I’m writing with an issue probably everyone had struggled with at some point, however I feel like for me it’s too much, and I need help.
Thing is, I always feel like am two different people, the horny and the regretful. I seek out men all the time, and every time I get on my knees I already feel deep shame, so bad it even causes apathy, where I space out while in the act. I totally disconnect from my body, and focus on the cock. That’s a good thing right? Except I feel no real sensations during that time. It’s like I’m blocking it all out. I barely moan, squeal and then mechanically cum. During and after the act I feel terrible. I become numb for a couple hours, sometimes even days. Yet I always come back crawling for more. I really can’t get enough of cock and cum and spit and piss and pits and musk. It’s always the same. The before is always amazing, I fire up grindr and arrange a meet up, I head there when the time comes and again shows up my numbness. I am infuriated that I cannot find my own pleasure in serving. Isn’t it that my pleasure is supposed to be derived from the man’s pleasure? I feel a deep sense of purpose within it, I really love men and love cock, so I push through the stupid feelings and still accept the cock and cum with my whole heart, mouth and hole.
But still, I feel like a failure. While I do recognise the deep interplay of shame and desire, and how much it drives me to wanting more and more cock, I feel like it is excessive.
Dear Sam, what would you advise me to do?
– vitale
Thanks for the question, brother!
Here’s the problem: there isn’t really much you can do about this.
You’re experiencing two things I’ve written about quite a bit on the site. The first is SUBSPACE, which causes that empty, mindless feeling you describe. The second is THE VOID, which is that numbed ache that you describe after you’ve served that eventually drives you back for more.
These are both quite natural occurrences for a faggot who does experience subspace easily (as it sounds like you do). This many not be a matter of doing anything to avoid it (because I largely think it’s unavoidable) as it is a matter of understanding what is happening within yourself and paying attention to how these feelings effect you. By doing this, you can take yourself out of a “victim” stance and become more active in how you process it.
I hope this makes some sense to you. Just know that what you’re feeling is normal, brother.
This is absolutely brutal use and abuse, but there’s no better way to brainwash a fagg0t into absolute obedience and service. #HierarchyIsLaw#HierarchyIsTruth
I am happy in a long term relationship but would like to also service an alpha male. I am wondering whether this is possible and if you have any advice on how to make my current partner embrace the idea.
Hi brother! Thank you for the question!
I’ve encountered your situation quite a few times over the years. The conventional thought is this: you already have a loving, long-term relationship … so why do you need to also serve an Alpha? Most likely this will be the perspective of your partner once you discuss this with him.
Here’s what most non-faggots don’t understand about us: we MUST serve these Alphas. The superiority and dominance of these Men automatically trigger our submissiveness and put us in a state of subspace that acts like a hypnotic drug. Endorphins flow easily as we kneel and serve these Kings.
It’s simply the way faggots are built. It’s NOT a fetish. It’s why we exist.
This is not going to be an easy conversation with your partner. But somehow you need to reinforce to him that this is something you need as a faggot, and it’s not a reflection on him.
The following post is part of a thread chronicling the experiences of a French faggot named Fabien who has been claimed by his straight Alpha friend Anthony. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
In the previous post we learned that Master Anthony was moody and clearly upset with something, but he wasn’t confiding his troubles with anyone, not even his loyal faggot Fabien. This troubled Fabien to the point that he finally begged his Master for answers and ways he could help.
While Master Anthony didn’t reveal the issue, he was comforted by his faggot’s concern and deep love.
Well, after a few days Master Anthony finally told Fabien what was bothering him!
Here’s Fabien:
A little update about Anthony’s mood. I think he’s going to get better soon. Yesterday he told me that he had decided to confront the guy flirting with the same girl as him and challenge him to a fight in front of her. He beat the crap out of him and held him down, until he pleaded for mercy and conceded that Anthony was the stronger man. The silly girl tried to make amends with Anthony, but he dumped her. Serves her right.
This morning, Anthony was hanging around the apartment in his pajamas, looking relaxed. He came to see me while I was making his bed. He thanked me for boosting his ego. I answered: “If your ego isn’t the size of the planet, I’m doing a terrible job and I’m failing my life’s purpose. You don’t have to be grateful to me, I’m just doing my duty as best as I can!” He got his cocky grin and said “I like that. But I want you to know you’re doing great. I’m glad to have you. You see, I love my bros to bits, but I always have to fight to remind them who’s the boss. It’s nice to know I can count on you for a shot of self-confidence.”
