Hi Sam! I am a faggot that served a Brazilian Alpha for some months named Thiago. He has a huge cock that I found challenging to take at first, but over time He managed to shape my insides to his cock. Last month, I noticed that my hole had become looser due to all the stretching and it now looked like a slit with swollen edges, mimicking a vagina. I got very excited because I immediately recognised it as the boy pussy that you talk about in your website. However, I noticed that Thiago gradually called me less and less to fuck me and when I asked him if something was wrong, he confessed that my pussy was not satisfying him anymore. He assured me that he was very attracted to my boy pussy externally, but that it was not tight enough for him anymore. He told me that he is known by other faggots as the “Pussy Maker” and that most slaves served him to get it. I respected his wishes, of course, but I feel sad. I am scared that other Alphas will see me as “used” or “broken” and that my pussy will not be as tight as they expect. Do you have any advice for me?
Thank you for the question, brother!
Wow, it sounds like Master Thiago had one monstrous cock! Was it really called the “Pussy Maker” or the “Pussy SPLITTER”? I’ve heard about the giant cocks in Brazil, but your letter has caused me to book a flight there.
But yes, proper fucking by larger Alpha cocks can cause our holes to transform into vagina-like openings that I call “Boy Pussy”. It’s pretty amazing, honestly. It’s like our bodies know to do this.
I’m sorry Master Thiago acted that way, but it’s pretty common for Alpha breeders like him to move on after a while. I’m sure his blunt assessment of your pussy hurt you, which is a shame given the fact that it was his cock that loosened it!
As an advice, I want to introduce you to Kegels for faggots: “anal breathing”. This creepy gay doctor from the ’90s named Joe Kramer pushed this method for strengthening the muscles of the anus. I was doing a form of this naturally after I started getting fucked, and then I saw this video and realized I was doing it right.
The anus has a web of muscle surrounding our hole to control what goes in or out. Like any muscle, it can be worked out and strengthened.
Here is the video I’ve had stored on my computer for ages. It teaches several exercises that should help to tighten your sphincter:
Hi sam hope you are having a good day. I’m just reaching out to you as i want to have my first experience with a Man but im not too sure in what way.
I do believe in hierarchy and i do feel like i am a faggot. I often fantasize about serving a Man in ways that a standard sexual partner wouldnt. The idea of a Man enjoying having his feet licked and piss drank feels so alien to me but feels so inspiring at the same time because it must require a level of pure cockiness and understanding they have the power to make someone do that, which i know is something i definitely dont possess.
The thing is i am yet to have any sexual experience at all. Im early 20s so im perhaps a little late to the game compared to most gay guys haha. I have just always been nervous about sex and struggled a bit with shame due to religious trauma. Over the years, ive explored fantasies online but i used to be much more vanilla. I dont know if itd be wise to jump straight into the deep end and find a master to serve or whether it would be better to try more vanilla experiences instead. I want to be well prepared for a master/slave dynamic and wouldnt want to disappoint him as a newbie. But im also a bit scared of the impact it would do to the work ive done to combat the shame ive felt about being gay as being a slave to a Man kinda adds another layer of complexity to it. I also dont know if i will end up enjoying being more vanilla and a typical sub bottom rather than a faggot. I guess i am just unsure if i am thinking wisely to go from not having done anything with a Man to worshipping his feet, doing his laundry and wearing a cage for him all at once lol. I know hierarchy is reality but im not too sure if i am thinking of too much fantasy. Im not sure if im overthinking or not. I would really appreciate some guidance from you sam as i love reading your stuff and coming here has definitely helped me realise the importance of knowing your place within the hierarchy.
Thank you for writing!
I understand your fears and the programming you’re fighting against. Many faggots are so nervous and timid that they struggle to make any headway with their purpose as you’re experiencing.
But here’s the thing: if you continue on this course, you’ll never experience anything you truly desire. You don’t want that. There’s nothing worse than looking back in regret.
Just go on TheBlowers.com or Grindr and find a Man to service. You need to just get started. From there you can build with more confidence.
