The following post is part of a thread detailing the admission and submission of a new faggot named Ben to a teen Destroyer Alpha named Grayson. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

I was a little surprised to look back into the archives and find that it’s only been a little bit more than a month ago since Ben last updated me. It felt like it had been months. I guess my life has been a little too hectic!

Ben’s situation is extraordinarily frustrating because he keeps ping-ponging between two straight Masters, Master Grayson and Master Ethan. In the past, I harshly labelled Master Grayson as a Destroyer Alpha based on his rather cruel treatment of Ben as well as the Orwellian insistence on surveilling Ben’s every waking moment. On the other hand, Master Ethan seemed to be more of a Protector type, warmer and more comforting. I very much preferred that Ben stick to serving Master Ethan and leaving Master Grayson in the past.

Well, as usual with Ben, things have taken another sharp left turn:

I wanted to write again for an update so you know what’s happening and if you have any advice for me. For better or worse, I am unable to serve Ethan anymore as he has recently found a partner who he devotes his time to. I want to say I was okay with it and I listened to your advice  and stopped trying but when I found out, I made a slightly rash decision and confronted him in person why he was dating someone and in a way confessed I had feelings for him. He told me to get on my knees and crawl to him to suck him off, which I did and I thought something would happen but he simply said “you’re such an obedient boy but you’re just a hole” and “you’re just so desperate to serve me as a slave but not as a boyfriend”. After that I haven’t seen him besides the ocassional run-in but he won’t text to meet up anymore.

Since then it’s stupid but I have spiraled a bit since I didn’t really have anyone to lean on besides Grayson. He has been helpful in keeping me motivated to work out and keep going to fulfill my work and also tasks as an apartment slave. However, he has also been more brutal with me lately not sure if he’s taking advantage of me by making me cook more for him and his gf, give him more money to sustain his lifestyle, and lately even loaning me out to his friends to use as a cumdump. It feels so humiliating because with the spiral I’ve thought all I can do now is serve Grayson and that’s all my mind has been on but since he’s mostly satisfied now with a gf it feels even worse that when I give head or am a hole now it’s just for his friends not even him.

The last thing that has really cemented things has been last week Grayson allowed me to take off my chastity for the first time in over 2.5 months and told me to invite someone over to let me top for the first time in a while. I was excited to finally take off the chastity and do something but when the time came, I couldn’t perform at all and couldn’t get it up and because of the chastity the guy I was supposed to hook up with said I was too small. To make things worse Grayson was in the apartment for this as he said he wanted to show me how pathetic I had become and he ended up locking me in a smaller cage and facefucking the guy I was supposed to top in front of me. I’m ashamed to admit that watching that made me harder but I couldn’t really do anything restrained by the cage. He ended up telling me that he is now locking me in chastity forever and to always remember this day as the reason why I don’t deserve to be free.

These events have me really spiraling as I accepted I was a slave of sorts, but this has really cemented how lowly I am. I wasn’t enough to be a bf, not enough to be my master’s hole, and also not good enough to be a top anymore. I am trying to accept all this but it’s hard and I’ve been trying to win back Grayson after all this as being unable to be used by him has made me realize a lot how much I want it. It has been a lot, but I promise I am alright, it’s just good to write this out as this space has been helpful in navigating everything.

I didn’t see that coming!

First of all, what a shame that Master Ethan did that to Ben. So much for the “Protector Alpha” label! In fact, he dismissed Ben in the ugliest way possible, something Ben didn’t deserve given how faithfully he served Master Ethan.

That dismissal brought Ben back into the clutches of Master Grayson.

I can easily see why Ben ended up here. He’s a good faggot who simply wants to serve. I wish Master Grayson had even a semblance of a clue about that, because maybe then he’d appreciate what he owns. Good faggots are hard to find, and clearly Master Grayson loves owning a faggot. It seems to me he should start to value his possessions more.

But I can say that Master Grayson has some incredible natural instincts for a straight Alpha. That move he pulled with Ben, letting Ben out of his chastity cage in order to humiliate his ineffectiveness by forcing Ben to watch him do the very thing Ben couldn’t do is a brutal twist on The Nuclear Option I’ve spoken about so many times before. It actually took my breath away. You can’t find that technique in a “Alpha domination manual” or in a film. That is PURE ALPHA INSTINCT in action! I’ve experienced it, and I’ve seen so many Alphas use variations of this technique so many times that it simply cannot be coincidence. It must be something inborn into them!

