Alpha awakening? Confused beginning
Hi Sam,
I'm Timothy, and I have a question about how to move forward.
I'm 24 years old, European, and for a long time, I considered myself a versatile bisexual guy, although I dated other guys. I've been in relationships, so I wasn't hooking up, but all the time, I've been extremely horny. I always knew I had a lot of stamina and a willingness to dominate, but some of it surfaced just recently.
A few months ago, after a very short time being together, I married the love of my life (also because of some documentation needs). It was a spontaneous decision, but we knew we were made for each other. Up to that point, we mainly had oral sex, and I'd always put him to cocksucking, never the other way. So when we finally married, we said ok to anal sex without protection, since we tested neg for STDs (I don't want to potentially expose my boy). And so I fucked him, and he loved it a lot. I can go for hours, and he enjoys it. I throatfuck him and put it in from the back, and he always cums ropes.
Since at the beginning of the relationship we said we're both verse, I didn't mind him trying to fuck me. But when we actually try, he always gets soft. He comes up with some excuse about the lube making it not work, but I feel it's bullshit. I also realised that I don't want to be fucked by him but just want to breed his hole, and maybe not just his. I am just so buzzed with energy; I feel like I want to dominate and dominate hard. My husband, let's call him Fel, seems to just be a perfect bottom, or perhaps a fag; he just doesn't know it or doesn't want to admit it yet.
I wonder, what can I do to see how he feels about it? How can I possibly become the alpha that I know I am? Perhaps I felt limited by conventions and norms, but a few weeks ago, I came across this blog and X account previously, and I have been thinking about it. I was thinking maybe I should casually introduce him to a cage as a roleplay and see if it leads him to some more thinking.
I just know I would be a damn good alpha, but I also imagine things get complicated when there are feelings for a person. Is there any way to reach out to you for some chat and talk this more, bouncing email-style messages sometimes gets tricky hahaha.
I'd appreciate your advice!
Thanks,
Tim
