Hi Sam –

Longtime fan of your site. I have been trying to figure out what to write to you for a while now (if you want to share any of this on your site please feel free to do so).

A little background: I’m a fag, 40 years old, former fraternity guy and athlete. I’ve been married to my Alpha military husband (Army Alpha) for 10 years.

Our relationship in brief: I’m obviously a total bottom, I’m into a lot of kinks and some kinda extreme stuff. I’ve experienced a few rapes over my lifetime, and it’s a big part of my desire to serve. I also tend to seek situations where I put myself at risk of that happening and recreating what I’ve gone through. My favorite experiences of service have been for sadistic, Destroyer Alphas (if those details are of interest I can share my experiences). I’m a masochistic fag and like to know that my pain brings pleasure for an Alpha.

My Alpha husband (I’d say he is in the Protector Alpha category) understands this and has been open to exploring some of these desires of mine but also says he loves me and couldn’t take it as far as I want. He is a total top, but is more vanilla sexually. I obviously don’t pressure or force him to do anything he isn’t comfortable with, but it has impacted our sex lives. He usually only uses my mouth and not my fag hole because of his size (8-8.5 inches and extremely thick). Although I am a total bottom and have taken many Alpha cocks, and I stretch myself frequently, I remain very tight – to the point that sometimes he says it’s too tight for him to fuck me and doesn’t feel good on him. I’ve told him he can force it into me, begged him to, but when I start to show I’m in pain it turns him off.

We’re fully open, he fucks other fags and likes to hear about me getting fucked by other guys. We rarely have threesomes for many reasons (mostly irrelevant but can share if you want to know). But I’ve heard a really hard time recently finding any other true Alphas that would be willing to fuck me hard and wreck my fag hole. He says if I have that done he thinks I’d be loser for him.

For the next year we are long distance (because of a deployment for him) but I’ll be able to visit him for a month or two every few months. I’ve been looking EVERYWHERE for an Alpha to own me while he’s gone (Grindr, X, BDSMLR, Reddit, etc) but have been unsuccessful.

My questions for you:

1. Where can I find an Alpha? Most guys I talk to are only seeking virtual roleplay, or are too far away to ever meet, or want a young fag (at 40 I’m still very conscious about my looks and body and make sure I stay attractive for Alphas). I’m mostly attracted to straight Alphas (all my friends are straight and they are 100% in the Alpha category). I’ve tried to show them I’d serve them but it’s never worked (a few brief moments with teammates or frat brothers or childhood friends but never long term).

2. I don’t want to pressure my Alpha husband into things and know it isn’t my place, but when he fucks other fags he is very rough and aggressive so I know he has that side to him as well. Is there a way I could respectfully encourage him to do the same to me? He recently told me about a fag he fucked wearing his uniform, one booted foot on the fags head while he fucked him using only a little spit for lube and the fag ripped and bled. I get hard knowing he did that and wish it were me. He knows that I’d like that but says he’d never want to hurt me. But he’s hurting me by not giving me that experience and it’s now becoming an overriding focus of my life. I’ll spend days seeking it out, and now that I live alone I have fewer responsibilities to my Alpha so I will ignore friends and family and work searching for an Alpha to use me (that’s incredibly embarrassing for me to admit, and I know it isn’t healthy but its been so long since I was able to feel of use and like I’m fully serving I am obsessed with it).

Sam – can you help me please?

Respectfully,

Frat Fag Alex

Thank you for writing to me, Alex! I apologize for the delay!

I’ve encountered this weird situation a couple of times in the past, and it always leaves me baffled. Protector Alphas are amazing, but when they’re GAY Protector Alphas it can almost become a barrier. Gay Protector Alphas are too careful with their faggot partners because they’re in love with their faggot partners.

A faggot is a very specific kind of creature. Our need to be used and serve overwhelms everything else. We surrender everything to fulfill this central need; our bodies, our minds, our self-respect, and even our hopes and dreams. Even extreme pain is not a real consideration for us fags, just as long as we are pleasing our Owners. All that truly matters to us is our Alpha’s complete satisfaction. I really don’t think it’s even possible for Alphas to comprehend this about their faggots, even extremely experienced Alphas like your husband.

