Can my dad be my Alpha?

Dear Sam,

I am 15 years old and completely obsessed with my dad. I look at him and I don’t see my father. I see a man. I see a powerful, scary, amazing man who takes up all the space in the room. I stare at his crotch when he walks by. I stare at his hands when he eats dinner. When I look at him, I feel small and I feel like I need to be used.

Last month, I had touched his cock when he was sleeping and the next day he came into my room and grabbed me. He is so strong, Sam. He picked me up like I was nothing. He threw me onto the bed. Then he got on top of me.

He pulled my boxers off. I was scared because he is so big and I am so small. He put his hands on my hips and he pushed inside me. It hurt so much. It felt like he was tearing me open. I yelled for him to stop, but he just kept going. He kept going until he was all the way inside me. He was so deep. It felt like he was ripping me apart with his cock.

He fucked me for a long time and I just lay there and took it. I looked up at him and I saw him looking down at me like he owned me. That look... it made me feel like I was born to be there. I wasn't his son anymore. I was his property.

You say that an Alpha is a superior man who deserves to be served. You say that a faggot has no purpose other than to serve My dad did the one thing no other man has ever done to me. He took me. He put himself inside me. He owns me now. He fills my mind. I want him to be my Alpha. Can he be my Alpha? Or is he just my dad who happens to be a man and will fuck me whenever he wants?

I want to worship him. I want to be his faggot forever. But I need you to tell me, Sam. Is a father who fucks his own son the ultimate Alpha? Can he be the one who gives me my purpose?

Please tell me. I need to know if he can the one i serve.

Jehania.