How publicly exposed and to what detail should a faggot be? Is being out as openly gay enough? Or should it be known to friends, relatives even, exactly how gay they really are? How they are totally passive bottom submissive for all and any Men? Should a faggot expose itself or trust a Real Man to expose them properly?
Thanks for writing!
I don’t think a faggot necessarily needs to come out as a faggot. Coming out as gay is more than enough. I have found it useful to openly admit my faghood, but I’m a different breed and I would never insist on that course for everyone.
Now, some Masters like to push their faggots to come out as a faggot. I don’t really agree with that. But I’m not a Master, and I don’t expect Masters to listen to me.
I want to become an obedient servant to my neighbor Steve! I’ve sent messages to him asking for his help in getting his cock into my throat and his balls on my face. He doesn’t respond but when we run into each other he’s pleasant and friendly. I can’t help staring at his crotch and I want to suck him so bad. What else can I do?
Thank you for writing, brother.
First of all, please STOP what you’re doing immediately. You’re doing it completely wrong. You think you’re being sexy for him by acting like a complete whore. Guess what, sweetheart? HE’S STRAIGHT. He’s not attracted to you physically.
That’s why we faggots must use our complete submission to fly under the radar. I always advise fags to offer services like domestic service or monetary service or gifts. I advise having conversations where you unlock his mind to think about hierarchy and his power. Get him to talk about himself. That’s why I advise fags use physical cues for submission (like getting physically/visually lower).
But you’ve blown all of that with your ridiculous actions.
I want you to go to him and humbly apologize for acting that way. Actually say “Sir, I wanted to apologize to you for disrespecting you and your Alphahood. I’m sorry that I offended you. I simply want to be useful to you.” This might get his attention.
But I think you’ve significantly fucked this opportunity.
This faggot has a question about cunt status, I was anally raped by a Man when I was underage, that was my first sexual experience. I didn’t tell anyone at the time and never really thought about it until I became an adult and had naturally gravitated towards Men and developed my own understanding of what being a faggot was going to mean for me. A recently, I met this particular Man who was one of if not the biggest I have taken and we have since been seeing eachother 2-3 times a week for a few months now. Only recently, I have seen a change in my assholes appearance and I believe my cunt is developing. Would my official cunting be the first Cock I took? Or the first Cock that started my cunting process?
Thank you for the question, brother!
I’m afraid you’ve misunderstood what I mean by the word “cunting”. The term refers to the internal orgasm a faggot experiences when an Alpha fucks them right. There are lots of resources on cunting (including a film I made) in the link on the front page.
What you’re experiencing is the natural transformation of your hole into a boy pussy. Congratulations on that! It’s an amazing thing that we get from our Alphas. They love seeing a faggot with a boy pussy, because their natural attraction to pussy triggers them.
That means your Alpha is stretching you out! Enjoy it!
The following post is part of a thread detailing the struggles of an innocent faggot named Noah who is being fucked roughly by a big-dicked Alpha. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
Alphas can always surprise. You never really know what’s going on in their mind and heart, especially because they always seem like ravenous beasts out to rape and pillage. You’d think their minds would be simple machines of brute force: “EAT, SLEEP, FUCK.”
But, like the natural world they dominate, Alphas can be marvelously complex, like dazzling diamonds comprised of countless facets. Just when you think they don’t care about something, unexpected actions from them reveal the depth of their planning and execution.
Little Noah found that out recently. Noah’s best female friend has been trying to get Noah to leave his big-dicked Master, an unnamed Alpha I’ve been calling Master Hulk, because she said she thinks he’s been abusing Noah. But is that really her intention?
Listen to what this dumb bitch did, and how Master Hulk responded:
Hi Sam! This is Noah again (the one who loves the Hulk)
I want to tell you what happened between me, my best friend, and my boyfriend. After our conversation setting boundaries, I thought she would forget about my Man. But she did something who ruined our friendship forever… Can you believe that the bitch started hitting on my Alpha on Instagram? She told him that she could offer what I would never offer, that a Man like him deserves a real woman, and things like that. That’s why she was telling me to break up with him!! She was never worried about his aggression or the way he fucks me. But luckily my boyfriend is amazing, so he took screenshots of all the things she said and sent it to me and said “is this the best friend you trust and love so much?”