I get that he loves you. You are his most prized possession. But that is what’s so confounding to me about this situation – he’s loving you so much that he’s preventing you from being the most complete version of yourself. By sparing you what he thinks is pain, he’s actually causing tremendous emotional damage to you instead. I’m sure you’d agree with me that a pussy hole delightfully damaged in service will recover, but slowly suffocating to death as years tick away is the kind of damage that is hard to recover. Does your husband really think it’s okay for you to watch him use other faggots the way you desperately want to be treated?? That idea is mind-boggling to me.

It’s amazing how much better straight Alphas are with their personal faggots when it comes to this issue, and I think that’s both a shame and a mystery.

Anyway, back on point. I want to deal with the second question first, because I think the real issue is what’s happening in the marriage.

First and foremost, I want you to have your husband read your ask and my reply. It’s very important that he comprehends the depth of your desperation and sadness over this. He needs to appreciate how much long-term damage this is causing within you. He also needs to understand that giving to other fags the most intrinsic thing you desire and are denied is absolutely wrong, cruel, and unconscionable.

Secondly, whenever you both are together, I want you to try Caged Jock’s ingenious hole-stretching method using chopsticks (SEE THE VIDEO HERE). This is an activity you can do together to stretch you more and prepare you for the fuck of your life. This is the kind of “upkeep” every Master should be doing with their faggots in order to customize them for proper service.

As for your Question #1:

Submitting to your straight Alpha friends is still a possibility, but it might be only in the domestic aspect unless you get them drunk. The problem faggots have when trying to seduce their straight Alpha friends is the “friends” part. When an Alpha sees a guy as his friend (and “equal”), he’s less likely to want to use the fag. Calling them “Sir”, being complimentary, and directing the conversations to them in upbuilding ways (particularly engaging them in conversations about their Alphahood) can and often does lead to some engagement. Take a couple of these straight Alpha friends out for dinner/drinks and employ a more submissive persona, utilize what I just told you, and you might be surprised. I wonder if they even really understand what a faggot is … so it might be good to educate them. They’d also need to understand that your Owner has no issue with you serving other Alphas.

You can employ these same techniques while out alone at a bar or restaurant/bar and you see a straight Alpha alone. Offer to pay for his meal/drinks, and when he asks, just be frank as to why. Is he really going to hit a submissive male who’s buying stuff for him and calling him an Alpha? Of course not! He might not be willing to do anything, but this is a game of repetition and averages. Keep trying, and you will find success.

The apps are a mess, but apps like TheBlowers.com will absolutely get you Alpha action. Try that in a pinch.

In conclusion, I honestly think this situation with your Alpha husband can be fixed. There needs to be more open, honest communication and some experimentation to make it work.

Thank you for the long-time readership, and for reaching out to me, my brother!

Love,

sam the faggot

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The following post is part of a thread following the devoted submission of whitefaggot, one of the faggots serving the God Alphas at Master Dino’s island. He’s been recently renamed “joy” by his new Owner, Master Phillip. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

Much bandwidth has been spent on this site chronicling the near-superhuman exploits of the God Alphas living on what I jokingly refer to as “Hierarchy Island”, the tropical isle serving as the current home of God Dino’s huge and growing family of Alphas and faggots (and offspring). But truthfully, the faggots serving on the island are just as exceptional hierarchically-speaking as their Masters. I’ve talked at length about little Jimmy’s passionate service, and I’ve also talked about greenfaggot, bluefaggot, and redfaggot (affectionately known as “the rainbow”). They’re all excellent faggots who have been trained by the greatest Masters on the planet.

Serving alongside his brothers has been another, quieter faggot nicknamed “whitefaggot”. But even though whitefaggot has largely flown under the radar until now, I’m telling you that it’s often the most unassuming fags who turn out to be the best examples.

That’s definitely been the case with whitefaggot since straight God Alpha Phillip arrived on the island!

Much like Jamie did when she instantly bonded to Master Dino almost 20 years ago, white faggot instantly fell for the dark, long-haired beast Master Phillip and pledged his eternal service to the new King. Whitefaggot had to endure much abuse from Master Phillip as Master Phillip grappled with the reality of actually accepting faggot service and use. But in the end whitefaggot earned a new name – “joy” – and a treasured place at Master Phillip’s feet.

