New Feelings and New Experiences
Hi Sam, this is Andre again, Alberto's friend.
I have been thinking a lot about my responsibility with Alberto. After everything that happened this year, I felt quite guilty for exposing him to Angela's questionable attitudes. As you know, she has tried several times to convince me to send Alberto back to his home, which would've exposed him to great danger with his father. Of course, I would never do that with him, but I am now noticing that I have great influence and responsibility with him. It is my duty to take care of him and make sure he is safe, and I will not disappoint my little buddy.
The last few weeks have been of deep self-reflection for me and I went back to therapy to organize my thoughts. My therapist believes that I should keep my heart open and explore these new feelings, open to new forms to express my sexuality. And I agree with him. He's a straight man with a deep understanding of sexuality and I guess familiar with hierarchy because he always tells me that Alberto needs a firm hand and I don't need to be gay or bisex to be this firm hand. I agree with him. I have no prejudice at all, from the bottom of my heart. I even tried to watch gay porn to see if my cock would get hard, but no matter how how the guys are, I don't feel sexual attraction toward men. What turns me on is Alberto's big eyes asking me to take care of him, that makes me crazy.
I am still reluctant to call him "faggot" or "slut", but I have been really into calling him "good boy" or "sweet boy" and he really loves it. Alberto is much more of a sexy romantic gay boy than a hungry slut. In fact, my cock is the only one he has ever sucked or served. And I'm not gonna lie, I've using his holes a lot. Our favorite positions nowadays has been cowgirl. I sit on the couch with my legs open, he comes like an obedient puppy and sucks my balls and my cock for however long I want, no matter if 5 minutes or 3 hours. Then I lube his hole, he sits on my cock looking at me, and I hug him tight. Then my boy rides me while I hold his body against mine, and it feels so good that I hardly ever change the position. I usually let him ride as much as he wants, and when I'm getting close, I just tell him to stop and fuck his hole hard and deep, pumping my load inside of him. I love how he thanks me at the end, as if I was doing him a huge favor for fucking his tight hole.
I still love pussy and I want to have many girls in my bed. But after what has happened, I will focus on taking care of Alberto's mind, feelings, and body. He loves tattoos and he has always had a dream to tattoo a flower on his ass, but of course he could never do it while living with his parents. Now that he is with me, I've been encouraging him a lot to do it, but I want to choose the best artist possible to do it. His body is perfect and I don't want anything to change his beautiful ass.
I will keep exploring my feelings and deal with the fact that apparently I am an "Alpha." I have never thought about that to be honest. For me, taking care of women and gays is just what any men should do, no matter what. I think it's the reason why men exist, but learning more about hierarchy has been really good to me. And it has helped me to understand that I can have sex with Alberto without necessarily identifying as bisexual. I don't even think about fucking other femboys, I am very happy pumping all my loads inside my lovely friend and little princess.
I hope that one day I'll have a lovely wife loyal to be, but I will never let any woman harm Alberto's feelings. He has my word and I will never disappoint him.
By the way, thanks for sharing the diet by Francesco. Alberto read it here and showed to me. He is healthy and usually doesn't struggle to get ready for me, but I want him to keep skinny, so I told to him to follow the diet. He immediately went to the groceries store and bought all the ingredients, including the fiber gums to take every morning with chia seeds. It's too bad to see that Francesco's partner didn't follow it. Alberto literally ran to the store to follow what I said. I guess I am a lucky guy, but every time I see him doing my laundry or kneeling for me I am more and more sure of how lucky I am. He says it's the least he can do after all the times I saved him from bullies or from his dad. But still, I feel very lucky to have such a sweet princess with me.
I don't know if I love him as I will love my wife one day. This is still confusing for me. But I definitely love him as a lovely and sweet princess who I will always protect.
I hope everything is going well with you, Sam. Take care and have a great week.