I was soooooo upset and cried a lot, but my Man told me that a beautiful boy like me should never cry for a slut like her. Then he told me that he wanted to fuck her and dump her afterward, just to take some advantage of the situation. I was so angry that I told him to do it. He pretended to be into her, invited her over, she went to his apartment, he fucked her, then (according to what he told me) he just said “Noah loves you and appreciates your friendship, but you are just a selfish slut, get the fuck out of my house.” She tried to text me later that day and apologize, trying to put my Man against me, saying that he was hitting on her, but I just blocked her and I don’t want to see her anymore. My powerful Man invited me over his apartment on the next day, he ordered my favorite food, we had dinner together, we cuddled for hours and hours, and in the middle of night, he started kissing me, lubed my ass and went inside of me really gently, he had never fucked me so gently and softly, he kissed me all the time and kept repeating “that’s it, you’re my boy, you’re amazing”, I think he noticed that I was really hurt for what my bestfriend had done to me, but it turned me on so much to think that he had fucked and bred that slut. When he came inside of me, I could only repeat thank you multiple times for having his holy seed inside of me.
The worst part for me is that I would have loved to serve my Man together with my friend, but she wanted to steal him from me and have him just for her. What really hurt my feelings was not that she wants to ride his cock, this is normal, he is a really hot bisexual Alpha. But I was really upset because she tried to seduce him saying that he didn’t need me anymore.
Anyway Sam, I lost a friend, but I have a real good Alpha who chose me, and this is so much better than a fake friendship. I am really happy and fulfilled now. I told him that he can fuck whoever he wants because we are boyfriends but first I am his faggot, but he agreed to let me know from now on if some of my fag friends or female friends try to hit on him.
Women can be so fucking stupid! Did she really think Master Hulk would choose her lying, manipulative, and unfaithful ass over the faithful and devoted worship and service of his primary faggot Noah?? On what planet would any Alpha cheapen himself like that??
Instead, Master Hulk devised a way to (a) get the pussy he wants, and (b) humiliate her completely! I imagine the pounding he gave her set off the Richter Scale! This was a fuck of vengeance, a statement of utter power and dominance.
And he did it all for his faggot!
It was interesting the way Master Hulk fucked Noah afterward. Typically, aftercare is something applied after an intense fuck. But in this case, the fuck was the aftercare. Master Hulk’s long, caring strokes inside Noah helped to reassure him that he was precious to his Master. And it worked, too. Notice the way Noah responded to Master Hulk’s loads deep inside him. This is the kind of connection only a Master and his faggot can know, one of tender intimacy and clear hierarchical boundaries.
I’m in awe of Master Hulk’s vast wisdom and flawless execution of the evil witch. I’m also proud of Noah for remaining faithful and obedient to his Master, relying on his judgement as if it were the Gospel.
Their Master/faggot relationship is one all Alphas and fags should meditate upon and emulate!
Hey I came across ur website a couple months ago, and it got me to realize that being a faggot was something I wanted to persue but I have never tried it so I don’t know where to start when it comes to finding a master. you have any devise or any masters looking for a new faggot?
Thank you for writing!
Congratulations on recognizing the truth in yourself and choosing to take action! That’s half the battle, honestly!
I don’t connect Alphas and faggots anymore. I tried it at the start of this site ten years ago, and it was a disaster.
I don’t know how old you are, but depending on your circumstances you just need to look around at the Alphas in your life that you’d like to serve and start submitting to them in various ways. You can use my free resource “Letter To An Alpha” in the right sidebar to open a conversation and help the Alpha you want to serve to understand what you are and what he is. That letter has worked multiple times.
You can also use apps like Grindr, TheBlowers.com, Recon, etc. Faggots often find Alphas there.
I came across your blog yours ago and recognized myself a lot in the description of a fag. However being in a relationship I didn’t do much actively about it, only fantasizing. The last few years, the sex in my relationship dropped from no more anal sex (my bf says I’m too tight) to just a few times a year where he let’s me give him head. Most of the times he is just laying there on his back and let me do my thing. Getting frustrated I started to go on the apps behind his back to search for fun. I limit it to hookups where I suck the guys, a lot of time straight man. Probably because anal sex would need more preparation time and would feel even more like cheating since it’s a lot more intimate.
