself contributes to hierarchical positioning itself, but I do think it can amplify certain characteristics (particularly in Alphas). However, Alphas with inherited wealth tend to be poor leaders of other Men (see: the “Men” in Trump’s administration).
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Hello to the Hierarchy University team. Firstly, I want to praise the incredible platform and content you have built here. Your articles and insights are absolutely brilliant and they’ve been a real eye-opener for me. You explain the raw truths about dominance and submission with a level of honesty that just can’t be found anywhere else. It has truly helped me understand my own mind much better.
I’m 34 and I’m hitting you up because I’m dealing with a really heavy internal conflict that’s messing with my head, and I could use your blunt perspective.
In my everyday life, I’m into women. I want a normal, vanilla relationship. I get real attraction and erections when I see women out in the world or at the gym. But here’s the catch: whenever I’m with a woman in bed, I just cannot cum. The attraction and the erection are there, but I simply can’t ejaculate, which ends up causing me a ton of stress. Even when I watch straight porn, I’m only drawn to very specific kinky stuff—like intense female submission, voyeurism, and scenes where women are completely dominated by multiple guys with huge packages.
But the real mindfuck happens when I go online. I don’t necessarily stare at a screen for 10 hours straight, but I compulsively open dozens of porn tabs at the same time, jumping between intense submissive male dominance and feminization fantasies. This hits a trigger that sends me straight to dating apps like PlanetRomeo, looking for hardcore chats with dominant Alphas.
My fetishes are very specific: I’m obsessed with total submission and “penis erasure.” In porn, I usually get turned on by bottoms wearing thong-strings and jockstraps. i want to be in their place! In my own life, I’ve started buying all this gear—tight jockstraps, strings, full-face masks, and even full-body fishnet bodystockings. I regularly take highly provocative, slutty photos of myself in this gear and upload them to these apps to attract Alphas who will treat me like an object. In those moments, I just want to feel like a fully feminized “woman” where the Alpha is the only one who holds the power and masculinity in the room.
This constant back-and-forth between my straight reality and this hidden submissive urge is causing me massive anxiety. I feel completely trapped.
My questions for you are:
Thanks for your time and your help!
Thank you for your complex question! I can sense that you’re really struggling with this!
I want to address the “aggressive split” you’re experiencing head-on, because I think I understand it, You see, I’m 1000% a faggot, but despite being gay my entire life and a faggot since the age of 17, I also dated and had sex with girls from 15-17. I loved being romantic and passionate with them, having them on my arm on double dates and enjoying the perks of a “normal” heterosexual life. I enjoyed backseat fumbling and fingering, the kissing, the tits, etc. Even though I knew it was all a lie, the “romantic and aesthetic attraction” was still pulling me in.
Now, sexually I still had full erections and “performed” (badly) in bed, but I was a teenager. I could’ve fucked a tree at that time. Sex was awkward, embarrassing, and uncomfortable for me. It felt alien to me. It didn’t take much introspection to understand why – I was GAY.
Then Master Roger came along and forced me to realize it went much deeper than homosexuality. I was born a faggot, and there was no going back aftrer that.
I give you that personal experience because I do think that’s what’s going on with you but you’re still in denial/fighting it. If you’re actually straight, then you’re a “beta-sub” male who needs extreme humiliation to feel complete, or you’re a gay faggot who is in denial about it.
I think you’re desiring Alpha dominance because their overwhelming power feeds into your need to be humiliated/feminized. I think this is a the real crux of the issue with you, but I’m unsure if you’re coming at it from the straight beta-sub angle or the faggot-in-denial angle, And that’s something only you can answer through experimentation and honest self-discovery.
But by “experimentation”, I DO NOT mean piddling around on apps and screens. That will not help you. Get on something like TheBlowers.com or Sniffies.com and meet up with a couple of Alphas. Have real experiences with real Alphas (not online Alphas). Enough with the games and lies. It’s time to find out where you really belong!
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Hi Sam! I’ve been reading your blog off-and-on for years now. I’ve finally accepted long-term chastity this summer. I was wondering two things: 1) Would you happen to know any alphas here in LA who could use a faggot like me? 2) Master Jin is a GOD. His posts are the reason I come back to your website so often. I know he is in Toronto, already has faggots, and has a successful medical career, but if he’s ever in LA, or is open to using a faggot visiting Toronto ever, you could pass on my contact info. My Insta/TikTok is eacj0506 and my email is below. Thanks fellow faggot!
