Thinking about another Man!!

Hello Sam!!

This is Mika from Peru, how are you??

I have a question for you... is it wrong to think of another Alpha?? I saying this because I love love to read the stories King Lorenzo. I think Gio and I would be really good brothers and friends!! We have the same age and I think we think similar! But my question is that I am serving Gael every week doing everything he wants: makeup, girl's clothes, I let him call me Luna, I cook all his meals, I do everything for him!! But I really want to feel more loved... he is good to me, and always protects me when someone wants to be homophobic, he is really great with this and I feel very safe with him. But when we have sex, he fucks, he cums, and he tells me to leave. When I am in his car, he cums, put his pants up, and drops me off at home. When I am in his house, he cums, turns his back to me and go to see girls in tiny clothes on social media. So when I see Master Lorenzo washing his faggots it's so perfect and so hot. I jerked off twice reading how he fucked Jose and he fucked Gio dp... is it possible to fall in love with an Alpha I don't know?

I guess my question is: am I a bad faggot for fantasizing about him or this is normal? Gael is the only dick I have seen in my whole life, so maybe I just need to focus more... can you please help me? I love you a lot brother!!