i just watched your new video “Brainwashed By Technique,” and it was awesome! As a faggot i regularly watch brainwashing vids to get my faggot mind in tune to worship cock. Do you have any particular brainwashing or hypnosis videos that you particularly like or find more effective to tune a faggot’s mind?

I’m glad you liked that video, brother! 

I know those brainwashing videos and audio files are very popular (I’ve been tempted to produce some myself), but I’ve never had the desire or interest in using them. I’ve found my mind and imagination are all I need to put myself into a sub-state. 

But I’ll try to add more of such videos as I encounter them for those like you who do love them! 

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The following post is part of a thread following the continuing service of a faggot named James who has been serving a young straight Alpha for TEN YEARS. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!

Ever since I first began to write about and define the experience of cunting (which was virtually undescribed anywhere until then), the phenomena has remained shrouded in tantalizing mystery. Some faggots recognized what I described immediately, while others had never experienced it and doubted it was real. And let’s not even talk about all of the Alphas who wrote to me thanking me for either explaining what they witnessed or curious about how to do it.

My brother James has a lot of experience, and he’s already surprising me with his thoughtful and articulated memories of past service or his intriguing current situation. I’m sure his Master is very proud of him as I am. My constant advocacy for cunting triggered James to ask a couple of fellow faggots about cunting and get their opinions about it.

He wrote this:

Straight man’s faggot James here… I only know two individuals who are faggots such as myself…I’ve discussed the dynamic of being cunted with both and I got two different interpretations of the faggot’s experience of being cunted… With the addition of my own, I now have three … One of these faggots is of the opinion that, in reality, the faggot only experiences being truly cunted once by the same Alpha and this occurs within the first few times an Alpha fucks it, although the sensation can be repeated with a different Alpha… The second individual insists that the Alpha controls if , when and how often his faggot is cunted as well as to what degree of intensity purely through anal pounding… As for myself, I tend to lean toward the second theory… I’ve been cunted more times than I can say and definitely to different degrees in my 10 years as the same straight man’s faggot… For me, my first full intensity cunting happened right after he had been throat fucking me for a good while…. I recall how I quivered profusely and felt as if I were fainting… I’ve been fortunate to relive that thrill of being cunted a goodly number of times in the past ten years… I feel myself quivering deep inside every time….However, I only achieve that faint helpless state after being throat fucked as was the case in my first cunting… Am I correct in my assumption that I indeed am experiencing two actual degrees or levels or is true cunting only taking place for me when both the quivering as well as that faint disoriented feeling occur ?

Interesting perspectives! I cannot tell you how much I love when clever faggots like James take material they read either here or elsewhere and explore how it fits with their experiences or desires. The perspectives of these other faggots is quite welcome!

I can’t explain what James describes here because my cuntings weren’t in stages like this. However, I do think he is experiencing distinct stages of cunting, which is interesting to me. I do also think cunting involves an emotional element (or possibly a depth of subspace) for it to be truly triggered. James mentions being aggressively throat fucked before being cunted, which is one way that mental/emotional state can be achieved. Thinking back, that was certainly part of my own cuntings.

I’d love to hear from more faggots on this!

Hello Sam!

I’m writing with an issue probably everyone had struggled with at some point, however I feel like for me it’s too much, and I need help.

Thing is, I always feel like am two different people, the horny and the regretful. I seek out men all the time,  and every time I get on my knees I already feel deep shame, so bad it even causes apathy, where I space out while in the act.
I totally disconnect from my body, and focus on the cock. That’s a good thing right?
Except I feel no real sensations during that time. It’s like I’m blocking it all out. I barely moan, squeal and then mechanically cum.
During and after the act I feel terrible. I become numb for a couple hours, sometimes even days.
Yet I always come back crawling for more. I really can’t get enough of cock and cum and spit and piss and pits and musk. It’s always the same. The before is always amazing, I fire up grindr and arrange a meet up, I head there when the time comes and again shows up my numbness.
I am infuriated that I cannot find my own pleasure in serving. Isn’t it that my pleasure is supposed to be derived from the man’s pleasure? I feel a deep sense of purpose within it, I really love men and love cock, so I push through the stupid feelings and still accept the cock and cum with my whole heart, mouth and hole.

But still, I feel like a failure.
While I do recognise the deep interplay of shame and desire, and how much it drives me to wanting more and more cock, I feel like it is excessive.

Dear Sam, what would you advise me to do?

– vitale

Thanks for the question, brother!

Here’s the problem: there isn’t really much you can do about this.

You’re experiencing two things I’ve written about quite a bit on the site. The first is SUBSPACE, which causes that empty, mindless feeling you describe. The second is THE VOID, which is that numbed ache that you describe after you’ve served that eventually drives you back for more. 

These are both quite natural occurrences for a faggot who does experience subspace easily (as it sounds like you do). This many not be a matter of doing anything to avoid it (because I largely think it’s unavoidable) as it is a matter of understanding what is happening within yourself and paying attention to how these feelings effect you. By doing this, you can take yourself out of a “victim” stance and become more active in how you process it. 

I hope this makes some sense to you. Just know that what you’re feeling is normal, brother.  

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A couple of days ago a faggot who was contemplating chastity asked me about what it was like day-to-day while wearing a chastity cage. I felt that such a subject was worthy of a larger and more developed post, especially given how much I’ve been preaching the use of chastity on faggots.

I’ve never been caged by a Master before (I self-locked in 2001), but the faggots I’ve coached through being caged by an Alpha went through a broad range of emotions. There’s a first rush of humility and gratitude, mixed with anxiety. Over the course of a couple of weeks, anxiety increases, along with a growing resistance and rebellion against the cage.

This process is important. A faggot needs to go through this in order to fully accept the end of its autonomous life. The struggle is a kind of death rattle of the faggot’s masculinity. And once the faggot works through that, acceptance settles in and its true purpose becomes as clear and as focused as its eyesight.

For self-locking faggots like me, this process happens first, eventually making chastity unavoidable as the weight of guilt becomes too great to bear.

Daily chastity means sitting down to pee. It means never experiencing a full erection or an orgasm like a Man. It means the faggot must be especially vigilant with cleaning its cage and shriveled genitalia. It means embracing a eunuch’s life, one without the possibility of children or any of those other heteronormative tropes that faggots often hide behind.

But what replaces the losses the faggot suffers is something deeper and more profound. Every second of every day the chastity cage reminds the faggot of its separateness from the other Men around it. It forces the faggot into a low-level hum of subspace, helping the faggot to be naturally more submissive and respectful of all Men.

Most importantly, the faggot finally understands its purpose more clearly than it ever imagined it could. The cage reminds the faggot that it is the possession of a Man and, by extension, all Men.

One of the most common questions faggots pose about chastity involves shrinkage. Is it permanent? The answer is, sadly, no. If left unlocked, the faggot’s penis will eventually return to its pathetic original shape more or less (mostly less).

However, time in the cage leaves lasting impressions on the faggot’s subconscious that last a lifetime. A lifetime hopefully spent in service!