Thank you for the question!
I don’t do any kinds of hook-ups anymore Too many issues came from that, and I simply don’t want to waste my time or risk my personal capital that way.
I really appreciate what you had to say about Master Jin!. I completely agree with you! In addition to the faggots in Toronto he trained , he’s inspired faggots worldwide to embrace their purpose and the benefits of chastity, He understands the faggot mind in a particular way that is very different from other straight Alphas. He’s an amazing Master, and his growth as both a Man, an Alpha, a Master, and a professional has been onw of my great privileges.
Master Jin and his two beautiful faggots watch this site, so it’s very likely he will see your message!
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Hi Sam!
I’m a 34 year old faggot and I have a question for you.
I’ve been very much aware of my identity as a faggot for a long time. I have started calling myself a faggot about 10 years ago and have tried to embrace the faggot lifestyle since then, serving Men sexually and non-sexually.
I can’t explain how this happened, but I ended up in a relationship with a vanilla guy I have been very much in love with, for now over 3 years. Things got very serious when we decided to buy a house together. I have never come out to him as a faggot. I cosplay as a “real man”.
At first, I tried to deny my faggot identity, deleted all the websites and stopped chatting with Alphas and fellow faggots. But… I simply can’t fight my nature. I have served several Men in non-sexual ways (mostly performing tasks making Their lives easier, providing domestic service, a bit of remote humiliation). Serving sexually has been a line I haven’t crossed as to me, this would really mean cheating on my partner.
The thing is, an Alpha I have been serving for domestic work now wants me to serve His dick. It’s a bit of a mindfuck, because obviously I want to serve Him with my holes but it feels absolutely wrong…
He has given me one week to think it over, if I don’t comply, He will replace me.
I am completely lost and don’t know what to do at this point. Do you have any tips for me to cope?
Thank you
Thank you for the question, brother!
This is why I’ve always emphasized to faggots that they need to fully embrace the unshakeable truth and undeniable reality of being a faggot. It’s not like catching a cold. Faggots have needs for service that cannot be suppressed or replaced, and certainly not with a vanilla life of equality.
I definitely think it’s time to have a conversation with your significant other about this. First of all, you don’t really know what he might be wanting that he’s not getting, either. But he definitely deserves to know the truth about your needs. I know this isn’t going to be an easy conversation to have, but it’s an important one.
I know the timing sucks, but you put yourself into this box by not being honest with yourself and then sneaking around behind your partner’s back. You might need to let this Master and that opportunity pass until you clean house … unless your partner learns the truth and he’s okay with it. Sorry brother.
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What happened to your Twitter account?
It was cancelled once again thanks to the efforts of a douche bag from my Discord!
The new one is @hierarchy_site.
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Hey bro. Long time sub fag here. Was never really close with my younger brother growing up, but now that we are both grown, we have been reconnecting. He knows i am gay and into fetish, and has told me that he and his wife are into kink. He is moving soon and will be about an hour away. i woke up this morning with my nub straining in its cage, was thinking about what if he knew i was a faggot and decided to make me serve Him. Not sure how to fully admit to him that i am a fag and ask if he is an alpha and i would be ok if he decided to follow the hierarchy.
Thank you for writing!
I would start with asking him if he considers himself to be Alpha. It’s likely he does (unless the “kink” they’re into is beta-sub/Domme nonsense). That’ll open him up to a discussion about hierarchy and your place in it.
Remember: he’s your brother, and he’s open-minded. You’re safe.
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Hi Sam. I hope all is well! I’m wondering if you still have your old archive of videos anywhere? On the old site there was a favourite of mine, it was this big muscular black God Alpha discipling His white faggot. I think it was called The Importance of Aftercare. The faggot is naked and blindfolded and kneeling before its owner. Then the Alpha struck it hard across the face, knocking the faggot off balance. The Alpha then lowered Himself to the fag and held its face gently explaining why He had to punish it. He even softly kissed it. The fag then asked if it could hug its owner and the Alpha stood back up and allowed it to hug Him around the waist. He then fed it his cock. It was amazing! I’d love to see it again.
Thanks for writing!
I love my OG readers and their terrific memories! Yes I definitely remember that video! It was such an unusual one, so it stuck out.
It’s not in the archives (video wasn’t preserved), but I might have it on my hard-drives … but everything is currently in storage.
Thanks for the memory!