And this is the story joy wanted to share about the new situation:

Hello, my Master calls me joy and i love that but most of the others here call me Phillip’s cunt, at my request because i ADORE being His cunt.   lol    Anyway im writing to try and explain the wonder of belonging to Master Philip. While we are off grid He has allowed me to tell you about the absolute chaotic wonderment of being Master Phillip’s cunt. 

I don’t know quite where to start and im not the brightest faggot so ill just give facts. The first time Master came to the island i instantly knew I was meant for this wild gorgeous beast! Yummy!! His brown wild hair just kissed with blonde from the sun, His tanned and scarred body bursting with testosterone made me swoon! Nice hairy chest and tight jeans showing something mighty was packed into them. All that was exceptional but His aura! Macho and sexy and very dark and scary to most but not to me. Somehow i instinctively KNEW He would never kill me but would probably hurt me. i did not care. Every nerve in me trembled as I tried to imagine serving Him. At first He only accepted blowjobs. Well not so much that as grabbing a faggot by her hair and mounting her head and then fucking her throat till His yummy cum would gush out!

Finally, He began using us, the rainbow. Then my worship and love started to attract this amazing Brute and He changed my life! i thought being used by The Savior was the ultimate in faggot ecstacy and it is but Master Phillip is my penultimate usage! He is dark and dangerous and damned scary! And i LOVE it! Discovering my love of His darkness opened a thrilling and terrifying door and we ran through it! i love worship lust after–you name it and i do it for Him! He is a MAN! He hardly ever uses me with anything but brutal force and I love it! His dark aggression brings a tidal wave of lust and love over me. While we do have tender moments most of His use of me us what i call gymnastic rape–and i LOVE it!

He said i have permission to say anything to you but our sessions are so specialized you wouldn’t understand. See Master is a criminal with guns knives etc… since He knows His cum dump They occasionally become part of His use of me. He has absolutely terrified me and practically made my heart stop. For instance He loves cunting me and He will have a hard rut going on me and suddenly a knife is at my throat and His words invite more terror as He tells me all the dirty scary  yet sexy things He COULD do to me and then it happened and I cried out. my pussy milked His cock as i passed out and He roared and filled me up. Privately He can be very sweet to His cunt but He’s very rough on me as well especially in front of other Alphas. He demands i touch Him in some way or place whenever we are in the same space. I love this because I get to touch Him often but also because it’s shows my submission in front of others. i am learning everything about Master and His needs and desires. I know how and where to place His weapons on His body before He leaves on assignment because He has three knives and two guns stapped to Him when working. When He returns i undress Him and remove the weapons and His shoes. i rub His feet as He relaxes and gets high. If He desires a massage it’s a real pleasure rubbing His body. i serve Him every way possible and He still tells me He’s proud of the little ways i serve and the kinky things i do in effort to serve Him. He is my Owner Master and God! Even though i know ill never be a fagwife im HIS. im His faggot His cum dump but best of all i proudly bear the name Phillip’s cunt! Nothing on earth could make me more content or more joyous. 

Thanks for allowing me this special moment to testify of Master’s greatness and omnipotence. Master deserves more praise than this lowly faggot can give but ill scream His magnificence until they put me six feet under! Master Phillip is GOD!

Thank you,

Phillip’s cunt formerly known as whitefaggot 

Joy claims to lack intelligence, but this loving ode to the awe-inspiring power of Master Phillip is very well crafted and heartfelt!

Any faggot can relate to the feeling of being so intimately trusted by a straight Alpha that they are allowed to touch and care for that Alpha’s most-prized possessions. There is an almost reverential awe a faggot gets from such a privilege. [ remember my Master Chris tasking me with shaving his pubes and feeling so humbled that he trusted me to do that. Or how my Master Aaron trusted me to prepare his body for bodybuilding competitions, or care for his money.

Each faggot has the opportunity to find and serve a great King like Master Phillip, but we must humble ourselves and empty ourselves like Joy did (and Jamie did before that). We must be willing to go through the fire for our Master, always supportive and resilient even when fits of rage and abuse come.

