Tyler again
Hi Sam, this is Tyler from Amsterdam. I sent you a message in late April about two Alphas I was serving: Adam and Steve.
I always read your website and respect your work a lot. I saw that you created a thread for my story and I really appreciate that. I decided to continue sharing my story with you after reading Fag Ben's account. The issue of Destroyer Alphas is a serious one and my dilemma together with your experience might help other fags.
A lot has happened in these past 2 months since we talked... I've been serving Steve (the good Alpha) several times a week but, although I know I shouldn't answer him, Adam still texts me from time to time, and I haven't blocked him. Last week, Adam invited me to his place for the first time since he called me a disgusting bitch in April. I was reluctant but he is so hot that I decided to go and give him a second chance.
As soon as I arrived, he asked me where on my face I had had the cold sore. I thought that he would try to apologize, so I pointed to the corner of my mouth, close to my bottom lip and said "right here". He said in a lovely way "oh, baby, let me see" and when I turned my face to him he gave me a huge slap on the part of my face that I had pointed to him. He is twice my size and his hand is easly the size of my whole face, he smacked his 5 fingers against my face and I almost collapsed. I got really dizzy, my face was burning, and I could feel some tears coming of from my right eye because of the impact. He was laughing and said "oh, I see, right here?"
I asked him why he had done that to me, but he just said it was a joke and told me to stop being a sissy. He sat down on the couch and snapped his fingers for me to suck his dick, with my face still burning. I held his dick, worshipped his balls, but didn't keep eye contact because I was actually afraid of him. After taking that one slap right on my face, I realized that he could've broken my neck if he wanted to. So he said "Eyes up here" for me to look at him while sucking, I apologized and said that my face was still burning from the slap. He said that my whole body would be in pain soon if I didn't make him cum while looking straight to his eyes.
I felt weak, vulnerable, fragile, and although I had Adam's dick in my mouth banging my throat, I could only think about how protective and sweet Steve was. He knows how to put me in my place but never would hurt me, I never needed to fear him to respect the great man he is. But Adam loves the feeling of fear in the eyes of a faggot.
After noticing my pain and my fear, it didn't take long for him to cum. I swallowed his big load and kept on my knees without knowing how to react. He sent me to the kitchen with no word of affection, no "good boy". He just pointed to the kitchen and told me to do the dishes while he took a shower. I started crying while doing the dishes thinking about what had just happened.
A few minutes later he came from his shower completely naked, still a little wet and with a hard dick. He held me by my neck and said that he had taken pills for erection to make sure that he would be able to fuck me all night long even if his balls were empty. He put my pants down, started fingering me in the kitchen, and I didn't react against him. He soon took me to his bedroom, put my ass up, and spanked me, punched my back, choked me, hit my face again. When my whole body was sore he put some lube on his dick and started fucking me rough and whispered in my ear "I love to see you in pain"
I felt lonely and vulnerable, so I just closed my eyes while he banged me balls deep. He came inside of me but with the pills he has taken he dick would not go down. So he was just fucking more and more, enjoying my pain. He said that his cock was sore even with the lube he had put in my hole but, in his words, he wanted to see how much pain his cock could cause in a weak faggot like me.
He didn't allow me to sleep and spent the whole night fucking me. When he couldn't stand the disconfort in his own dick, he took two huge dildos and kept fucking my hole just for the pleasure of seeing me in pain. I asked him to stop with the dildos and he just said I was lucky he wasn't fisting me.
He sent me back home at 5 am in the morning. I arrived home, took a shower, and my hole was horribly sore, I could see the blood running through my leg while I washed the lube mixed with his cum. I felt horrible, Sam. Adam made me feel worthless, a piece of trash, that he could harm as much as he wanted to.
I called Steve, but didn't want to tell him the truth. So I told him a friend had died and I was feeling lonely. It was Saturday morning, and he immediately invited me to his house, ordered lunch for us, and cancelled his plans just to take care of me. He made me laugh, we watched some movies, cooked dinner together. He usually starts kissing me and put me on my knees as soon as I arrive to his home. But this time he didn't grab my ass, he didn't punch or smack me, nor touched me without consent at any moment because he felt how fragile I am.
I am very much into make-up, so he put make-up tutorials for me to watch on YouTube and cuddled with me until I fell asleep in his arms. Around 3 am in the morning, I woke up and noticed that he was jerking off in his side of the bed but not touching me at all. I asked what was happening and he said that he woke up really horny but didn't think I was emotionally ready to serve him. I felt so loved and respected when he said that. I just said "I belong to you and you should never need to jerk off to empty your balls", I gave him a blowjob, making sure to be the best cocksucker he has ever had. I didn't stop sucking until I felt his body shaking. He pumped a load down in throat and I swallow every single drop. He brought me back to his arms, kissed my forehead, and said "this was amazing, you're a perfect boy, I want you to be my sub boy". I said thank you, and slept on his chest, feeling the taste of his cum.
Sam, I won't ask you if I should give another chance to Adam because I know your opinion. But I do need your advice on how to behave with Steve. Do you think I should tell him all about Adam? Steve wants to own me and he was very clear that he'll only take me as his sub boyfriend if I stop serving any other men. I'm afraid of his reaction if I tell him that I have been serving Adam for so long... and to be completely honest, I still feel the urge to serve Adam. I know it's stupid considering who he is, but I can't help it. Especially after a few drinks, I always think about Adam's cock hurting me first. The danger and the pain turn me on. I don't know what's wrong with me, Sam. I know I'm young and I have a lot to learn. I don't wanna die in the hands of Adam but I can't stop thinking about his overwhelming presence.
I love you, Sam. I really do. And I love the amount of effort you put in this beautiful site. Please, give me some word of comfort and advice if you can.