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Hi fag, some time ago there was a question about lucas bergvall, footballer. You said you think he’s a fag and team you, and you were going to ask some football master for opinion. Have you heard anything?
Thank you for writing to me Sir!
I did ask straight Master Jin about it. Of course, as you might remember, Master Jin is an avid footballer/soccer player and has been for most of his adult life.
Master Jin said he’s almost 100% certain that Bervall is a faggot. He also addressed the whole Alpha/fag dynamic in football/soccer, and he said that it’s very common for straight Alphas to own and use faggots around the world.
Not sure about WHY that sport lends itself to hierarchical dynamics, but according to him it’s almost expected.
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The other day I mentioned my experience picking up an Alpha Lyft driver, and I figured I would receive at least one question about it. Sure enough, it arrived like clockwork:
Hi Brother Sam, Thank you for running this site as a just turned 18 year old fag I have found it very helpful and informative, I was scrolling through your page about to ask a question myself when a recent reply caught my attention from one of your stories, you mentioned you approached a Lyft driver and Managed to serve him in 2021, could you please share the story with me and inspire me? I only ask as I use an Uber to and from work every day the last month and it’s always this stunning married mid 40’s muscle gym bro who drives me to work and home, we have built up a relationship since the start of July (when I first started using him) and he is very Alpha. masculine, confident and gives off incredible energy, I find myself with the urge to serve him as a fag and was writing to you today for advice/how to approach it as I’m still so new to this world and want to serve him and embrace my duty as a fag and then I saw you mention a lyft driver which is so similar to my story, could you please provide tips/advice and share your story of how you convinced your lyft driver to let you serve him ? thank you brother Sam! much love and respect – Ryan the Fag xo
I wrote about the experience on the previous version of this site, but for some reason I couldn’t find it in my archives (I did find my post about the Alpha I drove home and serviced him after, which I might repost). So I’ll tell the story again, because it really illustrates the power of fearlessly speaking hierarchical truth!
As many of you know, I was arrested in late August of 2020 when a friend of mine asked me to drive a car to him in another state, and that car had meth inside the doors (of which fact I was naively unaware). I spent three weeks in jail before being released on my own recognizance. Three days after my release I came down with a paralyzing staph infection of the blood and pneumonia arising from the chemo port still in my chest from my bout with cancer two years prior. I nearly died from that while laboring in the COVID wing of the hospital, but I eventually overcame it after two months of antibiotics.
I was in rough shape!
I had sold my car to pay bills, so I was immobile for the first time since I was 16 years old. One day I needed to go to an Office Max store for some supplies, so I called a Lyft ride to drive me 15 minutes away. My driver was “Antoine”. I would later find out everybody called him “Twan”.
I was pleasantly surprised when I saw Twan in the driver’s seat. He looked young (turned out he was 24 years old) and wearing a Cardinals jersey. He had a neatly trimmed goatee and his short hair was twisted in little braids. He grunted at me when I greeted him with that indifferent black Alpha attitude I learned to overcome long ago. And so we started off.
I started by asking him how long he had been driving Lyft. “A coupla months,” was the blunt reply. So I quickly pivoted to my own previous experience driving Uber and Lyft for a year, and I mentioned how weird some of the rides had been. No real response. Then I said, “I’m sure you get a lot of people flirting with you since you’re Alpha.” He chuckled a little bit and agreed. “My girl don’t like that part.”
So then I said, “Do you consider yourself to be Alpha?” He quickly agreed that he was. So then I said, “Some people don’t think Alphas are real, but I know they are.” I began to describe some of the qualities of Alphas and what sets them apart. I had his attention.
Then I said, “I’m a firm believer in hierarchy.” He replied, “What do you mean?” So I explained how males are different, and how Alphas like him are at the top of the hierarchy pyramid and other males are below and serve the Alphas on top.
Then came the magic question: “So what are you?” I smiled, and without hesitation said, “I’m a faggot, Sir.”
Twan laughed in knowing surprise. “Yeah, I thought you were.”
By this point we were almost there. Time to wrap it up: “I’ve accepted that my role is to serve superior Men and Alphas like you. It’s just the way the world is.” Twan pulled his SUV up in front of the store.
Before getting out, I ended this way: “Sir, if you want to take my number, you can call if you ever need anything.” He took my number. “Thank you, Sir,” I said respectfully as I left his vehicle.
I went inside the store and, after looking around unsuccessfully for a bit, asked a clerk to help me. Suddenly, my phone dings. I have a message from Twan:
“Come out to the truck now.”
