The question about older faggots being used was extremely timely for me. I am an older faggot. Frankly I am just plain old.
I have become re-acquainted with an Alpha that for a one year period would not acknowledge me via texting . Suddenly he is communicating with me. I was so desperate I immediately sent him money. Than in a flurry of communicating he agreed to visit me and for the duration of short weekend he would take over my apartment. This would be our first physical contact. I immediately sent him funds to pay / reimburse for cost of plane ticket. He has detailed the exact type of cigars he wants me to provide during his visit. This visit is to occur five weeks from now.
I recently moved to a new apartment and I have procrastinated in putting my possessions in order. Also, the apartment building may be uncomfortable for the Alpha. I have sent him pictures. He has told me what to arrange to put in better order. But certain things are beyond my control, eg working elevators.
The Alpha has been very clear. He expects to be serviced and he expects a wallet. Both concern me. Am I too old to serve to his expectations? Am I being a real loser by being an open wallet?
I am desperate. But I am seriously wondering if I should swallow pride and fully admit I am too old and too nervous to be a “wallet”. From the beginning. I have told this Alpha my true age and sent fotos.
I am reading you daily . I hope a response. Hopefully my question will be of interest to other old fags.
Thank you for the question, brother!
I’m excited for the opportunity you have to serve this Alpha in person! I’m proud of you for taking steps to fully experience your truth!
I think the second-guessing you express in your question is merely your nervousness. This is natural.
Think about it this way: your nervousness will pale in comparison to the shame and disappointment you will feel if you back out and fail to serve this Alpha. You’ve made a commitment to serve him, so go through with it. Everything else is replaceable except time and opportunity.
Forget your age. Forget yourself. Just serve. This Alpha accepts your worship, so be at peace with that.
Let me know how it goes!
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