
It can be a lonely and sometimes dispiriting thing to crank out the sheer volume of content I do, advising people behind the scenes, and generally trying to be everywhere all at once while pushing the truth about Hierarchy as hard as I can into the mainstream. I’m just one faggot, after all!
Added to that are the constant setbacks. I’ve had the winds taken out of my sails again recently with the loss of two big X accounts, accounts that many Masters were using to train their faggots. I take all of that very seriously – it’s an important responsibility – so I’d be lying if those setbacks don’t make me just want to close up shop and move on. I’ve made a contribution to the truth, did my best to carry myself with some amount of integrity, and I’m proud of my work and the relationships I’ve gained.
Of all the arms of Hierarchy University, the Hierarchy Podcast has been something I’ve really poured my heart into. It takes a lot of work to record, edit, and package it for distribution around the world. And, like most other ventures here, it’s a lonely pursuit. I never know if anybody is really hearing me, even though I’ve had plenty of evidence that the podcast is making a difference. Maybe I just get down on myself sometimes.
But occasionally someone sends me a letter so heartfelt and uplifting that I want to rise up and hug the whole world. A faggot brother sent me the following letter in my Questions From Readers Inbox, and I wanted to share it in a special post.
Here’s what he wrote:
Brother, your latest podcast, “Accept Your Truth”, was simply amazing. So many faggots go down the path of misery, and spend years, or even a whole lifetime, suffering, because they cannot let go of the guilt, fear, and shame they believe go along with the acts of a faggot. So many faggots can’t fathom having a happy, fulfilling life. And it’s no wonder. We are a type of separate sex ENTIRELY that is never talked about except in our own circles, or by the Men that use us. A faggot goes through his own “sexual” development just like any other human, but there is no one to sit and hold our hand and explain these crazy feelings we constantly have.
I was a basket case for years, especially when it came to sex. I knew I was different than the person everyone around me was telling me I had to be. I LOVE the way you put it, yes I lived with it my whole life, yes, it was “the white noise of my life…” I just couldn’t put it all together until, like you, I had a real Man, a Man who understood faggots, show me what I am. For me, it wasn’t bad news, it set me free. I embraced it and let myself be a “faggot for Men” and my life has been so wonderful for years and years. Not only sex, but my PLACE in the world makes so much sense. The way I interact with other Men makes so much sense. The worthless appendage between my legs makes sense!
Your words “It’s not the act itself that defines whether or not you’re a faggot, it’s what you are inside, already…You were born a faggot. You have these feelings and yearnings because you are a faggot“…Sam, that hit me in the gut SO hard. It’s such a simple truth that we miss seeing even as it is slapping us in our collective faces.
Thank you for being brave about being a faggot and using the word faggot. Thank you for giving faggots a place to go and get advice and help gain understanding. Thank you for giving us a place to be ourselves. I’ve long said only a faggot TRULY understands another faggot. Alpha Men should never be burdened with understanding a faggot, only identifying us in order to use us. I really hope your site becomes a beacon for faggots who need support from other faggots.
As you said, an Alpha Man helped you on your path to understanding being a faggot. One did for me as well. Somewhere right now a faggot is gaining understanding of what he is because a Man is selfishly (and rightfully) using him. These Men, through using us, held up a mirror and said “This is what you are and have always been, and the things I’m doing to you are what you are made for. You exist for My use. THIS is what your life can be. Embrace these facts and live a happy, fulfilled, HONEST life. Ignore them and suffer in confusion trying to be something you’re not…a real Man.”
This was the best podcast I’ve ever heard. I truly hope a lot of lost faggots find their way because of it…or at least find ENOUGH courage to be with that Man who can hold the mirror up to them and show them a glimpse of what life CAN be.
Lastly, when you say you love your brothers at the end of podcasts…I truly believe it. Something in your voice is so earnest and sweet! We love you too!
I cannot tell you how it felt to hear these words! It was literally like a man dying of thirst who receives even a little bit of water!
Funnily enough, I was disappointed by that episode of the show, and it gnawed at me for days afterward. I kept thinking of ways I should’ve phrased points, or points I felt were left unclear. You have no idea how much I obsess over getting every detail right. Insecurity plagues me like that sometimes.
But letters like this are very special to me because the podcast in particular is my heartfelt conversation directly with each listener. When I know I’ve connected with another person in this way, it really lifts me up!
My brother J, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending me this kind note. I’m so glad the episode resonated with you, even though you are already living your truth! It makes me proud to be able to serve Alphas shoulder-to-shoulder with you!
And yes, I do love you. It’s not an act. I love all of those who’ve come to me, trusted me, supported me, and loved me. Thank you for your love and support, and for your beautiful letter that came just at the right time!
Always,
sam the faggot