I believe I almost passed out with emotion. The next thing I knew, I was on my belly licking his toes and thanking him. Then he had me worshipping his cock; we were looking into each other’s eyes while I had his dick in my mouth and he tenderly stroke my hair, smiling smugly. I sucked him off again in the shower after soaping him up, and then again before he left for the afternoon. This time, he ejaculated all over my face! He wished me a good afternoon and gave me his orders for dinner.
Secretly I was proud of myself; I told Fabien over email that I thought a scenario exactly like this was to blame, and sure enough, I was right!
Although, honestly, it’s hard to imagine a scenario like this happening. According to Fabien, Master Anthony looks exactly like Tom Holland (hence the post header image) and is just as athletic … so why on Earth would any girl cheat on him?? It’s incomprehensible to me.
But once again my brother Fabien was absolutely perfect, following his instincts and kneeling to worship Master Anthony’s feet. This worship led to three consecutive blowjobs filled with raw passion and desire.
But it’s more than just the sexual service that’s involved. Master Anthony’s words show a deepening appreciation for his faggot, his personal property, his slave Fabien. As he feels his power growing, he acknowledges the contributions of the faggot kneeling before him. That’s not just God Alpha behavior … that’s Protector Alpha behavior!
The effect on Fabien is also profound:
Right now, I’m taking care of his laundry. I inhaled the scent of his underwear. I still can’t believe how lucky I am.
There is no doubt that fraternity rape occurs. Honestly, it’s almost inevitable. The highly-pressurized environment in college, combined with the alcohol/drugs/partying on college campuses, combined with the Alpha Pack mentality, combined with the hazing rituals of fraternities … it’s not a question of “if”, but WHEN.
I’ve always emphasized that Hierarchy affects all of us all the time, and the basic tenets of its operation have been largely unchanged over all of these thousands of years of human history. Alphas have always led and been worshiped/served by inferiors, and slave males (now known as faggots) have always served these Alphas in whatever way they required.
A faggot cannot resist its natural urge to serve superior Men. This is, in fact, the entire purpose of a faggot. Alphas sense this need in a faggot and exploit it, even without thinking in some cases. This natural cycle is so deeply ingrained in Hierarchy that almost all of it happens at a primal level beyond rational thought. This is what I teach and apply in life, and that understanding has helped me change many lives both Alpha and faggot.
Sometimes I receive letters from Alphas and faggots expressing confusion, shock, or awe at these fundamental forces of Hierarchy. I usually find them amusing and sweet. I love using them as tools for teaching and reinforcing the truth about these forces that affect all of our lives. Two days ago I received the following letter from an Alpha who sort of fell into findom in college, and it has followed him now into his thirties … without really even trying!
Read:
Hey my name is Kevin, usually go by Sal, I ran into your site trying to do some research into findom. I’m not sure if your site or podcast is supposed to be satirical or not but my question is a bit absurd so figured I’d just see if you know the answer.
Some background: back in college I used to do I think some form of findom without really realizing what it was or what I was doing. But I’m still not really 100% sure what it is to be honest.
Basically I’d just do some dirty talking and Sph for older guys online with some bulge rubbing, showing my feet, sometimes jacking off. I got into it and they were into it, and they’d kinda just send me money randomly through the day. Which I did kinda get, I’m extremely well endowed and men have in general always become exceedingly submissive around me once they find out (not a flex just a fact for the story, can link my dating profile).
Over time as I spoke to more and more guys I started making decent money, like near the peak of it I was making a couple hundred weekly, even a couple thousand some weeks. It was fun, it let me quit my minimum wage job and focus on schooling, plus it helped me pay my way through college.
So fast-forward, Im 36 now, I have a career, I don’t cam or anything like that anymore due to the nature of my job. But I still have 3 gentlemen-2 of them especially, who have never stopped sending me cash regularly. Again I’m not doing anything for them anymore, no cam, no pics, no dirty talking. I still exchange texts with them casually, just about their day etc, they seem like normal people but ya I don’t know why they send me money. At this point in my life I really don’t need it and anytime I ask them to stop or not worry about it they just send more. It’s a decent amount too, I think that’s what kinda bothers me, like between the 3 of them it’s ~8-10k yearly probably. Is this still a turn on for people with this kink? Is it even this alpha/sub or findom kink? I’ve never really been able to understand it. I’m curious if you do.
