gay?

I am a gay man. I am also a faggot, in that I exist to serve dom men and to be used and abused by them. However I don't get this serving straight guys. In my experience straight guys will do anything to avoid gay men - it is very bad for their image to be associated with us. All my experiences as a faggot has been with dom gay men (not straight). So isn't this straight guy using faggots things just a fantasy?