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Sam, I really love you and your site <3

I am 19 and I am 100% sure I am a faggot! I love serving big men, I know my place, and my holes are always ready for real men. I serve a man who is 32. He took me from my parents house and told me to live with him. He's very masculine, very strong, and hairy. I am weak, skinny, and smooth. I really like the way he uses me, but sometimes he gets very very aggressive. When I don't cook well enough or if he thinks the house is not clean enough, he usually gets mad and punishes me. He beats me and sometimes I get some bruises.

He's my first man and he took my virginity so I don't know if this is normal. Is this the normal treatment if I want to have a real man with me? Do you think I can find a real Alpha who takes care of me or "soft" men will not be dominant? Do you think some men can be naturally dominant alphas but also treating me well? I love him and I love to obey him but I am a little worried because last time he really hurt my two arms. My father really supports me and he's a real Alpha man as well who NEVER did that with my mother... but I don't know if a faggot like me deserves a good caring man, sometimes I think that, if I don't want an aggressive man, I will end up with just another gay who would never fuck and breed me like a man. I am so confused... can you please help me?