Of course, I explained to him the mechanics of Hierarchy and the purpose of faggots. I also explained that this isn’t a “kink”, but an actual expression of purpose. These faggots continue to send him money years later even though he’s doing nothing for them at all (which is wonderful and shocking), but this behavior that seems so irrational is explained easily through Hierarchical mechanics.
I haven’t heard back from Master Kevin, the accidental financial Dom. I’m not sure if my explanation satisfied him or scared him. But his experience is yet another proof that Hierarchy is real and powerful and sweeps all of us up into it regardless of how we feel about it or, like in the case of Master Kevin, we even know anything about it.
Purpose is often hard to define … but even harder to avoid!
Hey, I love your content I truly do believe the fags and alphas roles highly. I’m @Masterofbanks a financial dom my only problem lately is like to set boundaries once I first talk to the fag and get a better understanding of what they should expect and what they also want it isn’t the most attractive because there is nothing worst then the moment your talking to a fag and I have to stop and tell them a boundary so I guess my question is what’s the best way to start that conversation.
Thank you for your question, Sir!
In my opinion, you’re doing right by setting boundaries right away, especially if there are behaviors you will not accept or that you encounter too often. Waiting to set them invites bad behavior in the faggot, which must then be weeded out through training.
Starting the conversation is easy. A faggot is subordinate and a possession of an Alpha, so like an employer might do with an employee, you simply focus the faggot and tell it your demands. The faggot should be receptive to this, and if it isn’t then you need to get rid of it.
The following post is part of a thread chronicling the experiences of a French faggot named Fabien who has been claimed by his straight Alpha friend Anthony. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
Young straight Alphas deal with a lot of stress and pressure. I realize that, from an inferior perspective, these Alphas seem to have everything and little to worry about, but so much is happening below their perfect exteriors. They have intense, hormone-fueled mood swings, a roiling and constant need for sexual conquest, and they’re often overwhelmed by the burdens they feel as a leader of Men. They are constantly beset on all sides by women (and their truckloads of issues), expectations, and the uncertainty of their future goals.
True, everyone struggles through puberty. But Alphas are exceptionally powerful, so therefore their “growing pains” are equally more intense.
So what can help these growing Alpha powerhouses while they develop? Older Alpha mentors are certainly ideal, although finding them isn’t always so simple. Females are good for relieving sexual needs, of course, but they don’t know what it’s like to be a young Man (let alone an Alpha) and they often cause more stress than relieve it. And their Alpha peer group might be able to relate, but typically their interactions are competitive in nature.
That’s where a faggot is possibly the best solution. A faggot is entirely devoted to the needs of its Alpha, obedient and submissive to his every command. A faggot places no expectations on its Alpha, is there whenever an Alpha needs to blow off steam or receive comfort, and stabilizes its Alpha with constant reassurances of his power and superiority.
It’s such a shame that more young straight Alphas are not taking ownership of faggots and benefiting from this natural power exchange the way Master Anthony has been doing with his faggot Fabien!
Last night I received a beautiful email from Fabien about something that illustrates exactly what I’m talking about above. Please read:
My dearest Sam,
I must absolutely talk to you about something that just happened. I have shared a very delicate but, I think, eventually positive moment with Anthony.
You see, for several days I’d been feeling that something wasn’t quite right with him. I’ve found him more austere, less smiling, less cheerful. He hasn’t reprimanded me, so I didn’t think it was because of me, which was a relief. But it still hurts my heart to see him with less joy in life. I hesitated a lot about the right attitude to have. On the one hand, I told myself that he probably didn’t want to share his Alpha problems with an inferior male, even an older one, otherwise he would have done it. On the other, my loyalty compelled me to do what I could to make him happier.
This night, when I came out of the kitchen (now my bedroom), I found him sitting on the couch, in his pajamas, staring into space. It was too much for me. I decided to go and talk to him. I wanted to put him at ease, so that he wouldn’t think he was in a position of weakness if he were to confide his personal worries. I knelt down and kissed his feet tenderly, and I addressed him while keeping my head low at his feet.
