i can’t find the thread it was in but a guy on your site mentioned that he was in a frat and it made me want to tell about my experience
i was made into a frat fag for like two years. i still fag for my brothers but i dont do it much for other guys tho i have been asked
i went to penn state and rushed for sigma chi. me and a high school buddy rushed together but he dropped out like a couple of weeks in so i there by myself
i tried to make friends and make myself useful in the frat but i was getting word that the seniors had wanted my buddy and that i was just a tag along so i probably wasnt going to get a bid so i was nervous for my place. i didn’t know people there and i wasnt like from a wealthy family or anything so i was just trying to be like a good brother.
a few weeks in to the pledge four seniors took me aside and told me that they were thinking of cutting me loose. i was devastated kinda but they said there was a way i could stay. one of them asked me what my head game was like. i thought he meant was i smart and so i was like, oh yeah pretty good. and they cracked up because they knew i didn’t get it. anyway they told me that if i sucked dick then they’d talk to the chapter president about letting me stay. i didnt want to do it. i thought it was like some dumb trick and that if i said yeah they’d just be like ‘fag!’ and throw me out. so at first i was like ‘your not fucking serious’ but they kept on and said that they were. in the end i told myself that if was going to get thrown out then i kinda had nothing to lose anyway so i agreed to do it. and then they were like okay pick one of us. they made me pick who i was gonna do it for which was worse in a way than actually doing it. i picked a dude called scott and they were like, why him? i said i didnt know and they made jokes that i was into him. but anyway we did it. he stood by the bed and i had to get on my knees. i took his jeans down and then he sat on the bed. the other guys were watching and making jokes. then eventually scott was like, ok just fucking do it so i did.
once i started it didnt seem to bad. i sucked him. everyone went quite and just watched. my head was going up and down. i didnt really know what i was doing i’d never even gotten head before haha. i’d fucked girls and had gotten hand jobs but had not gotten head so i was just doing what i figured would feel good. and he was into it. and he came. i wasnt expecting it like he hadnt said he was gonna cum so he came in my mouth and i pulled away and spit it out. the guys called me a pussy but i was like, i’ve done it. then they were like, so okay who’s next. and i realzied then they wanted me to do it for ALL of them. like i thought they had just meant do it once. at first i said no but they were like, you already did one, what’s the difference so i n the end i agreed. so i picked the next guy and they told me i had to swallow.
i sucked him kind of the same and when he came he held my head and kept me on him and he shot in my mouth and i made myself swallow. then i did it for the next two.
after we were done they said they’d put in a word with the president. but after that it was obvious that everyone kind of knew what had happened. like people were making jokes about it the next day and making comments about it. and then i got called in by the president and a couple of other seniors and the president basically said that he’d heard i’d done a good job and that i’d probably get a bid if i kept doing it. so i was told if any brother asked me, i had to say yes. and they were like, you might as well stick with it, right?
at the time i figured it was just for my pledge so i was telling myself it was just a few weeks. but i was already geting used to doing it. but then my big had a talk with me and he said that i was being lined up to be house fag sort of as a permanent thing for my freshman year. and i was like what the fuck? they want me to suck dick for a year??? and he was like, well more than suck dick. and he told me that he’d been told to like properly break me in. i freaked out but he calmed me down and told me that it was really just for the pledge and that after that it probably wouldnt happen. i think in some way i was sort of starting to like it, or get used to it. and i liked the attention i was getting and anyway i figured fuck it so i agreed. so for like a couple of weeks my big started fucking me, just getting me used to it as much as i could be.
and then i was basically handed to the seniors and they started fucking me too. i got my bid and was initiated. and for a couple of years i was house fag. i didnt really do chores but i was expected to be available for anyone who wanted to use me. and like i said i liked getting the attention and i got to be good at it.
after i left college i didnt really do stuff with guys, but a few years later there was a fraternity convention in Vegas and some of the exective comittee were there and they knew about my role in my chapter and i was invited to spend some time with them and i did stuff for them.
i still think about it and i like to ready about other guys doing it
Thank you for writing … brother? Maybe?
People think I’m exaggerating about the use of faggots by straight Alphas in fraternities and universities, but I’m most certainly not. It happens MUCH more than anyone freely admits. The hierarchical model of male interaction not only predicts this, but almost DEMANDS it. You shouldn’t feel badly or be embarrassed by what happened to you. This is simply the way Alphas express their dominance with weaker males.
I’m not sure what thread you’re talking about because this site has carried many true stories like yours over 11 years. The most dramatic was the powerful thread about “Frat Fag” and his Alpha frat brother named Duke, and it very closely mirrors what happened to you. I am intending to republish that thread to my paid Substack. It’s an incredible story of rape, betrayal, and friendship, but one that ultimately led to purpose fulfilled. Keep your eyes out for that!
One thing your experience shows clearly is the devious, predatorial nature of Alpha packs. Those frat Alphas very cleverly groomed you before you ever tasted your first dick. They worked on you through instinctual pack knowledge that needs no discussion; it’s simply understood.
In cases like yours it’s hard to know if you are a natural faggot, or possibly someone with leanings that were exposed through pressure from these Alphas. Alternatively, your feelings now could be residual “Stockholm Syndrome”-like aftershocks arising from your two years of being used. Usually this happens to rape victims like me (although I’m definitely a faggot), but I wouldn’t call you a rape victim. It’s quite interesting to me that you’re craving service opportunities years after the experience.
From my perspective, it’s hierarchically correct to follow your gut instincts. If you have a desire to serve, then you should find an Alpha somewhere and offer yourself to him. You might be able to answer any lingering questions you have through some honest exploration.
But I do thank you for sharing your remarkable college story. There are plenty of actual faggots who would love to be used the way you were for two years, and I’m sure they thrilled to your account. Please feel free to update me if you want/need to!
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