Help me please

I have been serving an extraordinary Jamaican Alpha for 4 months now. I can barely fit the tip of his cock in my mouth, but I use both hands and my tongue to make him cum and he calls me a good boy. Last night after he came in my mouth he said that he wants to fuck and breed me. I am 19 and I'm a virgin. I don't know what to, brother.

I playfully asked him if he would hurt me, but he just said "I will, but it's inevitable" with a straight face. He is a nice guy, but his cock is enormous, huge, gigantic, and he is very honest when he says that it'll hurt.

I am about to turn 20 and I feel ready to lose my virginity. But I wonder if I should look for a smaller dick to be my first. What would you do, brother?