I immediately excused myself and left the store. In front of the store was Twan’s SUV. I climbed into the back seat, asking coyly, “Are you in need, Sir?”
“Yeah.”
We drove around until we found a bank that was closed (it was COVID, and many places were closed during the weekdays). He pulled to a discreet back corner of the lot, parked, and then hurried into the back seat with me. He pulled down his sweat pants and underwear in one smooth motion and said, “suck my dick, fag!”
One thing I love about black Alphas is the length and weight of their limp dicks. Even when they’re not hard, they’re still impressive when you manipulate them or suck them. Twan was not totally hard when I started, so I got to enjoy the pleasure of it rapidly growing in my mouth. He grabbed my head and fucked my mouth for a bit, and he barked commands like “moan more!” when he wanted some vibration.
When he was getting close, I was starving for his load, but Twan loves shooting his loads on his cocksucker’s mouths/faces. He did that to me, and I pushed what I could into my mouth and swallowed it after.
Then he drive me home.
Since he had a girlfriend, he couldn’t use me all the time, but I was one of his regular cocksuckers for about a year or so until I was finally sentenced and sent to prison in July of 2022. When I was released two years later Twan had changed his phone number and mine was different, too. So that was the end of that!
As you can see, this isn’t particularly difficult. It really just requires a faggot to be fearlessly honest about hierarchy and purpose. You have truth and the insatiable Alpha sex drive on your side! Use those things to your advantage just like I did then!
Here’s to your growth and success, brother!
Love,
sam the faggot
Hello fellow faggot, i have been in a depressive episode lately and wasn’t able to serve me online masters, what should I do?? Im sacred?? How do I separate the wrothlessness i feel and my faggotry, I love being degraded but some Alphas are just so….they dont have balance of care and superiority for their fags, is it wrong of me to expect this?
Thank you for the letter, and I’m sorry you’re depressed!
We all go through periods of depression, brother. It’s natural. As faggots, it’s also natural (and probably correct) to feel some sense of worthlessness or unworthiness.
But you need to keep in mind that online Alphas are not “real” in the same way as Alphas in real life. They can’t replace real-life Alphas because they don’t need to care at all. “Training” from an online Alpha is essentially worthless because there is no real accountability. So don’t let phantom Alphas tear you down, brother. They’re ultimately meaningless.
There are better opportunities for you and your submission. Work on yourself, figure out how you can be useful and how you can use your strengths as a faggot to your advantage! You have gifts to offer an Alpha. Never doubt that!
I love you for caring about your truth! Stay strong!
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What are ways to subtly practice being a faggot? Besides chastity (i cannot access) and servitude (i already do). I wanna be more of a faggot
Thank you for writing!
I appreciate your desire to deepen your submission and experience your faghood in more meaningful ways! It’s good that you’re already practicing servitude (although I’m unsure of what that means exactly), because that indicates you’re working on your mindset.
I guess if you don’t have access to chastity, you also don’t have access to toys like dildos or other oral/anal training devices. If you do, I would get one or two and start practicing with them. If not, then use carrots in order to practice and train your oral skills. Focus on deepthroating. Journaling can also be helpful along with meditation. And, if you can afford it, try findom as well. Although I almost never suggest findom, in certain circumstances it can be helpful.
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I recently met an Alpha (I believe) out having coffee. I have seen him a few times He just moved to Pittsburgh and he told me he is a little down on his luck< just broke up with a girlfriend he lived with. We have had a few words and today as he was leaving I said to him, ” If you need anything, let me know” and he said OK thanks” and walked out
2 minuets later he walked back in and said to me. “If your serious. This may seem odd, But I do need a pair of Steel toe work boots, even if they are used. The last place I was staying at, mine disapreed and im starting a new union job on Monday and I need them and I am a little short
I told him that I would see what I could do and I got his # and that I’d text him if I came up with anything
I got home and looked online and found some. I texted him I asked him when he needed them by He texted back next Monday and I said ” great don’t worry. You will have your boots He was very greatful Then I askedd him “What color. Bkack or Tan? He typed back exactly,” “Lol, lets go with Tan” and I gave a thumbs up
So I ordered him his new boots, i also orded hin a new pack of work socks and work gloves. He doesn’t know I have done this. The stuff will be here in 2 days.
When I give it to him I am going to act like its no big deal Which it is not.. It will leave me a little short on cash this week and I am nervous of where this may go. I have never been this forward, Ill let you know what happens.
