My fag wants a blowjob

Hi Sam, nice to met you

I am 30 and my boyfriend is very submissive. He is 21, nice and smooth twink, the bottom that any Alpha would love to breed. The problem is: we are together for 1 year and every time I fuck him he tries to make me suck his dick. I hate doing this but because he's a good boy and I love him I tried to do it a few times. Every time I get close to his dick or balls it feels horrible. I literally want to throw up just to feel the tip of his dick on my tongue. My body automatically rejects it. He says that he can bottom for longer periods if I suck him because he relaxes more, but I do hate doing it. I don't like rim either but it's 100x better than sucking dick.

He likes your content, so can you please tell him that I don't need to suck his dick to be a good Alpha and Master? Or do you think I'm wrong?