Getting older

I think this is a philophical question for everyone... but don't you think aging is much worse for fags and women than it is for Alphas? I am 45 and my straight male friends and even my gay top friends seem to be dealing very well with his age. My female and fag friends, including myself, are always suffering about getting old.

I am almost giving up on finding a true Alpha willing to own me. I've met hundreds and 99% of them just want me as a cash fag or for domestic service. Sometimes it seems that for every Alpha around my age that could use me as a cumdump there are already 50 tight 18-year-old twinks ready to seduce them. The last time I had a date, the Alpha took me to his place, and when I finally had the chance to serve me he put NextDoorTwink on his phone and watched while I sucked his dick. I felt miserable afterwards. Do you have any thoughts on that?