Blowjob

Hi Sam!

First, I love you and your content <3 everything you do is so special, I wish I had a friend like you to talk about my life and questions.

I am 22 from Uruguay. I have always felt very submissive at school whenever other boys told me to do something. I feel a natural urge to obey and I'd rather not taking big decisions over my own life. I met a wonderful man a few months ago, he's 30, very good-looking, smart, and successful in his career.

We don't use terms like Alpha and Faggot, but he is clearly the one giving the rules. He took my virginity in August after a very romantic date, and since then he has been fucking and breeding me very often, at least 3 times a week. He knows how to be a Man and give the orders, but he's also very sweet. He taught me how to suck his dick, how to ride him, how to look sexy in doggy style, etc.

My only problem is: he refuses to suck my dick. He told me that he hates the feeling of a dick in his mouth and will not do it just to please me. He likes to rim my hole and it feels amazing, but I really want to feel a blowjob too.

Am I being selfish? Should I just forget about it? How likely do you think it is to find a big strong intelligent Alpha like him willing to suck my dick before fucking me? I don't mind being a submissive bottom for him, but I am really curious to have the feeling of a warm mouth on dick too.