Hey,

I know I am a faggot for quite a long time, but have been suppressing these feelings for a long time. Lately, I have been trying to reconnect with these feelings and mid/end of Novemeber started to experiment with chastity cages a bit by myself…

Now I did not cum for 3 week (last 2 continuously in a cage) and today I experienced something I never did. While I got aroused – kinda randomly – I felt the urge… to top… like… to actually fuck something/-one.
I have always been like an almost total bottom and never really experienced this. It was a really really realls strong urge and I am sure, if i would have taken the cage of and topped at that moment I would have loved it during that time…
I just endured it and waited for it to fade, but it was really… strong and… weird. I was always questioning myself what Alphas and Tops in general feel when they are horny and I feel like I got a very brief (and low intensity?) glimpse into this.

I actually love this – not because it changed anything of what I am or what I am meant to be, as it did not – but because I feel like this helped me to understand the urges of Alphas better and therefore be better at serving them.

However, I never heard of something like that or just didnt see it…. Is this something… common when experiencing chastity? I am just 3 weeks in and am excited what is yet to come (planned for 6 months :-! )

Well that’s an interesting reaction, for sure! I’ve never encountered that personally either in chastity or out, and I’ve never heard of another caged fag express such desires, either. 

We must be careful about this and pay close attention to it, because it might be indicating something suppressed in you. I’m not saying that’s definitely the case with you, but I think it bears close monitoring. I’m going to bookmark this question for future reference just in case, and I’d like you to communicate directly with me if there are other such strange changes or similar eruptions of Alpha-like aggression. My email is hierarchyuniversity@gmail.com

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Hi Sam!! I love you so much <3 your website is so amazing, I learn so much

So I am 19 Sam, and my bf is 29. I know I am a faggot and that’s what I want to be. He loves to dominate me and treat me like his personal hole to use and fuck. I cook for him, clean for him, do the laundry, etc And I am so happy!

But I have one question and I want your opinion… He fucks me every day and always hurts. In the beginning I told him to go slow or fuck just with the half of his dick but after some time I let him fuck the way he like (deep and hard). So is it normal to hurt all the time or it get better with time? I just close my eyes when he is fucking and wait to feel the cum inside me. I love the feeling of serving him but I never feel pleasure with the dick inside me because it hurt so much. I lost my viriginty with him and never saw other dick, so I don’t know what to do.

Faggots always feel pain and that’s normal, or I am doing something wrong? I really love to be a faggot and I understand if i need to feel the pain but sometimes I see bottoms enjoying so much, so I don’t know if it’s normal.

Thank you Sam!!! I love you a lot!

Thank you for your sincere question, little brother! I love you, too!

Certainly, anal sex can come with some amount of pain, especially when you lose your virginity. But it makes me sad that a young, genuine, heartfelt faggot like you feels resigned to a life of painful service when that is NOT true at all. 

First and foremost, you MUST be using LOTS of lube every time. Since you are having sex without a condom, you should be using SILICONE lubricant because it is significantly slicker and longer-lasting. The lube should be slathered on your hole and his dick before penetration. 

You also need to stretch your hole a little bit. You can use buttplugs of increasing size to help open your hole. Also, there is this amazing technique pioneered by CagedJock to very carefully open a hole: https://hierarchyuniversity.com/caged-jock-how-to-stretch-a-fags-hole/

And finally, you need to relax. Unfortunately, your Alpha has made that more difficult because he keeps hurting you without any consideration for what you’re going through. If he knew more about what he was doing, he might be able to improve to the point that he could cunt you, a moment you both should want. But he’s never going to cunt you by fucking you the way he is right now. 

I ask that you please talk to him about the pain you’re experiencing and how desperately you want to be a good faggot for him. Beg him to help you feel more comfortable with sex, because the pain is making it difficult to serve properly. If you need to, point him to my answer here. Whatever it takes. He must understand both your pain and your admirable desire to keep serving him.

I really hope you manage to correct this and find pleasure in your service, little brother. A good faggot like you is so rare to find, and your Alpha should be appreciative enough to try and help you serve him. You deserve it! 

I love you, sweetheart!

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Emotions changes from day to day. I feel that’s how life works. The issue is submission and one day really needy towards it and the next day having nothing to do with it or even confused by what just happened. Is it a zone, kink or why is the switch so different. Happens online and on person. Feeling a way, then next not so much. I don’t know if this is me?

I remember when I first started masturbating, or the first time I had sex, or the first time I sucked dick … I tried to run away from all of those things afterward because I was wracked with guilt or even disgust. But guess what? I quickly got over that disgust as my true feelings reemerged, and I returned to it.

I think you are experiencing something similar. What you’re describing isn’t conscious switch behavior, but rather an emotional reaction against certain behaviors for some reason. 

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Since I was young, I can remember craving the attention of really masculine Men. I was really confused by this and tried to hide it. I tried to be more masculine, gain muscle, talk with a deeper voice, and roll with the guys. Eventually, I realized I was gay. I tried to convince myself that I was a top. I never fucked anyone but I tried starting relationships with fem guys that invariably didn’t work. They could sense there was something in me that didn’t quite feel right. I was really depressed for a while.

Eventually, I stumbled on some Tumblr blogs that put things in perspective for me. I started to realize that, though I am male, I am not a Man. I had been told my whole life to be masculine, to fuck with my penis, to be a Man. But I learned that I was actually a pussy boy and that I should learn to use my boy hole instead of my boy clit.

I didn’t know what to think at first. I didn’t want to give up my masculinity and be a bitch, be the girl in the relationship. I started looking at my hole in the mirror and playing with my ass cheeks, still too afraid to put something inside. I started masturbating in strange position with my ass up in the air. It felt good but scary to be in those vulnerable positions.

As I started watching porn more oriented towards pussy boys, I found myself thinking about how great it must feel to surrender to a real Man, to give in to my desires, to please Men, to get fucked. I realized I needed to buy a dildo and try it out. What was the worst that could happen?

When that dildo finally pierced my hole, I permanently changed. I had never felt such sensations in my entire life. The feeling of being opened up and fucked like a bitch boy was incredible, over powering, and undeniable. I couldn’t keep running from it.

But run I did. I went through several dildos since that first one. I’d use one for a while and then throw it out, afraid of what I had done. But I always bought another; I craved it in my hole.

And that’s where I am now. I still crave cock in my boy pussy, but I’m still too afraid and embarrassed to admit that I’m a pussy boy.

I feel like I failed as a Man. And I guess I know I did…I feel so conflicted. I don’t want to cage my dick, but I want to cage it. I don’t want to submit, but I want to submit. I don’t know. I’m just tired of feeling like this.

Well, I don’t know what I can really say here. There’s no question you’re a faggot, but if you’re going to be this freaked out about a DILDO then you have almost no hope of ever serving a Man.

There’s a wonderful expression in English: “Shit, or get off the pot.” In other words, get the job done … or quit trying. I don’t have any magical words to make you get the courage to try – that’s all on you. The sad truth is there are plenty of faggots like you out there who will never fully experience their true purpose simply because they couldn’t muster the courage to try. 

I can only show you the path. I can’t make you walk it. 

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