Questions From Readers
It was not until finding this new site that I discovered for the FIRST time that there was an actual clinical “name” regarding the kind of Faggot that I am, Agonophilia.
I’m a former MMA fighter, started was I was 17, my win loss stats were about 30/70 not great. But I discovered early-on that if the guy I was up against was hot looking and wiping up the floor with me my dick got hard. It wasn’t until much later I was on a card in AC against a guy who looked like Zac Efron who was demolishing me and felt for a brief second that he had a hardon that I realized there were dudes (mostly Str8 like he was, GF and baby) who were equally turned when they were beating up another dude. (that nite in the run down AC motel with him I discovered I was not just gay I was a Faggot and a very specific kind of Faggot born to bow down worship and be used by superior men to take out their frustrations on with their fists and their dicks while they still remained All-Man)
I have 3 superior Alpha men I serve this way now, long term, all str8, 2 are married with families all are quid pro quo, and the longest has been going on 16 years. I’ve never been in the closet always been “out” everyone of my buds knows this, but recently a buddy who’s also gay discovered something in my apt relating to one of my Alphas and I lied my ass off to explain it away.
My question is this; I DO feel pride in how I serve and pride in serving superior men, BUT I also feel embarrassment and shame if my buddies ever knew about this bc getting beatup by real men is something they might think less of me for.
Does anyone share the degree of Faggot they are to others outside of the men they serve? Admit they are cashfags or total servants or in my case beatdown Fags ?? And am I NOT being the best Faggot I can be if I DON’T admit with pride what I am in relation to superior men and what they do to me??
Thanks.
Thanks for the question! Yours is officially the first one on the new site!
I was wondering how many faggots (and Alphas) would respond to that information about agonophilia. I know a lot of faggots get off on being beaten, so I figured some would be triggered by it. As far as your central question, let’s be honest – most faggots are in hiding and are extremely embarrassed about their needs. After all, it’s not exactly something that one brings up at a family reunion or in the work breakroom.
That being said, I am someone who has almost completely integrated being a faggot with my exterior life. I’ve never been shy or socially intimidated, so I simply let people know (when asked) that I’m a faggot. Nervous laughter follows, but then some healthy conversation usually occurs afterward.
But I realize I’m an outlier and not the norm when it comes to this. In the real world, a faggot needs to pick his battles and reveal the truth to those he can trust. That doesn’t make a faggot any less than he is (after all, he’s a faggot!). You shouldn’t feel shame because you’re hiding some part of yourself right now. It’ll come when it’s the right time for you, not for anyone else’s expectations.
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Thank you for your answer. I have since SHARED my learning of this actual term with one of my Alphas that I serve. Two are what can best be described as a Man’s Man, they are not intellectuals who’s response I feel would be who gives a shit as they punched my lights out while feeding me their dicks. But ONE, the one I’ve served the longest, 16yrs, is more introspective and reads a great deal about Psyches and self exploration, and he was equally surprised and interested by this, and unaware there was a term (relating more to the type of Man HE is than the kind of Fag I am). The other two are married and both fathers. This one has a longtime GF who IS aware of me, but only as an friend he’s known for years. She IS aware of his past as a stripper for bachelor-ette parties and the occasional gay event, and that I am Gay, but oc has NO idea of the true nature of what he is to me and what he does to me. I broached the subj of him joining us here and sharing. He was not opposed to it but said he has to think about it, since, like me, he’s never shared this side of himself with others. So we shall see.
Brother, I’m very proud of you for this! This is EXACTLY what faggots need to do to help Alphas expand their understanding and implementation of their natural power! You’re making a difference in the lives of the Alphas you’re serving by doing this! Keep me posted!
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