I’ve been pretty fortunate so far in what I’ve done in the hierarchical space. I built two websites, spent ten years writing virtually every day (when I wasn’t locked up or dying of cancer), created successful books, hosted a shockingly influential podcast (approaching its 300th episode!), and now rebuilt the Hierarchy University Discord that just recently passed 1,000 users.
The creation of each of those things involved the invaluable help and support of many Alphas and faggots. A faggot brother helped me recover the archive of FWA. A couple of faggots helped translate my books into other languages. And there were a lot of Alphas (and some faggots) who agreed to be interviewed on my fledgling podcast, helping to propel it into a must-watch video experience for many.
With the Discord server (JOIN HERE), my partner in crime is a faggot named “Tarnmakmorn”. He has been the glue and a real visionary on the Discord, functioning as a real teacher and community cheerleader. To that end, Tarnmakmorn came up with the brilliant idea of hosting a first-ever HU Discord meet-up in New York. And to my surprise, there was a lot of interest, at least from the many members in America!
So it was convened last week, and I asked Tarnmakmorn to write up the experience for you all. Here’s his report:
Hi, Sam brother. I’m doing this with a voice transcription just
because it’s easier for me to do than writing something out that’s
long, so we’ll see how it goes, and I figure that you could just pull
text from it as you do in pieces, and then write your comments. So,
yeah, it was an interesting experience. I went fine. A little
disappointed by the turnout, but in retrospect, It was as good as
could be expected I think. It was interesting, leading up to it in
that, you know, originally, we had, like seven Alphas respond and only
three faggots, which is comical, of course, because, as we know,
Alpha’s are outnumbered by faggots on the server. I think so far we’ve
observed maybe one Alpha for every four fatgots, which is an
interesting piece of information. I wonder if it’s representative of
the world. But anyway there’s definitely more fagots than Alphas. So
to have more than twice as many Alphas as faggots respond was funny. I
guessed that as we got closer more faggots would respond because
they’re just shy and timid. And yeah at the peak we had eight faggots
and eight Alphas, who had definitely said that they were coming, so 16
total, that would have made it more of like a standing party that a
lunch and I was excited about that, but I figured it wouldn’t be, of
course, all those people. In the end, only six came. So, about
two-thirds didn’t come who said they would. But that’s to be expected
in New York City, because there’s a million things going on here. And,
, all those people, you know, don’t know us. None of us know each
other. So, of course, they would have prioritized their friends. But,
you know, we definitely had some very committed people. One Alpha was
planning to take the train all the way from DC for it, But he ended up
having to work, we had Alphas coming from Philadelphia, and there was
one faggot who came from several hours upstate who I actually bought
part of their train ticket so that they would be able to come because
they were student without any money. Yeah, so it definitely meant a
lot to some people I could tell, And everyone who responded was very
excited about it. I don’t think anyone didn’t come because they didn’t
care. And Yes, we are definitely I think hitting a need here.
There was some confusion about whether it would be a sex party or not.
I’m not a sex party person. I’m very anxious, you know? If I had an
alpha that took me to one I would be fine, but that’s never happened.
And going to a sex party where I don’t know anyone is like, gives me
lots of anxiety and having sex in front of people that I don’t have
chemistry with, makes me very anxious. So, the idea of an alpha like
grabbing a faggot right in the middle of my living room and using it
right in front of everyone made me anxious, But some. It’s interesting
like some faggots Alphas were motivated by that idea because they
would keep asking me about it, and then some were not so, some were
nervous of coming because they were afraid it would be a sex party,
And some were less interested in coming if they thought it wouldn’t be
a sex party. I always try to create. You know, then the expectation
that it was not a sex party per se, because there’s already a lot of
Bdsm sex parties, you know, that we can make hierarchical If we want,
you know? But what we don’t have is the ability to actually like hang
out and get to know each other as people in person In our social
context, where we all know that we accept the explicit reality of
hierarchy. , And I didn’t know how it would turn out because you know,
you don’t know who’s gonna have chemistry with who. And, you know, I’m
not in the business of telling Alphas what to do, right? Like, if an
alpha, is it right there, and he decides to do it I’m not gonna stop
him. I did ask Lord Mike to establish the norm that the alphas would
take the fact to the bedroom if they decided to do that. , But anyway,
in the end it didn’t matter. It was a smaller group, and I don’t. I
didn’t get the sense that anyone had any chemistry with each other. I
don’t think there was interest from the alphas toward the fags, or at
least not much. And then, I don’t really know how the fags felt.
