Hi Sam! Glad your back

Hi Sam! Super glad your back; i followed you for years, enjoying your posts and your dialogue of spreading the word of Alphas and faggots.

I have a question that challenges me that I hope you can answer,...I definitely believe that im a true faggot at heart, but im having trouble accepting it. I have this platonic male friend who actually deliberately engages in dominance against me. He likes to crush with me with his body (hes much bigger than me), using his body weight to essentially crush me. He enjoys forcefully humping me as a playful act,  as sort of symbol of his dominance. In a way, he seems like hes trying to teach me "you're a faggot, im the alpha". I think its a unique opportunity to help embrace my true faggot self...but im still having trouble letting go and fully embracing my true faggot life. Any advice for me?