I chose my words carefully. “My beloved master, forgive me if I offend you, but I have the feeling, perhaps wrongly, that something has been bothering you for the last few days. I want you to know that if there’s anything I can do to help you, or if you simply want to confide to someone what’s on your mind, you can tell me anything, in complete safety. I will never betray you. I’m completely at your disposal. I’ll do anything to make your life better.” And I immediately started gently kissing his feet again.
After a moment’s silence and a deep breath, he confided in me. He said it was nothing major, just an accumulation of little things. His strained relationship with his parents, teachers who reproached him for his insolent behavior despite his very good results. And then, lately, he’d been flirting with a sexy girl who, for the first time, seemed to be wavering, trying to make him jealous with another man.
I did my best to comfort him. “Master, someone as exceptional as you is bound to disturb some people. It’s normal for you to encounter some annoyances from misguided people. But please never, ever forget how far better you are than everyone else, in every single way. You are the most amazing young man. Look, you came to live here, you trampled on me and made me your slave just because you fancied it! And for that so-called love rival, I can’t believe you can actually have a love rival. Because a rival would be someone in your league, and that’s very, very unlikely. I don’t know this other man, but I know for sure that he’s no match to you. You could probably give him a beating any time you wanted. This girl may simply not be clear-minded enough to realize how lucky she is that you’re showing interest in her, but so many others, even hotter, will be!”
That’s pretty much what I remember telling him. He listened thoughtfully, then ordered: “Lick my feet”. “Gladly, Master!” After I’d licked his feet for a while, he leaned towards me and said, “You know, I’m not a sentimental guy, and I don’t express my feelings very much. But don’t think I don’t notice everything you do for me.” I replied, “You don’t have to justify yourself, Master! Not to me, never.” He seemed more relaxed. He went to bed and wished me good night.
First of all, what Fabien did in service to his Master Anthony was perfect faggot behavior. It’s exactly the kind of steady, low-pressure worship and service young Alphas need in order to feel safe enough to reveal themselves.
Fabien’s technique also followed my playbook to the letter. Fabien kept his head low and bowed, staying near Master Anthony’s feet. This kind of respectful submission allowed Master Anthony to relax and trust his faggot.
Imagine a world where young, developing straight Alphas could own faggots openly the way Master Anthony owns Fabien! In such a pure and ideal Hierarchical scenario, young Alphas would have choices and outlets to assist them in becoming more refined versions of themselves than they could without!
Alas, such a scenario will probably never happen. But fortunately there are honorable, thoughtful, deeply submissive and dedicated faggots like Fabien doing such work in secret, unheralded and largely unknown. Yet he soldiers on, serving Master Anthony faithfully and helping him to continue to develop all of the qualities he needs to live a life of a King.
I’m so proud of my little brother Fabien! Such an inspiration!
Two of porn’s biggest stars combined their respective energies into this incredible scene. God Alpha Rhyheim Shabazz – an Alpha I championed before anyone even knew his name – met up with the ever-insatiable faggot Joey Mills for an incendiary session! No matter what Master Rhyheim does to Joey (and he’s been known to twist faggots into pretzels!), Joey just keeps going!
This post is part of a thread about a faggot called Prath who bravely sought to serve a straight local Alpha. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
Faggots need challenges. It’s good to push boundaries and shake up complacency in a faggot in order for it to feel slightly uneasy. This keeps a faggot alert and on its toes.
Prath’s Master continues to push boundaries with Prath, and Prath (being a good boy) rolls with it every time.
Prath recently came to me with this challenge:
Today master came in my cabin for asking me to do his work and also to inform me that tomorrow he invited his one friend and he needs me there. Should I go?
Of course I told him he should, which turned out pretty well:
As I asked you Master was asking my advice about invinting his friend so I said yes about that. I was surprised to see the Master’s friend because he was a guy working in my team in the past and I was discouraged but your words and Master’s encourage helped to overcome from that and I served them both.
Then Master decided to make another important change:
Master was asking my opinion to live with him in his rented apartment. I was nervous but he I can take a time to think about it. I asked him to shift in mine (mine is not rented) but he said he is happy here. Master said he wants me to be full time office plus domestic helper for him. Master said it is the time to break the barrier and move forward towards the hierarchy.
Couldn’t agree more!
But Prath’s Master then had another demand:
As I told you about master asked me to deepen my submission so he made me pick his rental bills and made me shifted in the same apartment with him.
Very good!
