An Abuse Fag Gets Brave!
Even after all of these years of serving Alphas and the years spent researching and writing on the topic of Hierarchy and the Alpha/fag dynamic, I continue to learn new things. Some of these discoveries have changed my life completely (like chastity), while others spark a more intellectual curiosity.
The term agonophilia is one of those latter discoveries. I’d never heard of this psychological condition until it was brought up in the “Ask A Question” section of this site recently by a faggot named Chris (CLICK HERE TO READ). The condition involves sexual arousal arising from inflicting or receiving pain and violence. This is largely foreign to me given that I have a natural aversion to violent stuff.
But Chris not only craves this kind of action, he has found three straight, married Alphas who love to inflict pain as much as Chris loves receiving it.
In his original question, Chris asked if I thought he should tell others about the truth of his darker, more controversial interests. I’m glad to hear back from Chris, who gave me this update:
Thank you for your answer. I have since SHARED my learning of this actual term with one of my Alphas that I serve. Two are what can best be described as a Man’s Man, they are not intellectuals who’s response I feel would be who gives a shit as they punched my lights out while feeding me their dicks. But ONE, the one I’ve served the longest, 16yrs, is more introspective and reads a great deal about Psyches and self exploration, and he was equally surprised and interested by this, and unaware there was a term (relating more to the type of Man HE is than the kind of Fag I am). The other two are married and both fathers. This one has a longtime GF who IS aware of me, but only as an friend he’s known for years. She IS aware of his past as a stripper for bachelor-ette parties and the occasional gay event, and that I am Gay, but oc has NO idea of the true nature of what he is to me and what he does to me. I broached the subj of him joining us here and sharing. He was not opposed to it but said he has to think about it, since, like me, he’s never shared this side of himself with others. So we shall see.
I’m really proud of my brother for being honest with others, but particularly with this particular Alpha! By being brave and trusting his Master, he’s possibly unlocked his Master’s greater power and a provided him with a better perspective of Hierarchical truth!
This is what faggots do for Alphas (particularly straight Alphas!). By our honest submission, we teach them about their own power and place within the Hierarchical arrangement. Honestly, there is no better way to serve!
RE This is what faggots do for Alphas ”
THIS is exactly how I’ve always felt. With this Str8 Alpha in particular since our relationship actually began almost 18 yrs ago and I was NOT his Fag initially. When he and his then GF moved out of NYC I’d put him up when he was here for work, and letting me suck his dick was his way of a “thank you”. It wasn’t until 2-3 years later and he was about to bust his load in my mouth and for the first time blurted out SUCK IT FAGGOT (with a quick look to say he didn’t mean that) that I first told him it was OKAY and he was just following his natural instinct. And he was surprised when I explained my TRUE Faggot self. So yes I began to teach HIM, and bring out his Alpha self, eventually getting to the point where he only addresses me as Faggot and gets hard as a rock beating me up and holds me on his dick until this last pulse and he is empty, and getting him to the point where he UNDERSTANDS forcing my head into his sweaty underarms and breathing deep is PERFUME to a Faggot. (we often forget how confusing some of this is to a real man) It was a LONG process, just getting him to not thank me for things I did for him or gave him and to just EXPECT it and eventually DEMAND it took a year. This is the only man I’ve served who my relationship with was NOT as a faggot from the get-go. He was just a stunning blonde God to me about whom I only FANTASIZED about being a total Faggot to and receiving a beatdown from. NOW he is a Alpha MAN with me, and has admitted how much he likes it, how much taking out his frustrations on me helps him, and I am as PROUD of that as I am of being his Faggot.
I find myself in a similar role. As a kid I was expected to marry and have kids, as an out gay man you’re expected to find a partner and settle down and live a suburban dream, but the men I want to be with, don’t want to settle down. I’ve had several periods of “serving 3-4” Alphas were I was very content. I had one Apex Alpha who wanted me for himself, but could not commit the time to me, and that did not work.
All friends know me as gay, but not in this role.