Fag balls

Hi Sam, before I knew I was a faggot and locked myself, when I would jerk off my balls would always retreat inwards like that knew it was wrong to be using my dick. Does this have anything to do with the genetic predisposition to faggotry? Every alpha who I’ve discussed it with looked at me like I was crazy when I described it. My balls are obviously significantly smaller than theres but idk just curious. Thanks