We can hear Ben’s growth from that experience. He feels more submissive, more fulfilled, more resigned to his true hierarchical place.

But that doesn’t mean I don’t want something kinder for my sincere little brother!

The following post is part of a thread detailing the admission and submission of a new faggot named Ben to a teen Destroyer Alpha named Grayson. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

When dominant teen Alpha Grayson first took control of Ben the faggot, his aggression led him to act like a Destroyer Alpha with Ben. In fact, I originally warned Ben about getting in too deep with Master Grayson, because I hate seeing young fags fall prey to these hurtful, unforgiving, and undisciplined Alphas.

But Ben stuck with Master Grayson, and much to my pleasant surprise, Master Grayson began to change!

It’s not to say that Master Grayson has eliminated all of his Destroyer tendencies, but he has gotten much better. As I’ve said many times here, all Alphas have Protector and Destroyer tendencies within them during their teen years. It’s a pitched battle between these forces during their youth as an Alpha tries to navigate and understand what kind of Alpha he wants to be.

It looks like Master Grayson is choosing the better path!

Ben has sent an update after quite a long time, but it’s encouraging!

It’s been a long time since I’ve written bc I unfortunately couldn’t find ur X for a time but I wanted to provide an update to serving Grayson.

Since the last time I wrote it’s been relatively good serving him still but there have been a few developments that still have me in a limbo of sorts with Grayson. Since we’ve basically lived together a while now with me serving as basically his in apartment slave I’ve been quite happy waking up everyday and serving him and seeing him somehow get hotter and stronger has made me want to serve him even better. It’s almost a daily occurance now that I see him shirtless or in a towel from the shower yet each time I do my knees get weak and I feel the need to serve so bad and he’s definitely made use of me as I used to give him head almost everyday. However, he recently got a girlfriend recently and my use to him sexual wise has diminished and while I know I can’t compete with her it still feels demeaning and he hasn’t told her about me.

Furthermore, he’s grown more controlling and bold besides the apps monitoring and everything I’m a little scared I might be locked into semi permanent chastity. Before I was open to trying it but he agreed to let me do it on a week on week off basis anda biweekly basis but I’ve now been locked for 1.5 months and he’s refusing to give me the key. Previously despite serving Grayson I still was occasionally able to have my fun and top other guys with his permission but now all that is taken away and I’m scared he won’t ever let me out especially since I haven’t been able to get the same pleasure in serving him sexually either. This has come along with him taking most of my nice clothes in my wardrobe for himself and he’s been replacing them with more feminizing things like thongs briefs and jock straps I am forced to wear now and he went even as far one time making me kiss is shoe in a parking lot in public to prove his ownership in a way. A lot of the things I know he wants to push me out of my comfort zone but it feels so demeaning especially anything in public scared me and he still made me do it.

Even then I can’t deny how helpful Grayson has been to me in helping me grow as a person as he’s encouraged me and even got to the gym with me to help me grow stronger and even helped give me a push to apply for grad school. It feels like this balance of positive actions and just extreme degradation all the time that I can’t quite solve.

During some of these moments I’ve been talking to Ethan again who does make sure I’m still obedient to him and Grayson but has been consistently kind throughout everything even from the beginning and has in a way allowed me to give him head too and fill I guess a gap that I’ve been missing consistently. It feels strange but sometimes Ethan’s comfort makes me swell with a sort of emotion that makes me think I really like him but I know a relationship like boyfriend wise probably won’t happen due to a multitude of factors but also just the premise of me serving Grayson. I’m just in limbo right now I know my situation is great and I shouldn’t complain serving someone as hot and dominant as Grayson but the whiplash of serving him and I guess also confronting that I would be his slave for life locked up forever is daunting especially when Ethan has been so much kinder to me and is also an alpha. I know I’ve gone this can’t choose before already and can’t go back but I can’t deny I’ve developed feelings in a way for Ethan that I know shouldn’t have gone through and I’m unsure if I should tell him and how I can even begin to talk to Grayson about hoping to serve him more bc I know I don’t have a right to challenge his gf.

It’s great that Master Grayson is pushing chastity as hard as he is. I know that Ben doesn’t care for it, but what Master Grayson is teaching Ben is acceptance and obedience. This is frankly quite advanced for a new straight Alpha owning a faggot for the first time! It’s also impressive how Master Grayson is shaping his faggot through insistence on workouts and other life improvements. Again, surprisingly thoughtful!

