Thank you so much

Hello,

My name is Jon. I'm in my late 30s—5’10", 155 lbs, average/fit build—and I live in Washington, D.C.

I’ve been part of the gay scene for about 20 years, but I’ve still not found what I’ve been deeply craving: the opportunity to truly submit to someone. I’ve tried, but honestly, I haven’t had much luck. I’ve encountered so many fakes and flakes over the years, and as I get older, I worry that it’s becoming even harder to find what I’m looking for. That thought breaks my heart.

At the same time, I have fears about family finding out and being disappointed in me. I dream of finding someone—a friend or boyfriend—who I can have a "normal" relationship in public, while privately being able to fully submit to them.

Just to share a little background: I was raised in an African culture and often felt more comfortable spending time with girls because I didn’t feel “man enough.” Even back then, I think I knew something about myself that I just couldn’t express. There are many moments in my life where I’ve shown my true colors.  but I’ve never been bold enough to admit anything because of my family.

I’m sorry if I’m rambling. I guess I’m just hoping for some guidance—or maybe, even, for someone out there to consider giving me a chance.

Thank you so much for reading.