coming out

Dear Sam the Faggot,

We could be brothers. I wish we were. I'm probably much older than you, but you are much wisher than I.

I am a faggot, or at least I think I am. But I'm not out to myself completely, and you are the 2nd person I have told I have fantasies of serving. The first person is a dominant man younger than I, who lives in another state. We met via social media accounts that neither of us use anymore, so we communicate via text messages or snail mail.

I have a boyfriend, a partner of 10 years, and we have a house mortgage, but I'm not out to him.

I'm torn. I feel I should try to live my remaining years happy in my relationship, and continue to hide my fantasies of serving dominant men. My BF is plain vanilla in many ways, and I feel confident that even approaching the topic of needing him to be more dominant would cause the relationship to end.

I apologize for wasting your time since I don't really have a question. I'm just venting. However, I really do appreciate your website. Thank you for your posts and advice.