My mom is crazy but I love her lol

Hi brother!! I am 19 and I know I am a faggot since I was very very young. My father left my mom when I was 4 and he was a really bad guy for her. My mom is my hero and my best friend. She raised me and has always protected me. She is super liberal and we talk about everything with no fear or embarrassment. I came out to her when I was 15 and she has been super supportive, she knows everything about my sexual life and always gives me great advice.

We have never talked about faggots and alphas using these terms, but she is aware that I am a femboy who loves big man and needs a true Alpha. I have a friend from school who really likes me and treats me really well. My mom knows him and likes him too. He wants to take me as his boyfriend and was very clear to me that he wants to be the dominant part of the relationship. I am a virgin and so far I have only given him blowjobs. He always says that really likes me and he is ready to be part of my life but, before making it official, he demands two things: I need to swallow his cum and he wants to breed me.

Of course he will eventually take my virginity if we become boyfriends and I am okay with him breeding my hole. But I am still a little concerned about taking his cum in my mouth. I don't know... I suck his dick several times a week and he always shoots his load on the floor. He told me that it is okay that I feel uncomfortable now, but he will only take me as his sub boyfriend if I accept his load on my face, on my chest, in my mouth, and deep inside my ass.

I had a very honest conversation about that with my mom and she said that Men love spreading their seed and, if he is healthy and responsible, there is no reason to be afraid of swallowing his load. She literally told me that he is a great guy and I should take his load in my mouth and in my ass before he finds somebody else who is willing to take it. Then she said, "he's a gentleman and very hot, trust me, he will find somebody else if you don't want it."

So what do you think brother?? Am I being stupid with this fear of taking his load? Do you think that it is realistic to convince him to keep shooting his load on the floor or inside the condom? Could you please talk a little about the importance of cum in a fag-Alpha relationship?

Thank you! I love you Sam!! I love your work!