(Originally published on FWA on October 18, 2018,)

Lately I’ve had the good fortune to come across a number of (formerly) straight Men who have discovered within themselves a need to serve other Men as a faggot. In my opinion, these examples demonstrate the intrinsic nature of the Alpha/fag concepts in Male development. These are the fundamental building blocks of development, innate qualities created genetically before birth and outworked during life experience. 

However, being born that way doesn’t mean it’s always easy to accept or understand. For me, it was relatively easy since I was gay from as far back as I can remember, and submissive, too. All it really took was the right Alpha at the right time to unlock my faggotry. From that point forward, I never really grappled much with uncertainty.

But it’s more difficult for Men who identify as straight and are suddenly confronted by the truth of their real identity. One recent example I’ve featured here is the story of frat fag, and his evolution into a faggot in service to Alpha Duke. 

Now I’ve met another (formerly) straight Male who has begun to grapple with his newly budding pangs of faggot desires. Here is his message to me, with my responses woven into it:

Hi there. I’m very new to this and I have so many questions that I almost don’t know where to begin. I’ve recently started serving as a faggot. I’ve had fantasies about this on and off for years, but I consider myself basically straight, so I always felt a lot of shame about it and tried to ignore it. I got into a thing online with an alpha who persuaded me to try things for real, and sort of passed me to an alpha who lives very close to me. Well, things clicked, and I’m now serving this alpha. But we’re both quite new to it, and we’re both feeling our way forward. My main two questions are these:

First, I still have moments when I’m with friends, or I’m with my girlfriend or whatever, and it all hits me, and I feel an overwhelming sense of shame and separation – that there’s something about me that a lot of people just can’t ever know, and that I’m kind of living two lives now. Does that pass? Have you experienced that, and did you find a way to cope with it, or is it just something that you get used to, that subsides over time?

I had feelings similar to those, my brother, but it was probably much more intense when I was deeply closeted in my early/mid teens. Unlike you, I was never straight, and so I never really had the idea that I was equal to my straight Male friends or shared any similar feelings with them. 

In your case, you believed one thing about your sexuality and everyone accepted that about you. Now your reality is suddenly much different. So now there is a separation between your reality and the reality that those in your life believe about you. 

Coping with it might involve you understanding the truth above. There will be a natural separation within you during this adjustment period, but it won’t last forever. As you feel more comfortable, you’ll feel safer to become more honest with those closest to you. Trust me, you’re already on the right path by examining this issue carefully.

My other question is about my girlfriend. I feel like I should break things off with her, partly because obviously I feel like I’m lying to her but also I feel like it would be a way to show my alpha how serious I am about serving him. But I also wonder if he would actually prefer me to keep my girlfriend, and if being single to please him might actually cross a line? (He’s basically straight, too). I don’t want to ask him, because I don’t want to put it on him. But I want him to know that I’m willing to dedicate myself to him. Any advice would be great!

Let’s call it truthfully first: you ARE lying to your girlfriend. I’m sure you care about her. I think breaking things off with her is the right thing to do, if for no other reason than to set her free to find someone who can love her honestly.

As for the other idea, I think it’s very telling that you’re even thinking about transforming this breakup into a tribute to your Alpha. Honestly, I think that is a great idea. I don’t know your Alpha, obviously, but I think most Alphas would be quite moved and excited by the idea of a straight faggot casting off the last vestiges of his Manhood and submitting himself fully to serve them. 

I don’t think you should ask him about it. I think you should break up, and then present the sacrifice to him as a gift of your true loyalty and submission to him. Tell him something like, “I broke up with her so that I can serve you better, Sir.” No Alpha is going to refuse such a gift.

I just cannot tell you how proud I am of this brother of mine! I love thoughtful faggots who take the commission of serving Men seriously! With every discovery, with every admission, the truth of the Male Hierarchy becomes self-evident. All Men are NOT created equal. Some are born to rule, and some are born to serve. Discovering that truth within ourselves and embracing it can make all the difference in our lives.

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