But now Master is asking something even more difficult of Prath. You see, Prath has a higher position in the company that employs both of them, so Prath could be key to getting his Master promoted.
What I wanted to know that, master was asking to put up the recommendation for his promotion, should I do it? As yet his promotion is not possible due to his less work experience.
Personally, I can’t see the downside to Prath recommending a promotion ahead of schedule. It’s really just a personal opinion, one that might be rejected and tossed aside.
I think Prath should do it. Ultimately, even if he tries and fails, he still tried on behalf of his Master.
Prath has been meticulously obedient in every little step he’s taken as he explores his own faghood. He takes it seriously, something every good faggot does. I’m extremely proud of my little brother!
There’s a hot guy i admire on Instagram. I tried contacting him and said i could serve, buy his used shoes and pay him. At first he would only read without answering and then he just blocked. Since i found his email i send him a money transfer asking to be forgiven and to be given a chance saying he could ask for anything so i can make up for it and the intensity.
But is it already too late? Did I lost all chances already?
Is there a way to save this and have me still serving him?
Thanks in advance.
P.s. what would be the best one to approach hot Alpha on social media that are pure strangers?
Hi brother. Thanks for writing.
Yes, I think it’s safe to say that you’ve lost any chance of serving this Alpha. He blocked you, but then you stalked him anyway. So yeah, he isn’t going to want anything to do with you.
In terms of approaching hot Alpha strangers, rule number one (that you broke with this last Alpha) is this: DON’T BE CREEPY. Be professional and respectful and submissive, not WEIRD or STALKER-LIKE or SCARY or DESPERATE.
I am 45 y-old Alpha and I have a 22 y-old fag. He is very sweet and obedient. We live together and are very happy. However, I found out that he has a serious problem with findom addiction. He already lost thousands of euros doing this online and finally confessed to me. I could just find another one, but as a Man my role is to take care of him. His addiction led to depression because the “masters” that they served online just blocked him when his money was over. It is very difficult for me to understand why he has the urge to send all this money to random guys online if he already serves me so well. But what matters now is to stop this addiction, he literally lost all his savings, and if it weren’t for me supporting the house, my boy wouldn’t have money to buy bread tomorrow.
Instead of sending him back to his mother’s house and find another sub boy, I want to make sure that he is out of this horrible addiction, otherwise his depression will only get worse. I think I will approach this issue as alcoholism and try to find other coping mechanisms for him, but I could really use some help.
Thanks. I hope you can help up. Adriel.
Master, thank you for writing to me!
Findom is a pretty insidious fetish, very addictive and distractingly intense. Victims of findom rarely think about the consequences of the money and time wasted on it because their minds are on a dopamine high. I’ve seen far too many of my fag brothers destroy their lives in findom, and I’ve heard far too many Masters who were more than happy to encourage the destruction for their own selfish ends.
You’re right to treat it like alcoholism or drug addiction, Master, because that is (at a chemical level) exactly what it is. A counselor might be a great thing to incorporate into a “treatment” for findom addiction. I really think you should take away his money and give him an allowance, with increases if he starts to respond positively. Your faggot’s phone and computer usage will need to be restricted and/or heavily monitored. If the faggot isn’t in chastity, that needs to happen. Any cracks in this defense will allow the cold, harsh water of findom to seep back into your faggot’s life.
But there is a more complex issue that involves you, Master. Namely, why is your faggot so eager to sneak around behind your back and serve other Men (boys, for the most part) when he is owned by an Alpha like you? I understand the faggot may have come into service to you with this addiction, but your ownership wasn’t enough to break the spell. That’s concerning.
To battle that, you really need to emphasize the disappointment you feel. Your faggot let you down, betrayed your trust, and used you. Those are incredibly disappointing behaviors for a faggot that belongs to an Alpha Master of your caliber. You need to underline this to your faggot, and remind it that it is ultimately just a faggot no matter how beloved it might be to you. It can be replaced, and it will if drastic changes are not made.
I really want to commend you on your commitment toward your faggot despite these struggles, Master. This touched me: “I could just find another one, but as a Man my role is to take care of him.” Not many Alphas take such a resolute stance toward a possession as lowly as a faggot.
I’m profoundly frustrated and disappointed in your faggot’s behaviors as well, so I certainly hope you can use your natural power to turn this faggot around and help it, Master. My thoughts are with you. Please keep me informed, Master.