Feedback?
Thank you for sharing your experience, brother!
I’m so proud of you for taking such initiative, brother! The opportunity presented itself, and you took action when so many other fags would hesitate and then live with regrets! It reminds me almost exactly of my situation with my straight Lyft driver in 2021 when I made him an offer over a 15-minute car ride, and that led to a year of service as his DL cocksucker! You just never know! It also reminds me of the experience years ago of Home Depot Fag, the brother who bought an Alpha’s purchases while in line at Home Depot that also led to months of service. Fags need to take action!
I guarantee you this Alpha has been thinking about you and your actions since you last spoke. He’s wondering about why you’re offering this, and I’m sure he’s reaching the correct conclusion. You should be ready to make a case for hierarchy when you give the shoes to him, because I’m sure he’ll ask. Be as blunt as you possibly can. Lay it out on the line, and allow him to think on it.
But even if nothing comes of it, you have just made a huge breakthrough personally. It’s not easy, but it’s not as bad as it seems, right? So don’t give up, because you’re on the right track!
Keep me posted, please!
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Hi, my name is Jorge, and I wanted to ask you something about hierarchy.
I am 40, have always been dominant, but finding your site gave me language to understand what I am. Thanks for that. After reading some of the posts here, I understand that I am a protector Alpha. I have been using fags for more than 20 years now, since high school, today I am happily married to a very submissive 31 year-old guy, and now I understand that he is my faggot. He cooks and cleans for me, and I make sure to breed him many times a week.
But enough about me. I really wanna know your opinion about something else. I am a college professor, and I teach multiple first-year classes every year, which means that I am constantly dealing with 18 and 19-year-old young men recently arrived from high school. I don’t know how old you are, Sam, but when I was in college in the early 2000s, there were only two possible outcomes for when a faggot entered college: the Alphas would fuck the fag (as I did), or the Alphas would bully him (as sadly many guys used to do). Nowadays, however, I have seen a very different dynamic in this younger generation. Many straight Alphas treat the fags with a lot of respect, really taking care of them. I don’t know if they fuck the fags in their parties when their girlfriends are not around. They probably do, but that’s not the point. What I mean is that there seem to be a whole generation of Alphas who understand their role and responsibility. I constantly see straight guys from the soccer team, in a context that has everything to be hyper masculine and homophobic, writing supportive comments in the posts of some faggots and femboys. Last semester we had a student (a very delicate and feminine gay) who broke his leg and wore a cast for months, and I saw straight students with Alpha energy helping him to go upstairs countless times, there were four or five guys, all of them straight and hypermasculine, who basically adopted the fag while he was recovering.
Do you think something is changing? Do you have the same impression that Alphas born from 2006 on tend to respect fags much more than 20 or 30 years ago? I mean, Alphas have used fags since the beginning of times, but I think that straight Alphas are more and more aware of how to take of the weak, even if they don’t use the fags sexually.
Master Jorge, thank you for writing to me!
First of all, I’m so glad you found this site and discovered the words and meanings behind your natural behaviors throughout your life! It’s always amazing to meet Alphas like you who just acted naturally and did what instinct told them to do without any influence, yet you epitomize Alphahood in its purest form! Thank you for sharing those details about your life, Master!
I love that you are in the PERFECT place to really witness the hierarchical changes in both Alphas and faggots (and their interactions) at that age! And you’re an intelligent Alpha, so you can really see it clearly and even address it!
I absolutely agree that there has been a sea-change in how Alphas and faggots interact these days. It’s essentially due to the internet and the proliferation of truth. I’ve always lived by a saying I made up years ago: “Where there is more knowledge, there is less hate.” The fact that particularly straight Alphas have access to knowledge about the truth of homosexuality and the vital resource fags can be has changed everything. This understanding has come not just from the internet, but also the large number of TV shows and movies demonstrating how hot gay romance can be. And let’s not forget about hierarchical porn, which has finally broken from the reciprocal-sex bullshit that studio porn forced on everyone for decades. Amateur porn has shown that Alphas exist and they roughly use faggots, even abusively. It’s a realistic portrait of what the hierarchical dynamic looks like, and Men are finding it incredibly hot!
And while I’m at it, I’ll give a shout-out to findom as well. There’s no doubt that many young straight Alphas have been come to know hierarchy through findom, and once they experience the high of being tributed vast sums of money simply for being superior, they are addicted. Many straight Alphas jack off to their faggots worshiping them!