On the other side of that is the eye of the hurricane, that serene place where an Alpha and his faggot achieve a perfect hierarchical equilibrium. It’s the moment of peace when both fully realize and embody their place in hierarchy, as well as their purpose.

There is no better place to be, and I’m so glad that my brother Joy feels that today! I hope Master Phillip is proud of his favored slave, cumdump, and confidante!

Thank you Joy for sharing your experience and example! And thank you Master Phillip for allowing your faggot to share it!

Ask any Alpha who has taken a fggot’s virginity, and they’ll tell you this is the hottest sound. The high-pitched screaming. The struggle. They’ll also say that they never stop fucking it, because this must happen. This is why it was born. To be taken by a Man. Its PURPOSE.

An Alpha MUST pump his seed into his owned property. Women or faggots, it makes no difference. They can scream and cry all they want, but this is nature’s way. A Man takes what he wants this way and makes it HIS by marking it forever with his seed!

The following post is part of a thread following the service of a young faggot named Tyler who has been claimed by a great Protector Alpha named Steven. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

I just published THIS STORY about how loved Giovanni feels as the personal faggot of a God Alpha like Master Lorenzo, so I thought this recent message from Tyler might be the perfect bookend to that. Odd how these things go sometimes, isn’t it?

You might remember Tyler being essentially rescued from the cruel hands of a Destroyer Alpha named Adam by his current Master, Steven. Master Steven’s brave stance against Adam in order to save Tyler was inspirational and worthy of accolades. It’s just the way any true Protector Alpha would react.

But faggot psychology can be quite complicated. Very often faggots seek the wrong thing, plagued by deep feelings of unworthiness and self-loathing that craves to be reinforced by the cruelty of hateful Men. Time and time again I’ve seen faggots immolate themselves in the flame they couldn’t resist flying into despite my warnings. This often results in broken hearts, and broken lives.

Notice how even now, as Tyler enjoys a favored place at the feet of his great Master Steven, his defective faggot heart is craving abuse:

Hey Sam,

This is Tyler again. We talked a while ago about my Master Steven. He really saved me and I’m forever grateful for the way he rescued me. He’s also paying for my therapy and it’s been good for my self knowing. But one of the things I learned in therapy is that I have a need for degradation. That’s why I kept going back to Adam no matter how much he hurt me. I still have urges to serve me, but every time I feel it, I focus on serving Steven as my one and only Master.

My question is: Steven is a great Alpha and any fag would be happy with him, but he is a real gentleman. He speaks several languages, he’s really knowledgeable, well-succeeded in his career, and a wonderful man. But he treats me like a princess, he even buys me gifts from time to time. A few days ago he bought me a gorgeous pair of earrings, and I loved them. But it’s such a turn off… he takes care of me, protects me, wants to see me improving in my career and life, he became a real mentor and Master for me. But I have this urge to be treated like trash, like a pathetic worthless fag, just a cumdump and nothing more. He does fuck me well and treats me like a fag in bed, and I serve him domestically, but he treats me too well… he controls me but always to lift me up, and I miss a Man who curses me, spits on my face for no reason, I don’t know how to navigate this because he is a really good Man.

Should I ask him to be a little more brutal with me?

What a mess!

My sympathy goes to Master Steven. He’s truly showing his faggot the kindness and care that many Men wouldn’t dare to show, and his faggot doesn’t want any of it. It’s like a homeless person who begs for food on the street despising the food he’s given because it’s too rich or too sweet. It makes no sense.

I feel sorry for Tyler, too. Clearly, he’s broken in some way that may not ever be fixed. I just wish that faggots who find themselves in remarkably nurturing situations could just find peace and joy serving the Men caring for them. Master Steven is one of the best Alphas out there, and he deserves respect, worship, and adoration for being the Man he is … not this kind of emotional betrayal.

I think Tyler should kneel and confess these feelings to his Master. It’s not going to be an easy conversation (probably more than a little embarrassing), but Master Steven deserves at least an opportunity to respond. Perhaps he has a solution to this, but who knows?

But if he can figure out the solution to why faggots seek self-destruction, I’d love to hear it!

