Older slave finally fully understands

I have been a slave since I was 23 and my 19 yr old alpha roommate dominated me. I am now in my 60s and sexually have always been submissive. Lately, I realized that I have wasted my whole life, because I have only been sexually submissive, and I have not given my whole life to the Alpha men who used me. I always thought it was a sexual fantasy. But lately, I realized that I’m not only sexually inferior, but I am completely inferior. I am sad that it’s taken me 62 years to understand that. Now I am craving life is to find a man who is willing to take on an older inferior. But am I past my prime?  What can an older slave like me do to improve the lives of Alpha men.  I want to spend the rest of my life in servitude.  I just don’t know where to begin.