For young straight Alphas in many parts of the world, the ownership of a faggot is like a status symbol. It shows off an Alpha’s power and lordship. But even more than that, I think straight Alphas now realize that they are entitled to whatever kinds of pleasures or forms of worship offered to them. They want an unlimited kingdom serving them!
Just like you, Master, my site sits in the confluence of all of these tidal forces that are changing Alphas and faggots. I see the same effects that you do, Master. Honestly, when I first started this site in 2015, one of my stated goals was to get more straight Alphas to see the hierarchical truth about their own existence and everything that is available to them by owning/using faggots. I am not claiming I’ve been that agent of such a massive perspective shift, but there’s no doubt my site has been a meditation spot on the road to that understanding. In the end, I think I’ve exceeded my stated goal.
In fact, it’s a joyful miracle that, 11 years later, you were able to come here and learn more about yourself and your faggot partner and that I was able to meet such an incredible Alpha as you, Master! Thank you very much for writing to me! Hopefully you will have more to share!
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Hi Sam ,
I’ve been following your blog for years now, and I absolutely love it. It has helped me so much in becoming a better fag, and I feel like I’m a pretty good one.
But apparently, I put my trust in the wrong alpha. I recently tested positive for HSV-2, and the alpha who gave it to me never told me that he was positive.
The worst part is that I’ve never had an outbreak, so I don’t even know if I have it in the genital area or orally, which is apparently possible. I feel like this has stolen a huge part of myself, and I’ve been falling into a depression because of it.
Even though I’m on medication and have never had an outbreak, I still worry that I could transmit it to someone. The last thing I ever want to do is give this to someone else.
I’m scared that I’ll never be able to serve an alpha again. It’s really been weighing heavily on me, and I honestly don’t know how to move past it.
sincerely,
fag D
Thank you for writing, brother!
I’m so sorry that this happened to you! The Alpha that infected you should be shamed and/or prosecuted!
But unlike him, you are being responsible by taking medication to control the virus. These meds will greatly reduce your chance of giving it to another person. And given that you are an asymptomatic carrier, I think the likelihood that you’d ever infect someone else is probably zero.
Bear in mind that people with HIV (a vastly more dangerous infection) can manage their disease now through medication and can have unprotected sex without risk of transmission. If they can with HIV, you can, too!
In other words, you’ll be able to serve Alphas just fine, brother, Remember, an estimated 520 million people have HSV-2 worldwide. You are FAR from alone!
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Brother, are you familiar with the Netflix series Heartstopper? It is a really sweet queer show, but now that the characters are older the show talks about sex more openly. They had a perfect opportunity to show a relationship between a faggot and a protector Alpha. But they decided to include scenes of the Alpha bottoming for his skinny fagot in order to “challenge gender stereotypes”.
Do you have any thoughts on this? Am I the only who thinks this choice has ruined an otherwise beautiful story about hierarchy?
Thank you for writing, brother!
I haven’t seen the show, so I can’t really comment on that part. However, what you describe is exactly the problem I have with the whole forced notion of “equality” that infects society. It’s a false narrative that I will fight until the day I die.
Here’s a preview of the show:
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Hi sam,
Many thanks for your answer to my question about handling personal life and service to a Master.
The MASTER i’m in contact with online said the same thing but i guess HE wanted me to hear it from someone else, especially an experienced sub like you 🙂
i’ll do my best to find the right Master. i’m surprised however that you say that France is the country with more powerful Alphas per square kilometer than you’ve ever known. What makes you say that? i saw many findom Masters (though i don’t consider most of them like “masters” because they only care for the money) but no so many real Masters…
Also, i’d like to add one more question, as you’ve been really nice to me: what is, according to you, the best way to find a Master when you’re a beginner in France?
Many thanks again for taking time to answer me.
i wish you a great day.
faggot didier (as the MASTER i’m chatting with calls me and i love it)
This is a follow-up to THIS QUESTION.
Thanks for writing back, Didier!
I said that about France because of the number of French Alphas I’ve chronicled on this site over the years, the number of French Alphas and Masters (not cashmasters) I communicate with on X and elsewhere. They all seem to be much more attuned to hierarchy in France than any other country.
To find a Master in France (or anywhere), it starts with your immediate circle of contacts. Think about the Men you regularly come into contact with or personally know. Are any of them Men you’d like to serve? Then make yourself useful to those Men, be complimentary, be submissive to them. When you feel comfortable enough with them and think there is a possibility, you offer your services as their faggot. You can use my “Letter To An Alpha” or my book “May I Serve You, Sir?” to make that conversation possible.