The following post is part of a thread chronicling the continuing ascension of a 21-year-old bisexual Alpha named Master Joe and his ownership of his best friend’s faggot brother. CLICK HERE for all posts in this thread in chronological order!

I’ve never seen a picture of Master Joe, but from his writing style and attitude I’d say Master Joe is that prototypical all American fratboy. He’s like a playful, confident lion; immensely powerful, but in no dire need to exert that power. And when he does utilize that power, he does so in disarmingly fun ways.

I do believe that owning a faggot is helping Master Joe refocus that playful energy into something more thoughtful. At first, owning that faggot (the brother of his best friend/chief rival) was a bit of jocular one-upsmanship. However, as time has gone on and his ownership over the faggot has deepened, Master Joe is starting to also deepen his understanding of the faggot mind and what it needs.

Take, for example, this very recent thought Master Joe had:

Hey fag Sam, this is Master Joe! Happy, healthy, and breeding holes as always

I had a conversation with my fag bf last night and I want your opinion about it. He was telling me that it’s much easier to take my cock now because he’s used to the shape and the size, then I asked if it still hurts him. I have no idea of how it feels because I have never bottomed, but I thought that after a while it would not hurt at all. However, my fag said that taking a cock always hurts a little bit, just a little bit, even when the pussy is properly trained. And then I realized that this is not a problem. In fact, I think that it’s important that the fag feel a little bit of pain. I think of myself working out. After a hard training, I like to feel my muscles hurt, it makes me feel that I am growing stronger. Likewise, when a fag takes a hard cock and his hole hurts afterwards I think it’s a good way to make the boy remind of who he is. What is the point of serving a superior man if it doesn’t involve some sacrifice?

I am not saying that fags deserve to suffer, I take care of my fag and love him. I think real men should never hurt girls or fags in bed, but causing this little discomfort in their stretched pussy is important for his training. Does that make sense?

I really want to become a better Alpha and embrace my role more and more everyday.

See how faggot ownership is altering Master Joe’s perspective? He’s starting to consider not only his needs, but also what’s best for the faggot he owns. This maturity is also leading him to consider his own Alphahood and how he can more fully embrace that lofty promise.

In regards to Master Joe’s specific thoughts, I say the following:

Master, it’s always so wonderful to hear from you! Thank you for writing in!

This is a very keen observation on your part, one that deserves more scrutiny and consideration by all, not just faggots. Yes indeed, some pain is definitely part of a faggot’s life. As you noted, pain is actually a beneficial part of a faggot’s life, because that pain shapes the faggot’s mind and its sense of self and purpose.

You’ll never know the pain involved in having a big Alpha cock violating your holes (yes, let’s not forget the pain of being throat fucked!), but it’s never easy to take if the faggot is maintaining its pussy muscles and not abusing them to the point of prolapse. You Alphas want a tight, snug hole to fuck, but the trade-off is pain on the part of the faggot.

But here’s the key: that pain is pleasure for faggots! When an Alpha is entering us and it hurts, we are deriving pleasure from that pain EMOTIONALLY. We know we are pleasing our Alpha, and that emotional pleasure (or, more properly, hierarchical pleasure) sends endorphins flooding into our bloodstream from the excitement of being used properly. The harder and more intensely we are fucked, the greater the endorphin rush.

The intensity of this pain/pleasure crucible while being fucked is so great that, if and when an Alpha cunts us, the unexpected explosion of that feeling becomes overwhelming. That’s why cunting is such a startling and unforgettable experience for faggots, and why cunted faggots are essentially owned for life by the Alpha who cunted it.

And Master, as you said in your letter, that pain trains the faggot to always remember what it is. Like an invisible chastity cage, the throbbing ache of a well-fucked hole constantly reminds the faggot of its Master and its purpose. So pain isn’t a bad thing for faggots. In fact, I think it’s a good and natural part of our place in hierarchy! Thank you, Master!

That explanation was a bit more intense than I initially intended, but I really like it! I think I might use it as the core of a larger examination on the site! Or maybe a podcast episode!

But you see why I love Master Joe so much, right? He’s an amazing Alpha and Master, and his little faggot is lucky to have him hurting it every night!