Explanation on the Alpha

Avi, again. An explanation on the Alpha who cunted me was asked for, so here it is.

So he was my best friend since Elementary school, maybe about 1st grade? And even as children there was a distinct difference between us. He was a calm, cool, logical masculine guy, and I was the and I quote several people here, "feral, gremlin wild child who felt too much, chased butterflies, put flowers in his hair, and liked swishy skirts." At some point as we got older, he got broader, more muscular, and rather dominant. And I got more feminine, and even more of a twink, though if you ask anyone who knows me I'm still a feral wildchild who like butterflies and flowers even if I'm more gothic now. But something shifted in our friendship when we were in High School, I think. He started taking the lead on things, and it felt right for me to just go along with it. At the time I knew I was gay, but hadn't realized I was a fag, so I just thought I was following the vibes, you know? But after we both graduated, and he started working and I went to college, we both started to get into this lifestyle, but remained friends. So after I cunted myself with the dildo and felt the Void, I went to the one Alpha I knew wouldn't refuse me. And he cunted me again, properly. I say former friend, but that's because he's more than just a friend or an Alpha to me now, and I'm in his words, "his fag, and his friend, but with depth" whatever that means.