Memories
I’m a 22 years old college student and quite new to the overall hierarchy and alpha scene I just found it this past couple months and was something I found hot to think about. Personally, I’ve never felt labeled anywhere somewhere between alpha/prealpha and maybe beta-dom as I’m a vers top were I mainly enjoy topping but I have bottomed a few times before.
My interest in hierarchy spiked again around 5 days ago when I saw one of my neighbors from my hometown posed a shirtless pic of himself at the gym. I had not seen him in over 4 years and now he was 18 and he had strong biceps, a wide chest, and what drew me the most was a strong set of 6pack abs.
Seeing his photo reminded me of something that happened a couple years back that I kind of forgot but realized was big to who I am. When I was a junior in high school we used to hang out afterschool because we grew up close to each other since elementary school. That year he got into football and especially wrestling. So he would often ask me to grapple with him which I did and I won just because I was older. However, in my senior year he ended up beating me multiple times despite being 4 years younger than me and the pinnacle moment was when he won and duct taped my hands behind my back and stood on top of my back. We never talked about it much because it was all friendly but after that we never wrestled as he trained with actual wrestlers.
Now looking back at it I’m realizing he was somewhat an alpha or I might not be as unlabeled as I thought. In the days after seeing his gym photo all I’ve been thinking about is his physique to the point where I canceled a hookup to jerk off. I’m starting to realize I definitely fall into the beta to even fag tier now as I’ve constantly thought about and even dreamt about him dominating me. I wanted to share this story because I think that so many moments like this happen to show people their place but I was just oblivious to it. Now I’m not sure how to even proceed with my newfound info especially considering how he’s much younger than me and I want to respect his boundaries. I don’t know if you have any advice on how to go about it especially if we don’t talk anymore?
As a note I am fine with the posting of the story but I’ve left the fields blank just because I don’t feel comfortable revealing my info just for my personal comfort.
