The Crossroads
Whenever someone encounters hierarchical purpose and it begins to preoccupy their everyday dealings, thoughts, and even dreams, a decision must eventually be made. Do I fully embrace this identity that resonates with me, or do I turn away and retreat into my former role in socially-acceptable society?
It’s called the hierarchical crossroads. It’s a point in our development when we reach a tipping point, a “point of no return”. It requires a person to finally decide what is truly necessary (a NEED) and what is simply desirable (a WANT).
What does that decision look like? A straight Alpha, for example, would need to figure out if he can get all of his needs for worship and service met solely from females, or if there is something that faggot ownership would give him that would make him exponentially more powerful, just how important that power is to him, and whether learning the new skillset of faggot ownership is worth it.
For faggots, I think the crossroads is much more frightening and overwhelming. Where an Alpha’s crossroads decision is all about adding things to his life (like worship, service, glory, and power), a faggot’s crossroads decision involves what the faggot will lose (autonomy, self-respect, certain pleasures, personal time). Both sets of decisions are heavy with lifelong implications, so it’s not something to be taken lightly.
My crossroads moment came upon me in a rush that one night Master Roger forced me to my knees and fucked my throat when we were 17 years old. There wasn’t much time for self-reflection, because I knew what I was meant to be the instant he stuffed his fat 8-inch dick into my mouth.
But not everyone has that instantaneous reaction. Sometimes the crossroads moment can take years before the truth becomes undeniable, often accompanied by regret over lost time. Hopefully this site helps to reduce the acceptance time of Alphas and faggots so they can find true fulfillment faster.
I mention the crossroads moment because a (probable) faggot reader wrote to me about the two roads he’s looking at while just 19 years old. I’ll let him explain it:
I am aware that I might be a “fag” as you would say, but I have questions about this lifestyle. I find some stories on the site extreme but I empathize with many submissive desires you describe.
My main question would be, what would you recommend “unowned fags” to do if they would like to commit themselves to this lifestyle.
I have long been making conscious choices around the fact that I would like to be the perfect guy to use. For example, I workout specific areas to make my butt bigger and I take psyllium husk powder daily to help keep my system clean. I have recently been training with a toy as well.
I have a lot of curiosity around chastity. I find my submissive desires get very intense when I don’t touch myself for long periods. On the other hand, those desires slightly vanish when I finish, but come back shortly after. I am interested to see how a cage might affect me.
My biggest problem would definitely be cash, this might be because i’m younger and have less income, but it still doesn’t turn me on at all to give cash to a man.
Sorry if I rambled on, but basically I am just trying to fully understand this way of living because a lot of what you say I empathize with but I still find it extreme. I want to see if a life of servitude is for me or I should just seek a normal relationship.
I certainly appreciate my brothers’ concerns, as well as the seriousness with which he’s approaching this monumental life decision! It’s not something to take lightly.
My brother is doing something right away that really sets him apart from many others who just wing it, He’s meditating on his purpose and needs, and even practicing with a toy to see just what he can handle. These are excellent moves!
I was especially intrigued by his mentioning chastity. I highly recommend this as a test. After all, there is a high degree of likelihood that any Master he would serve will require him to wear chastity, so it’s good to get a feel for it. He mentions the problem of being overly-horny in chastity … yeah, that’s the idea!
But I really want to tackle my brother’s major concern: financial obligations to Alphas. He mentions findom as if every Alpha charges their faggots by the hour or something. Well, let me just emphasize this right now: MOST Alphas are NOT cashmasters and don’t necessarily expect their faggots to serve financially. More typically, faggots simply want to buy gifts for their Masters. So this concern should be set aside.
I apologize if I’ve portrayed the Alpha/faggot dynamic as “extreme” or scary in some way. I actually think I’m somewhere in the middle when it comes to hierarchy (there are certainly many more extreme perspectives than mine!), but your youth and inexperience might be the reason you feel that way.
If you’re asking where you should start, well I think you’re already on the right path. I think you should start working on how you act around Men and Alphas. Begin to call then “Sir” and be respectful and submissive to them. Offer services like domestic (cleaning, cooking, etc.) or massage. You can buy them simple things you know they want/need as gifts. This will get you in the habit and mindset that will often lead to greater opportunities.
I know the crossroads moment can be quite intimidating, but at some point you need to choose a path. However, I’m warning you now: choosing the conventional relationship path is going to fall apart eventually. Faggots simply can’t remain in that situation because we are not made to be in reciprocal relationships. I’ve seen it fall apart many times, enough to make a statement like that.
Keep experimenting, keep meditating, and keep practicing! You’re headed in the right direction!
