Faggots who have been SA’d

I consider myself a faggot. I was SA'd at the age of 13 by my stepbrother. He was no alpha but he was two years older than me and was able to get what he wanted, if not exactly what he wanted. Is there a category or sub category of alphas who will sexualize and use what happened to me? I sexualize it myself and I hope to attract an alpha who can "sense" that I was SA'd and view that as a plus. Can you speak to whether you believe SA creates faggotry or facilitates it?