Alpha or fag ?

Hi Sam, how are you ?
I already have send a message before but I want to add more details.

Actually I am a 20 years old French boy, I practise a lot of gym ( with the goal to be massive ), and I try to improve my self confidence and manly. And I have to boyfriend ( loves their but in sex is bad ) and a new fag ( he want to help to grow and he obey at all my orders but 0 sex )

Actually I want to be more alpha but I have two problems:

- first : bad self confidence and anxious disorder ( i  feel fag when I stress because I want to be guide by a men )

- second : I don’t have men friend ( at the gym I see guys who seems very alpha and hot and kind but I don’t know how to talk with him

So do you have advice to help me with man friendship ( and if it s possible to tell them I want be their fag ) and if it s possible to be alpha with fag and weak guys and totally a fat with men most powerful ?

thanks for you respons !

Ps : how I can find other cashfag ahah ?