Hi Sam.
I hope all is well.
I am a longtime Alpha worshipper. Unfortunately I’ve never served one properly. Whilst I respect all Alphas, I am particularly turned on by Destroyer Alphas, even though I am in full awareness of the toxic nature of them.
Why are some of us wired this way? I don’t understand why I derive pleasure from watching an Alpha belittle and hurt His inferiors. I particularly find myself in awe of Alpha bullies, and I enjoy amateur videos of Destroyer Alphas making Their inferior male counterparts perform non-consensual degrading acts, like kissing their shoes.
My heart always goes out to the victims, but at the same time I’m aroused by the cruel behaviour of the Alpha. It pleases me to know He enjoyed the high of His power.
It’s very conflicting, and I can’t make sense of it. I think given the choice I’d sooner be used by a Destroyer than a Protector. But I know this would be a poor life choice.
Any thoughts?
Thank you for writing in brother!
I honestly don’t know why so many faggots are drawn to serve Destroyer Alphas, other than the fact that faggots are broken creatures much the way many women are. And like faggots, women are more often than no attracted to the “bad boy” that treats them like shit, and keeps going back even if they’re abusive. There’s something about the submissive personality that is attracted by the abuse, because in their minds abuse = power, and it’s power than turns them on.
Honestly, it’s that dynamic that probably attracts Alphas to the Destroyer mentality, too.
I experimented with Destroyer Alphas mainly during my early, slutty years because my first straight Alpha used me for a year and threw me away and then I was raped, so that caused me to have low self-esteem. I felt it’s what I “deserved” for being a faggot. Fortunately I was eventually claimed by a series of very powerful Apex and God Alphas of the Protector Alpha variety, and they taught me that I had value, and they could be dominant without being cruel. It was not easy to overcome my sense of worthlessness, but I eventually did.
And so can you, brother. You just need to know that it’s okay to walk away when you find yourself serving a Destroyer Alpha, and remember there are Protector Alphas eager to own you … if you just allow yourself the chance!
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