Hi Sam. I’m 24 years old, I live in Poland, and I’m a trans woman.

I’ve been listening to your podcast since 2021 and I’ve been into hierarchy since I was 15. I’ve always been very feminine and attracted dominant men. At some point, I decided to transition because I wanted to fit in and not be bullied for being a sissy faggot.

But these things still turn me on. I met my Master in 2023 and I’ve been serving him since then.

However, I feel like he was more sexually attracted to me when I was a more effeminate faggot. Now, I’m an attractive woman.

On one hand, I feel good about my femininity, but I miss the adrenaline and the sexual tension.

Sometimes I think about detransitioning so he would use me more intensely again, and so I could feel like a pathetic slut again. I miss that.

But he doesn’t want to be in a relationship with a man. Not even a trans woman. He’s forcing himself to look for a woman, even though he prefers men. He wants to be accepted by our intolerant society.

I’m not really sure what I’m asking you for. Maybe some advice.

Should I leave him, or should I adapt to his needs?

I don’t know what to do.

Thanks for the question!

Your situation is a little confusing, I must say, and I mostly blame your Master for this. Let’s see … your Master DOESN’T want to be in a relationship with a Man, nor a trans woman … but he’s now looking for a relationship with a woman??? Can you hear how ridiculous that sounds?

I don’t see why you should be suffering just because your Master is buried deep in the closet and terrified of living his truth. You already have enough issues to handle just being a trans woman in today’s world! 

So I’m guessing that you haven’t been surgically-altered during this transition (since you said you can detransition)? Since you said you would be happier as a faggot, why not just leave this Master, detransition into a faggot, and live more happily? Why go through all of this complication?

I’m not sure if that really helps. Yours is a complicated situation. I recommend you simply things.   

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