Alpha’s Weakness

I enjoy your content and appreciate how much you spread the truth of hierarchy. So I'm coming here opening my heart to ask your sincere opinion about what happened to me.
I am a 21 y.o. Alpha and I see myself as a superior Man and a leader since my childhood. It's always been very natural to me. I consider myself as a bisexual and enjoy fucking both girls and fags.

Two weeks ago I was with a bottom who I had met a few times before. He is not as submissive as I would like, but he's hot as is always willing to take dick, so I keep his contact. But when I tried to fuck him last time I simply couldn't get hard. I don't know what happened to me, but my dick would get hard in his mouth and I'd go limp right after when I tried to penetrate his hole. After three attempts in doggy style, the fag tried to ride me but my dick wouldn't get hard enough to go inside.

He started laughing and said that I should reconsider if I am really an Alpha because real men don't deny a tight hole nice his. He left my apartment making fun of me and, when my bedroom was empty, I felt a void in my soul that I won't never be able to explain. I cried for hours and never felt so lonely.

I woke up better next morning and now I'm a little better. But I can't stop thinking about the way he treated me. So I want your most honest opinion, Sam. Is it normal to not get hard sometimes or based on your experience I am a lesser Man? I know for sure that I'm not a faggot as I have no interest in submitting to another man, but I wonder if perhaps I'm not the natural Alpha that I thought I was. Should I see a doctor or just find another fag to fuck, a more well-behaved one?

I'm 21 and that might be a stupid question, but I've been feeling really lonely recently and all my friends are straight and have been dating the same girl for years. I don't know if they'd understand me. I would he tremendously happy if you could answer me and give me some advise.
Thanks.

Love,

Alpha Joe.