With this experiences in the last year, I tend to hookup more and more with dominant guys, that wont to be deepthroated or facefuck. I really enjoy this submissive role.
A few weeks ago I came across this real alpha who lives nearby and works in the same building. We met a couple of times now where he makes me suck him and rubs his dick over my ass before cumming all over it. When he writes me, he want me to come over immediately, which is hard for me being in a relation but I do when I can. It’s clear that he doesnt like to get no for an answer.
I feel that he wants to fuck me and come in my ass but for now I always find a reason for it not to happen (no time to clean, not practical in the toilets, …). I’m afraid he will loose interest in me if I don’t let him fuck me. On one side, I would like to be fucked again, on the other side, it’s really a big step which I feel uncomfortable with of crossing. His dick is also really big and he likes to play rough, so I’m also afraid my ass will get hurted of injured after all this time. I’m not sure what to do here. Any advice?
Thank you for the question, brother!
I’m sorry about the failing relationship. Sometimes Men lose interest in sex over time for a variety of reasons, but that’s a shame in your case because you have a faggot’s desire to serve and he’s wasting it.
I’m glad you found this truly dominant Alpha who is also very conveniently located! You’re taking the right steps to unleash your inner faggot, which I’m glad to hear!
The Alpha is going to fuck you at some point. If you don’t get ready, it’s either going to be really painful, or he’s going to lose interest and move on. So I suggest that you get ready for getting fucked.
If you buy it through me, you get a discount. Again, HERE IS THE LINK. You need to use those buttplugs to loosen your hole. I’d also get some good water-based lube.
As far as your ethical concerns with your partner, I wouldn’t worry about it too much. He’s the one who has abandoned you. It’s time for you to experience your truth as a faggot.
Hello. I serve a Master who takes advice from you. He recommended I listen to your podcasts, and I have joined your discord. I am confused about some of your posts and podcasts though. Is it OK for Alphas to have nonconsentual sex with fags? Is it OK for Alphas to lie to fags about safe sex by stealthing? You seem to have posted conflicting views on these issues. Thank you.
Thank you for the question, brother!
I must say, your Master should be very proud to own such an intelligent and thoughtful faggot as you! You’re a credit to him!
I’ve often said that I don’t consider myself a reliable voice when it comes to rape because I was raped. And while it was scary in the moment and something that took a while to overcome, I noticed that my feelings toward my rapist and the event itself transformed into something valuable. I acknowledge that might not be the case with every faggot/rape victim, but I’ve heard from plenty of faggots who’ve had the same experience.
So to your question about whether it’s “okay” for Alphas to rape faggots, I’ll phrase it this way: Alphas have the right to take whatever they want from a faggot (rape, so to speak), and they always will. The idea of it being “okay” implies some justification based on human law, but Alphas operate under natural law. It’s the so-called “law of the jungle” that we know as hierarchical law. And under hierarchical law, Alphas can and do rape faggots.
That said, I wish Alphas didn’t rape faggots … but wishes won’t change nature.
As far as stealthing, I don’t really condone the practice overall; the video featuring stealthing I recently posted was just hot. I think if an Alpha wants to breed a faggot, he should just state his intentions outright and then do it. Why the subterfuge? Almost all faggots want to be bred by Alphas/Masters anyway, so the act of stealthing simply indicates untrustworthy behavior. And should diseases be spread via stealthing, there are hefty prices to pay for it. I prefer upfront, direct, and honest communication with the Alphas I serve.
I really hope I answered your questions, brother! Tell your Master thank you for his support, and for training up such a wonderful faggot brother like you!