If you try this, you’ll find success. I promise! Especially in France!
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Hello Brothers and Sirs, this is a serious post that I would like to divulge. When I was a young teen, age 14, I was molested by an older man. Basically, I was groomed. I would walk to school and back home passing this guys house in the same street as where I lived. He was friendly and likeable. Absolutely no hint of anything bad. He would be in his front yard and strike a polite chat with me whenever possible. Nothing bad, mainly just niceties and talking about the weather and his garden. It was just like this for a long time, maybe several weeks, when one late afternoon when I was walking home, he stops me for a chat. Invited me in for an Orange Juice and I felt that there was no harm so I went inside his house. As I went in, I saw that he was playing some hardcore gay porn. Plenty of hardcore oral and anal. It was the first time I was exposed to any porn really. He told me to sit on the sofa which I did. I also wanted to watch the porn as I was curious and it just looked hot to me. He sat opposite me on a chair. He brings me a glass of orange juice and sits down. After a short while, he pulls his dick out and starts stroking. He tells me to relax and if I wanted to, I could pull out mine and do the same. I did not do that. From memory though, I was getting curious and aroused. He would ask me questions about what I think about the porn on show. To be honest I can’t remember if I answered. I may have tried to deflect. Multiple questions were asked. One question that rings a bell was that he asked me if I’d like to try. More questions until eventually he said if I’m curious, I could just get on my knees. I didn’t. Eventually he sits next to me, his Dick erect and exposed right next to my arm. He asked me if I’d like to touch it. I said maybe. He grabs my hand and places it on his dick. See, it’s not so bad he said to me. Now try jerking it up and down. I did as he told me. I was jerking him for some minutes. He would encourage me that this is normal. I have nothing to be ashamed about. I should just surrender and let that little boy out just like on the tv. Then he tells me to kneel in front of him and get close and just look at it. I did as I was told. Then he encouraged me to give it a kiss. I kissed it on the tip. He says I’m a good boy. Then he tells me to open my mouth because it’s time I learned to be just like the boys on tv. I open my mouth and stick my tongue out. Before you know it, I had a cock in my mouth at 14. He would instruct me to do it like the boys on tv. So I tried my hardest to mimick what I was watching on his tv. He would encourage me, say I’m a good boy, and that I’m making Daddy very happy. To be fair, I was enjoying it too. Yes it was wrong and I know I was being groomed now, but I really enjoyed it. I wanted more and more. I must have been sucking for quite a while.
Eventually, he pulls his dick out and gets up. He makes me stand up. He said to me it’s time to go to the bedroom and show me how to be a very good boy. Makes me take all my clothes off. He places me on all fours with legs together. Head down ass up in the air. He gives me a pillow to bite on for comfort as what will happen next may hurt a little bit and he told me to not be afraid. I knew what was about to happen. I knew I was about to lose my anal virginity. He said that he will start off slow and that all I need to do is be a good boy. So then he applies generous amounts of lube on my rear and starts to finger me. Then, his dick entered me Slowly. Very slowly. Yes it wasn’t the most comfortable thing. But he slowly works it in all the way and keeps it there. Tells me to breath and get use to the feeling. Slowly he worked his way to a more rigorous action. Then spreads my legs and pounds me till he finished off inside me. He then said to my that I was a very good boy for Daddy and I could come over anytime. Gave me aftercare. Good afterwards, words of encouragement, that what I did was just be myself and is normal.
So that was how I was groomed. The thing is, I kept going back for more and more. I enjoyed sucking him and I enjoyed the anal sex. I kept going back for months. And he would use me. Even honorifics were involved. He was Daddy and he would call me boy. Well I really was a boy. An under aged minor in fact that should not have been used like this. I was a Pedophile victim. I was groomed and violated.
Today, dealing with this trauma, I often wonder if these events moulded me into what I am today as a TPE Gay Bottom Boy. Or was this nature already wited within me? I must have definitely been gay leaning. But did this experience make me more submissive? I’m always looking for explanations about my sexuality and submissive nature. The way I try to rationalise things is that the attraction to men was already wired into me by Mother Nature. Did he bring the sub bottom boy out from within, or did my Sub Bottom nature develop from the trauma as my psychology was rewired creating its own neurons due to the experiences of being dominated by an Authority figure, making me desire this in adulthood?
