Is it possible to be an Alpha faggot?

Hi Sam. I wrote you quite a few times. Now, maybe that could be of some interst.

I am a 56 years old gay man, out of the closet at age 19 in my northern country.

It was frightening at the time, since I have 3 bros and 3 sis, older siblings,  all straight, not talking of my older mom, a real good catholic. I could tell you about my coming out to her, wich was so funny, but let's try to make a short story short.

I had a long term rs with a guy, still good friends.

I wrote you earlier, and told you I want to serve young alphas muscle dudes that I see at the gym. I just love to touch their muscles, use their pride to show off, cause it turns me on.

I guess I am not your average fag, being only 5'9 and 160 lbs, using any chance I get to touch those beautiful bodies.

So for me, it's less a matter of fucking or getting fucked, its being able to have the type of body/men in my bed, and some of them are real trophies, cause they were fuckin tall, hot, hung and fit and way younger then me.

Does this makes me an alpha faggot wanting to use alpha dom at my own needs?