Struggling to find an alpha

Hi brother I’m Andrew a year old fag from New York and I have a question for I have been looking for an alpha to own me but I recently contacted oral herpes and whenever I talk with alphas about they often walk away from this news. It’s getting to the point where I’m thinking about not telling them. I don’t know what to do Sam I feel I’m making no progress with anyone do you have any advice for me Sam.