Master Maurice And The Issue Of Faggot Self-Esteem
The following post is part of a thread following the life and teachings of a 30-year-old God Alpha named Master Maurice as he takes ownership of a disabled faggot named Édouard. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
Faggots in general are insecure creatures. After all, we are weak, slavishly addicted to service and submission. We are conditioned by both our Hierarchical place and by the Alphas who own/use us to always remember our fallen, inferior state.
In fact, it’s our weak and submissive state that makes Alphas love owning us.
But such a place in Hierarchy creates self-esteem issues. Many faggots struggle with intense feelings of worthlessness and shame. Alphas grew up as beautiful, desirable, popular, and well-adjusted; on the flip side, faggots grew up with none of those formative advantages. Faggots are often the outcast, the forgotten, the shunned. Faggots are often used and tossed away. Self-esteem is definitely difficult to cultivate, even in the best circumstances.
Which is why I initially flinched when Master Maurice wrote to me about wanting to take ownership of a beautiful faggot named Éduoard who happens to be paralyzed from the waist down. Instantly I put myself in my brother’s place, and imagined how I’d feel trying to serve a gorgeous and healthy God Alpha while being crippled. Oh gosh, whenever I do I feel a wave of shame ripple through me!
I flinched because I knew the difficult road ahead, a road Master Maurice was bravely willing to travel because he is a great Protector Alpha and he loved that beautiful faggot. I hoped that somehow Master Maurice’s influential power and his gigantic heart would help little, broken Éduoard finally find completion.
But, as always, roads often become bumpy … and undriveable.
Hey Sam,
Here is Master Maurice from Switzerland again. I have been learning a lot about how to properly use my fag. I don’t know if you remember him, but he has a disability and cannot walk. He can only move his neck and arms. I think I’ve been taking care of him very well, but I have an issue that you might be able to help.
He always repeats how hot I am and considering that I have been working out since I was 18, I guess he’s right. I am tall and consider myself a quite confident and handsome Alpha Man. The problem is that my boy is constantly afraid of being replaced. He has been saying things like “why would a man like you stay with a fag like me? I can’t even walk” And that’s crazy because I was the one hitting on him from the beginning, I wanted to feed and breed him from the first time I put my eyes on him. And he’s a really hot twink with a tight ass, but he thinks he is worthless because of his condition.
Sometimes I like to watch porn while he sucks my cock, and a few days ago we were doing this and something quite unusual happened. I know that my boy feels bad for not being able to offer his ass to me doggy style, it’s a big taboo in his mind. So I always try to be thoughtful and watch fags being fucked on their stomachs, although he has never asked me such a thing. So a few days ago I was watching this really sexy blonde twink getting fucked on his stomach while the Alpha was banging him just like I do with my boy. I was getting close and everything was going really well with his mouth serving my cock and balls. But then the fag on the video put his ass up and he Alpha held his ass doggy style. I noticed that my boy saw it but he was a good boy and continued to suck me until I finished in his mouth. He swallowed my cum as I trained him to do, and in less than five minutes he started to cry with all the air of his lungs, weeping histerically. I comforted him in my arms trying to understand what was going on. And my boy just repeated that he was a useless boyfriend because I would never be able to fuck him missionary or doggy style. My balls were empty and I just wanted to relax and fall asleep, but I spent an hour taking care of my boy until he stopped crying.
So Sam, I’d like to hear from you. How can I show my boy how special he is? I took him as my boyfriend, I introduced him to my friends, I call him a good boy every single day, and really take care of him. But he has this huge internal block in his mind affecting his self-esteem.
Ironically enough, I have no intention to break up with him because of his disability. But yesterday I thought for the first time that dealing with these crises so often, while there are thousands of twinks in my city willing to serve me, might be too much for me. Am I an asshole for thinking like that?
Thanks, Sam
I openly cried when I first read Master Maurice’s letter. I feel so much of Éduoard’s pain, shame, and crushing frustration. This faggot understandably feels so inadequate that he’s unable to embrace the great fortune he has of being owned by a God Alpha like Master Maurice. It’s like having the most delectable feast laid out before you, but because you feel fat you never enjoy a single bite.
I’m instantly reminded of my time as the owned faggot of Master Aaron. The Alphas I’ve served were all good-looking in various ways, but Master Aaron was truly breathtaking. He had a model’s face and a gorgeous, muscular body wrapped in a tan that looked as delicious as it tasted. As a straight Alpha, he had his pick of females, but he chose to own ME … and I could never understand it, let alone accept it. Master Aaron’s occasional gifts to me (like flowers or heartfelt cards) or his compliments when I served him helped soothe my self-esteem issues, but they never went away completely.
But I wasn’t crippled, either. I can only imagine if I had been crippled, my situation with Master Aaron would’ve been drastically different.
What Master Maurice is attempting to do here is admirable – beautiful, even – but I’m not sure the self-esteem issues will ever go away. Not completely. I did some research into this topic (since I have little practical experience), and here are some suggestions (from research and my own brain) to boost Éduoard’s self-esteem:
1. Encourage artistic expression. One thing the handicapped need are personal outlets, ways for them to express themselves through art of some kind. That could be writing, sculpting, music, singing, public speaking, drawing, etc. When they try these art forms, be encouraging and genuinely complimentary.
2. Encourage personal growth. Disabled people sometimes wallow in feelings of helplessness and self-pity. Push them to try new things that initially might even be a little bit of a struggle for them, but once successful can be sources of pride. Of course, be helpful and encouraging when they try.
3. Try to find humor in situations. This can be tricky, but disabled people who can laugh at themselves and their situations have much better success with self-esteem. Disabled people are just like every other screwed up person on the planet. Laughing at it helps the pain and burden lighter for them, and everyone else.
4. Try to keep a proper perspective. A disabled person isn’t dead, nor are they useless. While we have life, we have possibilities. There might be limitations on what we can do, but we can find joy in the things we can!
5. Don’t give up on them. Disabled people fear abandonment more than anything else. They often need people anyway, but they don’t want to lose the support that keeps them fighting for their lives. Keep showing them you love them and care about them and that they’re a special part of your life!
Master Maurice has accepted a tremendous assignment. He’s elected to become that Superman other Men and Alphas could never be. He’s already fulfilled practically every dream Éduoard could possibly have.
But the road ahead will still be difficult, no doubt. Perhaps some of the tips I’ve provided above can help Éduoard build up some self-confidence and sense of worth. I hope so! He’s a good faggot who has been gifted with the opportunity of a lifetime – serving a God Alpha daily!
But my heart goes out to Master Maurice in particular. It’s clear he desperately wants to reach Éduoard and lift him up emotionally, and his honest letter reveals some of the heartbreak he’s feeling right now. He may never manage to accomplish it entirely, at least not the way he wants.
I hope he does win this battle against Éduoard’s insecurities! But I bless him and thank him for trying at all!
I love you, Master Maurice!
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