The fags were so shy It was so funny, you know, I, as I talk about in
the group a lot, have social anxiety disorder, but only in really
particular situations, like a cocktail party or a bar. I’m definitely,
I am objectively Superior to a lot of the fags, after having
interacting with them on the server and now in person, which is
interesting. , You know, we’ve talked, you’ve posted about The unity
of fags, and they’re not being real hierarchy within fags other than
self-actualization, But I don’t know. I’m definitely Superior to some
of my brothers, and I mean, Im not being mean. As you can see how I am
in the server, I very caring of everyone and I was, there was one fag
in particular, who was very shy, very awkward, and I made sure to give
him lots of little tasks because I could tell that if I did that, it
would help him be more comfortable. But yeah, the fags were very shy.
The men mostly talked to each other, there wasn’t tons of hierarchy
going on. The main thing is, we establish that the men established,
was that there would be no fags would be allowed on the furniture. ,
and that they wouldn’t be allowed to stand unless they had some
particular reason. I also got little Mickey Mouse, mini pink cups, and
plates for the fags and the regular cutlery for the for the men, Those
were really the only hierarchical aspects. Of course, facts. We feel
drinks and stuff like the one in particular did everything because he
was so shy to do anything else. And yeah, the conversation and the
men mostly talk to each other. I think there was some confusion at
first, where the fags thought that they were allowed to speak to the
men, but it was more that they weren’t supposed to interrupt them. The
only person interrupting men with me. I tried to be good on that , but
I, I’m a bad fag.
But the conversation was good. like I said mostly, the men were
talking to each other at first. The fags were very quiet. I tried to
bring everyone together doing a round of Introductions, and it was
nice, it led to some nice conversations as we went around, and it
forced the fags to participate. , It would have been a little more,
You know, natural and fluid with a little more people, I think. , and
I think if we explicitly encourage the fags to talk to the man, you
know, politely, of course. Then I, I think that would have been better
at keeping things going back and forth actively in a fluid way. And I
also think if I’d had some discussion prompts that would have kept
things going, but that’s these are minor points, because generally the
conversation was fine. Some folks have said that the alphas should
have stepped up a little more to like, manage things, and it was an
interesting experiment to see how hierarchy Etc would actually work
out. I actually tend to dominate the space I’m in in that kind of
situation, especially since it’s my house and I’m organizing it. And ,
I’m still very respectful to the men, of course. But it was
interesting To see how that would work out, you know, whether, like
they would take control of the space away from me, and they did not,
Originally Lord Mike had been planning to come, and I had been sort of
relying on him to make Alpha decisions So that I didn’t have to be
anxious about wondering what I should do. And if he’d come, he would
have controlled the situation. he was planning on it, but he had to
work. So, yeah, it was interesting to see how things worked out. , It
was interesting to see how Alpha-Nature would be sensed by me or by
the other fags. I’m not going to say much more on that, But it was
interesting to see. And Yeah, no. Sex happened. The hierarchy was the
fags getting drinks and stuff at the end. The fags took, You know, put
on the man Men shoes and kissed their feet. I did not, . But Yeah, it
was great. I ordered. I provided food and alcohol. In the future. I
don’t know. I mean, I’m happy to provide. I have the means to do that.
We may decide in the future to do something in public, somewhat
suggested that some people might actually be more nervous to go into
private place, but others feel very strongly that it should be in
private. And I tend to agree that most people will be better in
private. But I’m about to New Jersey, so I’m not sure about this. I
want, It went well enough that I’d like to do it in the spring. , so
maybe another faggot or Alpha can host in the city, or we might just
do it in New Jersey. About half of the folks came from New Jersey and
Upstate anyway, , But, , yeah, I’ve got. We’re definitely gonna do
another one when it’s warm, I think in April, and then probably one
in, like August, when it’s really hot. And then, in December,
November, one, Etc, A seasonal, and then I want to do one. And, , in
Cleveland for claw in April and then in Chicago, , for M, , for IML, .
We also have a lot of fags in the UK. , so I think eventually one
could be done for leather week, which is a huge or a huge Kink thing.
And yeah, if you have any specific questions, I can happily talk more
about them things, and it would be interesting to get the perspective
of the Alphas who came, you know, if you want, and I listed in the
server who those were brothers. If you wanted to reach out to them.
I must tell you that I’m so proud of everyone who was able to be there. It’s a big step for anybody to go and meet up with perfect strangers from the internet, to step out from behind screens and make the difficult attempt to experience a form of personal truth.
This Discord is the culmination of my efforts here. I want to bring people together so they can truly start to embrace their truth and start to put it into action. I can teach all day long through the personal experience posts and other writing, but it’s the community connection that leads to the true magic of Hierarchy.
It’s no longer book learning. It can be life.
I really hope everyone reading this will finally make the leap and join the HU Discord. There is a place for you. CLICK HERE or CLICK THE PIC BELOW to join!
