Hi Sam, it’s been a while. I started dating this guy named Sani Real name he’s this really nice big black guy and I love him to death dearly and I know he loves me too, but every other alpha top I’ve been with you know what at least they were open and willing to suck my dick, but this guy just won’t and I’m getting really depressed and their times when I want to hurt him and times when I wanna hurt myself I fell through the ice a long time ago I got permit shrinkage on my cock. I went from 6 1/2 nice an average down to a three and it fucking pisses me off.
I know he’s my alpha. I know that OK it’s not his job, but you know what I would like to feel fucking respected for once and not having to ask you know just once I’m sure a lot of us would love it if our alpha would actually if they actually genuinely loved us actually would love to suck our dick because you know what sometimes I think you’re hierarchy bullshit is a whole well that’s just it. I think it’s bullshit sometimes.
I’m sorry I don’t mean to take it out on you, but it’s the God’s honest truth and my antidepressants make me really fucking blunt just once I would like to encounter a top that likes to suck dick as well whatever happened to those guys
Thank you for the question/rant!
I don’t know who this is, but congratulations on the new relationship! I’m sorry it doesn’t sound totally fulfilling for you, though. But the problem isn’t with him … it’s with YOU.
It all comes down to unrealistic and/or selfish expectations.
Everybody wants to be with an Alpha, but Alphas are NOT like other Men. They almost always want completely submissive people (females and faggots) who cater to them and/or worship them. Subs they can train. Subs they can use.
Alphas are rarely interested in things like sucking a faggot’s dick, especially if they’re bisexual and leaning straight. No amount of whining or demands will make him change his NATURE. You’re going to get dismissed before that ever works.
And frankly, I think he should dismiss you. I’m mortified by your attitude. No faggot should EVER have such a self-serving perspective, nor should they ever throw such childish fits like this.
Let me tell you the truth: Hierarchy is very real. It’s not a joke, It’s not “bullshit”. And no matter how many hissy fits you throw, nothing is going to change it. Hierarchy is inescapable.
So either get your mind focused, or find a new direction in life.
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