The following post is part of a thread following the continuing service of a faggot named James who has been serving a young straight Alpha for TEN YEARS. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

I’m not going to sugarcoat it. Being the faggot of a straight Alpha is really difficult. Even under the best circumstances (and I’ve enjoyed some of the best circumstances), the straight Alpha will very likely fall in love with a woman and dismiss the fag. This of course leads to emotional devastation that many fags use random sex to ease. I can’t tell you how many nights I’ve spent crying after such dismissals, the ache inside me so palpable that I felt like I was losing myself.

Now, I did not do myself any favors during my earliest days of serving as a live-in faggot of a straight Alpha. Whenever he would bring home a female, I would get insanely jealous. I would sometimes pout, or devolve into hysterical crying. For instance, right before Master Roger dismissed me he started dating his future wife and as I was protesting this I blurted out “what about me?” and Master Roger looked at me and coldly said, “what about you?” I still feel the sting of that reply even today.

It was the first in a series of lessons I had to learn about my true place in the world and the lives of straight Alphas. Ultimately, a faggot is just a convenient slave that satisfies certain needs, not something a straight Alpha wants to build a life around. A straight Alpha eventually wants to have the wife and family, a situation that doesn’t usually require the services of a faggot.

But I’m telling you all this, not to dissuade anyone from serving straight Alphas, but to warn all faggots against allowing JEALOUSY to destroy those opportunities to serve them.

My brother James has been serving his straight Alpha for ten remarkable years, which might be close to a record. But now that dreaded jealousy is starting to rear its ugly head:

Sam;

James the Straight Man’s faggot here again …. As you may recall, I’ve been the same straight guy’s faggot for over ten years …. During that time, the Alpha male I serve has had a total of three girlfriends that I am aware of …. Although I’ve seen evidence of their existence, he has always made it a point that I never see them in person, or interact in any way with any of his women …. His reasoning has always been obvious to me since the reason for the existence of a faggot in his life has been to perform types of sexual service that is lacking in his straight relationships …. I’ve never experienced any adverse feelings up until now in that I fully understand my place as a man’s faggot …. However, recently something has occurred two times now that has evoked a powerful inner feeling of what may be a kind of jealousy within me …. The last two times he called upon me to come to his apartment for the purpose of providing my throat for his sexual release, he placed extremely tight time constraints on me as far as when I need to arrive and when I must leave so as not to be anywhere around when his woman is expected to come home …. Although I fully realize my actual place in this scenario, I’ve been experiencing a form of what feels like jealousy of a woman …. While I’ve served as a relief valve for his manly needs for over a decade, she has only been his sexual partner for a few months …. I understand full well my purpose as a faggot and that this jealousy of his woman is ludicrous on my part ….. But I must ask if perhaps this situation might not be unique …. Have other faggots serving straight Alphas experienced and verbalized this type of feeling to you in the past ? …And how would you deal with it ?

(I left the ellipses as written, but it’s just too weird looking to not comment on. Do people really use an ellipse instead of a period these days??)

My first comment to James about the “uniqueness” of his situation is this: the situation itself (a faggot serving a straight Alpha for over ten years) is definitely unique, but jealousy is definitely not. Everyone feels jealousy to some degree, even straight Alphas with the world at their feet.

As for how to deal with it, I had to learn the hard way that jealousy only robs you of the happiness and fulfillment of serving these great Alphas. So how do you stop (or at least quiet) that jealousy? For faggots, it’s important to remain humble. Jealousy is borne from a type of arrogance or self-importance. At the root of it is the “reasoning” of “I DESERVE THAT TREATMENT RATHER THAN THE OTHER PERSON” that develops in the “slighted” person.

But here’s the problem with that thinking: faggots DON’T DESERVE ANYTHING.

Every act of service and every day we are allowed to serve an Alpha (especially a straight Alpha) is a GIFT, not a RIGHT. To straight Alphas in particular, faggots are two holes to unload in, an ATM that dispenses money on command, or a domestic robot that kisses feet. It’s important to keep that in mind every single day you are blessed to serve a straight Alpha.

It’s also important to simply focus on the act of service itself and cherish it as the gift it is, whether that’s swallowing their cocks or doing the laundry or licking the toilet clean with your tongue. Focus keeps your eyes where they belong: on service.

Think about it this way: a tightrope walker must keep his eyes focused on the immediate horizon to be successful. When doing that, he enters a kind of hypnotic state in which the body can perform automatically without thought. But what happens when the tightrope walker looks down, looks up, or looks around?

DISASTER!

My brother James is looking around rather than focusing on the horizon. He’s starting to notice the preferential treatment of his Master’s females, noticing the way he’s being shunted aside for the sake of pussy. He’s tallying up his years of faithful service, and becoming frustrated that they don’t seem to count.

But I’m telling you that jealousy is a fast, one-way ticket to dismissal by a straight Alpha. A faggot has no leverage in that situation, so what is jealousy going to do except make the straight Alpha reassess whether the faggot’s service is worth the headache.

I assure you, his final answer will be NO.

So all faggots out there, I implore you: refocus your mind, concentrate on service, and be grateful every day that you are gifted an opportunity to be of service to our greatest Men! It’s probably not forever, but fond memories will be forever if you remain submissive and jealousy-free!