All I know is today, as an adult, I accept who I am and what I am. I control my desires and interests. I know what I want and need. And I own and affirm myself as a Gay Bottom Submissive. It makes me feel happy, soft and vulnerable.
My brother, thank you for sharing this experience!
First of all, I want to tell you how sorry I am that you went through this. It’s something no child should ever experience. Honestly, I’m mortified at the selfishness of this person who did this. Some might call him an Alpha, but I don’t. He’s a sick person who should’ve gone to prison.
And by the way, I’m not trying to make you feel bad about yourself or imply that you’re to blame in any way. You were young and doing things that no doubt intrigued you and even excited you, so going back again and again was probably a natural thing.
You raise a great question, one that has confounded me as well. It’s sort of a “chicken and the egg” conundrum: Were you born a faggot, or turned into one because of this experience?
I know that most faggots are born that way. I certainly was, as were most of the faggots I’ve spoken with during my life. It’s all we ever remember, even from our earliest memories. Many faggots would gladly choose something else if they could, so it’s not a choice.
But then there are complex outliers like you who don’t fit neatly into predictable boxes or categories.
I’ve read that many child molesters can tell which children to isolate and groom via some poorly-understood mechanism. Often even the molesters themselves can’t fully explain how. Did the person who molested you sense that you were a gay boy? Did he sense your submissiveness? How can we ever know that? I know Alphas can sense faggots and other subs around them … is that the same thing? These are questions I have that will probably never be answered to my satisfaction, or anyone’s.
I can say this, though: I’m very proud of the way you assimilated your experience and made it part of your history that colors and informs your life today. You sound like a courageous and intelligent person who simply refuses to play a victim. Your assimilation of your trauma reminds me of how I assimilated my rape. Rather than allowing to destroy me, I allowed my intellectual curiosity to work through it and help me understand the deeper meaning of it.
You’re a survivor, and you should be proud of that, my brother! Thank you for sharing your personal journey!
Love,
sam the faggot
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Hello sam,
A MASTER i’m chatting with (HE is very kind to accept to answer my questions and give me great advice on my path to submission even though W/we live far away and i’ll very proboably never serve HIM) suggested i might contact you.
HE mentioned your website to me and i’m glad i found it as you seem to be a very experienced sub and a very generous one who gives precious advice.
i’m a beginner in submission. i never served a Master yet but i’m looking for one as, deep inside, i feel the need to kneel and serve at the feet of a Superior Man. i’m 58 and i used to be straight. It took me time to understand and accept that my nature is to serve an Alpha.
i have one major question as a beginner: can a sub have a personal life? i know being a sub means taking care of the Master’s needs, make His life better, do the chores He commands, serve Him the way He wants. i know it requires some sacrifices, to do some things i may not like at first and i’m ready for that. However i also can’t imagine my life without seeing my friends, having drinks or going out with them, reading books, going to the movies, travelling… Is it possible to serve a Master and still have a personal life of your own when you’re a sub?
As a beginner, i can’t imagine being a 24/7 servant. Maybe it will come, maybe not but this is not a question for me now. i guess everything probably gets clearer when one finds the right Master. i would be happy to have your opinion, based on your experience, about how a sub may reconcile service to a Master and personal life. Please accept my apologies if the expression of my feelings is not perfectly clear as english is not my native language (i’m french). Many thanks for taking time to read this message and, if you feel like it, for answering it.
And many thanks for your website.
i wish you a great day.
beginner in submission didier
Thank you for writing, my brother Didier!
How exciting for you to finally live out your truth! I’m glad you’re experimenting with a long-distance Alpha so you can at least get a taste of submission! But, as you’re probably thinking, you really need to find local Alphas to serve. Fortunately, you live in France, the country with more powerful Alphas per square kilometer than I’ve ever known!
You make a great point about balancing life as a faggot with the life you’re accustomed to living. And yes, if you do find an Alpha to own you as your Master, some of your life will need to change to some degree. I think you can agree with me that you’d like to make some changes so you can find fulfillment.
But honestly, every Alpha/faggot relationship is different. Some Masters let their faggots live a mostly-normal life, while others want their faggots to be chained-up slaves. So the key here is to find an Alpha that best suits how you feel now as a beginner. As you grow, you may want something more intense. So I don’t think you need to worry much about that right now.
So be careful and really examine your Alpha choices before choosing the one who will be your Master!
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