Hi Sam, I’ve been reading your blog over the past year and read a couple of your books: “Are you a faggot” and “Alpha Beta: Hardcore guide to faggot Mastery”
There are many parts of being a faggot that I’m drawn to that are feel are such a big part of me, however there are a few things that I think make me not a faggot and wonder where I actually sit in the hierarchy.
My biggest struggle is needing a REAL Alpha, all these so called alphas/cashmasters and cocky entitled guys just make me cringe because I know they are weaker than me and I would just laugh if they tried to make me submit.
Im a Bi Switch (gay and sub leaning) and initially thought I might be a faggot (and admitting it on camera whilst degrading myself always makes me horny), but after ready “are you a faggot” I realised that a lot of the things don’t align with me:
- I like topping (mostly guys but sometimes girls)
- Im only submissive in the bedroom (in everyday life I present as alpha, I train Muay Thai and fight regularly, I’m confident, I’m assertive and I feel superior to most men (despite being collared and caged 24/7)
- I’ve never really had a foot fetish (although I’m developing one as my primary turn on is humiliation and I find feet disgusting – which then makes me hard)
- I would never give money to another man just because he demands it, if he’s capable he can get his own.
During the fagtest in the book most of the questions I answered yes to but with the caveat that the man is bigger, stronger, more capaable and more powerful than me. I do believe in hierarchy, but I don’t believe that most of the people who claim they are alpha or real men actually are.
Thank you!
Thank you for the question!
You present a pretty intriguing case, one of the more puzzling ones I’ve ever had on this issue. Let me say first that humans are not itemized products that fit neatly into pre-ordained boxes, so classifying everyone so rigidly is simply not possible. My hierarchical layout captures a clear picture for a vast number of people, but not everyone.
I am curious about you, because I can’t help but wonder if you are another case of “Alpha Latency”, a term for a psycho-sexual condition that some natural-born Alphas experience that lead them into unnatural sub/faggot behaviors/mentalities.
Your case as described makes you sound like you’re firmly an Alpha. In fact, you sound quite proud in describing your Alpha-like qualities. It also sounds like the people you encounter are treating you like an Alpha. You just don’t seem to have embraced it for whatever reason.
Most cases of Alpha latency involve early childhood trauma (either sexual or physical abuse) or social conditioning during their developing years. Since I don’t have a chance to interview you directly, I’m flying blind. But I would comb through your background and see if you can identify possible causes for your tendency to want to submit (or even question your Alphahood).
I think something has blown you slightly off-course, but I get the impression you’re actually an Alpha who needs to simply embrace that purpose. I bet you’d feel so much more free if you were to.
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