Ben’s insistence on focusing on Master Ethan is a bit frustrating given that he belongs to Master Grayson. I’m wondering if Ben yearns for Master Ethan because Master Ethan is more lenient. If so, that’s a mistake. Through Master Grayson’s firm training, Ben will become a much better faggot.

And Master Grayson is bending to accommodate his faggot’s needs, too. He’s now allowing Ben to suck his dick (and presumably swallow his loads), which he doesn’t need to do but is giving that privilege to Ben. Any faggot should be proud and grateful to be used that way by a straight Alpha!

I hope Ben rethinks some of his recent positions. Master Ethan is not around, Master Grayson is. Often, we allow our minds to create scenarios that are not real, making the grass greener on the other side of the fence. But Master Grayson is becoming a greater Alpha and Master because of Ben’s submission, making Ben’s submission that much more valuable!

So stay the course, Ben!

The following post is part of a thread detailing the admission and submission of a new faggot named Ben to a teen Destroyer Alpha named Grayson. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

It’s rare that a faggot ever has a chance to decide which Alpha it should serve. Usually faggots bounce from one Alpha to the next like pinballs careening haphazardly across a pinball table. And too often, when faggots are given a choice between Alphas, they tend to choose the one that will damage them the most.

Ben is a relatively new faggot, and he finds himself at an emotional crossroads with two Alphas in his life. He is currently owned by a powerful and relatively scary Destroyer Alpha named Grayson. However, he recently started trying to serve a new Protector Alpha named Ethan. See the quandary?

In the last update, we heard how Master Grayson had fucked and bred (and took video of it) an Alpha that Ben was serving on the side. That Alpha was Master Ethan. But the entire experience has left Ben confused and worried.

I’ll let him tell it:

I have another update on my situation with Master Grayson as im unsure of everything I’m feeling. Since my last experience, I am now serving both Master Grayson and my friend (Ethan). I’ve felt different when serving them with Grayson it feels more natural how much cocky, confident, and stronger he is over me, while with Ethan is dominant I’ve felt more secure serving him as he looks out for me more. Despite this I’ve been actively seeking out gay bottoms to fuck on Grindr as well despite submitting for both alphas it’s like this big push and pull for me on both sides.

For master Ethan he has been so kind and rough and dominant but whenever I give him head he always tells me “you’re such a good fucking boy” and “god you give the best head”. It’s such a strange dynamic to me that he can balance both of his personalities so well to the point where I’ve developed feelings for him. Whenever I am with him I feel like I am fulfilling my purpose better and more cared for.

But for master Grayson though he’s ramped up his control of me even more lately. I’ve become an at home slave, chauffeur, and mouth to use and the apartment I moved into recently this month has become less my apartment and his place now with him taking my bed whenever he is over. I’ve been taking his loads almost daily now and recently he has instructed me to wear a buttplug to “train my faggot hole and make it useful for once”.

He also has forced me to download an app that lets him control my entire phone from what I can access and see who I talk to which has lead me to be careful in finding ways to serve Ethan. And just yesterday he told me he hated seeing me get hard from serving him and that I should “be prepared to have your tiny dick locked up fag but you would like that wouldn’t you.”

Personally I don’t know if I’m ready for chastity but I know it’s something I can’t control if Grayson requests it. And I know it seems stupid that I have a caring alpha in Ethan but Grayson’s dominance and cockiness turns something on in me that I can’t escape and it doesn’t help that his workouts this summer have made him more ripped and muscular that it feels impossible to not serve him. I guess I don’t know how to choose between them as it seems if I choose Grayson he has made it clear that I cannot serve anyone else. Any advice?

The differences between the two Alphas couldn’t be any more apparent. Master Ethan, still owning Ben even after that humiliation, shows his Protector Alpha side regularly and isn’t afraid of being kind to his fags. Meanwhile, Master Grayson seems like the villain of every Lifetime Movie Of The Week, He’s stalking, cruel, malicious, and almost hateful.

I can’t really advise Ben to stay with Master Grayson, because I honestly think he’s the wrong Alpha for a new (and struggling) faggot like Ben. Plus, I really kind of worry about Master Grayson’s hyper-possessive attitude.

I told Ben he should talk to Master Ethan about his concerns. There might be some way this intelligent young Alpha can help Ben get away from Master Grayson. But judging from Ben’s closing words – “it feels impossible to not serve him” – I think the toughest part of this battle will be fought inside Ben himself.

Fingers crossed!