Discovery?

Hi Sam,

I’m writing today because I feel I am at a crossroads right now. For most of my life I thought I was an alpha especially in my hometown where I was one of the strongest guys and everyone wanted to hook up with me. However, since I’ve been in college I don’t know if that is the case anymore. Despite being quite tall and built I’m still considered one of the weaker guys in my friend group and my journey started  when chicks only talked to me to get with my friends. I began thinking about what made them so much desirable and one of my realization points was seeing how big their bulge was in their boxers. I tried to put it off as admiration but I began having dreams of them and after reading some of your responses I realize if I truly was an alpha I wouldn’t be entertaining these thoughts. I honestly don’t know how to feel since my entire worldview has been flipped but I can’t deny how I feel and I don’t know how to proceed?