I hope you don’t mind this faggot following up on your very interesting reply to my last question. Faggot wondered if it could ever be the case that true Masters occasionally like to take cock themselves – your answer made faggot think it’s not acceptable yet it has had some further thoughts on this which it would like to share. Masters have the freedom to seek pleasure wherever and however They choose. By exercising that choice They are asserting Their rights, and faggot guesses (obviously no faggot can truly understand the mind of an alpha) that sometimes some Masters may enjoy the sensation of having Their hole penetrated. Faggot wonders if this would be per se a loss of dignity or a diminution of a Master’s masculinity? An interesting question, faggot thinks, for discussion in the Hierarchy University.
Of course in this faggot’s case the particular issue in the original question was its own embarrassment at having to use its dicklet in such a way; but then again, as Master has always declared that faggot’s dicklet belongs to Him then faggot supposes it could be argued that Master is merely using His own property to please Himself. This is all very perplexing for a mere faggot brain!!
The issue of faggot’s relationship with its dicklet (not really belonging to it but to Master, of course) is sometimes a difficult one to manage. Faggot has for many years had a serious problem with masturbation but Master prefers it not to wear a device because He believes that developing self-control is a much more fulfilling practice. By having to struggle every day when temptation arises faggot is constantly having to focus on and strengthen its commitment to Master’s command. However over time this has become much easier and faggot now finds the idea of masturbation repellent and selfish whilst the word itself – masturbation- seems ugly. Faggot guesses that its growth towards dissociating its dicklet from any legitimate kind of sexual pleasure (even though it still experiences powerful erections) has made it more difficult to satisfy Master’s very occasional commands to fuck Him – yet again faggot finds itself shuddering at the inappropriateness of those two words! Thank you Sam for taking the trouble to take on board this silly faggot’s meanderings. It hopes you have more wise words to dispense!
Thanks for writing again, brother!
Even though I’m now a big proponent of chastity (locked for all of five years aside from my two years in prison), that wasn’t always the case. None of my Masters ever required it of me because I have a tiny penis that never got hard while serving, so it wasn’t an issue. However, I DID have a secret masturbation problem for my entire life until right before I self-locked. I overcame that issue thanks to starting this site, actually! I became intimately involved with some God Alphas, and they so humbled me that I eventually became ashamed of masturbating. Then I eventually became ashamed of using my penis like Men do (for example, using a urinal). So masturbation stopped, and I eventually self-locked out of desperation.
It sounds like your evolution is following the same path as mine. I think it’s wise of your Master to have you overcome masturbation voluntarily using self-control rather than a device. But once you do have it under control, I do hope your Master does agree to lock you in chastity. There is something profound about being locked. It has truly changed my life for the better.
I do think you should have a respectful-but-frank conversation with your Master about your feelings regarding you topping him. You need to help him see how this is hurting you, and also how it is hurting how you view him. You need to help him understand that you want nothing more than to serve him and submit to him, but topping him not only makes you extremely uncomfortable, it bit also degrades that submission you feel toward him.
Your Master sounds like an insightful Alpha. I’m sure he will listen and understand if you explain it to him.
I am a faggot who has been adoring my straight friend since high school. Even at 16 he looked like a 20 year old bodybuilder. I was adoring him ever since. In high school i didn’t pursue any gay relationships, and I had very little in common with him, but I always hung around him. On graduation day we had a party where he stripped. I drank beer from his pecs and licked his nipples. Still a core memory. When I brought it up some years later he didn’t remember.
Anyway. Over the years I have come out to him and I have saved a gallery collection of his thirst traps he has sent me. I have at times been either drunk or extremely horny and begged to be his slave or serve him in any way, and he has rejected every offer. He has never told me off for thirsting after him, but he has also never given me any indication that he will let me do anything beyond admiration. At one time he was even offended that I thanked him for tolerating my bs so much, telling me he views me as a friend and equal. At one time he said he doesn’t mind that I’m in love with him because we have very little in common, and had I not been gay we wouldn’t have become friends
One time when I was at his place we were sunbathing together on the roof terrace of his apartment building. I tried to offer massaging his feet and I got close at one point, but he didn’t let me do any of it. Zero interest.
At this point he has gone through several long term relationships with beautiful women, and atp it breaks my heart. I really want to serve him. I even tried to fix an alpha twitter for him so he could get some extra money. Am I pursuing a futile goal here? It’s been 10 years now, I really want to know if I’m just hurting myself.
