What to do?

Hi Sam,

I am a pig I serve and pleasure my Handler.  Lately my Handler has stopped his floggings and other things on me. Because he has messed his shoulder up from the last flogging see I am a pain pig pain gives me great pleasure. I know he still uses me but it's only serving and sometimes pleasuring him. But I feel I am not being used to my fullest because he has stopped the floggings and that. I know it gives him great pleasure to to see how far I can go. Is it fair to me that I have a useless feeling that I feel useless knowing he is not feeling well. Sometimes I feel like finding another Handler but he been my Handler for 10 years. What do I do? Was it me that caused his shoulder to go out since it was me that he was flogging. He gave more than he has given. That did not bother me I enjoyed it it was the guilt after the floggings that his shoulder got messed up.