Alpha Evolution

Hi, first of all, love your work

So, i am now 25 years old and own multiple fags, some my age, others older and most of them younger than me. The older faggots I mostly see them as cum dumps and toys to use to let off some steam and the younger fags, although I do like to break them in and training them to be good fags I also like to treat them almost as girlfriends. But it wasn't always like that. When I was about 18 till I was 21 i had a crush on a friend of mine and I think I almost had fag feelings for him, I wanted to be his fag. Now, nothing happened between us because he was deep in the closet so I got over the crush and started to own faggots and now I can't even think of ever wanting to be a fag ever again. So... what happened?? Can a fag evolve into an alpha?? Or was I always an alpha and was just infatuated?? Or am I pretending to be an Alpha now and I am in fact a faggot in denial??

Thank you once again and sorry for any misspealing mistakes, english is not my first language