Thank you for the question!
What you’ve described is the classic faggot conundrum. I think every faggot has had a straight Alpha they wanted to serve in high school. Most of them never get as close to it as you have, so that’s to your credit, brother!
The kind of Alpha you describe is the toughest type to “break”. I call them “Indifferent Alphas”. They’re so laid-back and genial that they never take a position on anything. Nothing bothers them or arouses them (except pussy, of course). You’ve even tried a carrot that typically does work – FINDOM – and your Alpha isn’t interested. That can be difficult.
Here’s what I suggest: send him a copy of my “Letter To An Alpha” (in the right sidebar) – or better yet, have him read it from the site – and then ask him about his thoughts regarding it. That letter has had some success, mainly because it condenses the hierarchical outline into a clear truth that most true Alphas can agree to.
I’d say if he rejects that message, then you need to give up. You are definitely hurting yourself with these rejected attempts to sway him. There are other Alphas who really are interested in owning you. You’d be better off submitting to them.
First, Happy New Year. Thank you for all that you do for the community. You provide a valuable service and a supportive forum for faggots and Alphas alike. Your work is appreciated.
When an Alpha asks for information on likes, dislikes, or limits, how much information should a faggot give? Sometimes in answering this question, it feels like i am trying to influence what the Alpha does. Even though my intent may be to help the Alpha control me better, i can’t honestly say that i’m not trying to guide Him toward doing certain things and away from doing other things i do not like. Would it be OK to preface the list of dislikes by saying that i hoped He would help me overcome any of my dislikes or limits that He found objectionable? Or perhaps to supply only a list of health problems that made certain activities dangerous?
Recently another faggot told me that his Alpha punished him with spankings, which he secretly enjoyed. Should a faggot inform an Alpha that he actually enjoys His punishments so that the Alpha can use a punishment that that faggot actually finds painful?
In short, how does a faggot toe the line between self-serving information and Alpha-serving information.
fagjohn
Thank you for the interesting question!
I’ve always been of the opinion that a faggot should simply submit and allow the Alpha to guide how things go, augmenting any sessions with information (like health information, etc.) as they arise. Preliminarily loading up an Alpha with a bunch of prequalifications and conditions would only confuse or frustrate the Alpha before he can even receive service.
I don’t want to discourage you, though, because your heart is in the right place. Such deep considerations are a key to a successful and fruitful faghood, brother. We have so much to discover about our submission! We can reap the rich bounty of self-actualization that comes when we meaningfully meditate on issues like these, so I’m proud you are doing that hard-but-beneficial work!
Faggot hopes you can help it with a bit of a problem but first of all it needs to give a bit of context. Faggot is very lucky to have irregular but relatively frequent meetings with a Master who is significantly younger than it is. Faggot feels very privileged to be able to serve and does so to the best of its ability. Master likes to administer pain and to humiliate faggot (both in private and occasionally with other men present). He also uses faggot for sexual relief. Faggot craves the lash, thrills to the humiliation and longs for Master’s seed – a precious gift which He bestows when He sees fit.
The problem for faggot is that very occasionally Master likes to take a cock in His arse and He has instructed faggot to uses its dicklet to fuck Him. It embarrasses faggot even to write these words, so unfitted does it feel to perform this function. Master generally refers to its penis as a dicklet or a clit and faggot has learned to consider it to be of no importance in any sexual encounter. Over the years, however, faggot has developed its own mantra ‘Master, if it pleases You it must please me.’ This is a mantra it uses whenever Master instructs it to perform a new task and He has the grace to ask if faggot likes it. On the two occasions it has been told to fuck Master (how shocking those words sound!) it has been unable to perform. Faggot has lost its hard-on and has feebly fumbled around trying to insert its inadequate and rapidly softening dicklet into His most private place. Master has tried to convince faggot that this is not a situation of faggot ‘taking charge‘ because by fucking Him (again it pains faggot to write those words!) it is merely obeying an order, just like any other command. Faggot hates to be disobedient (obedience is its favourite word in the whole English language) but it has come up against a block in its journey of submission and feels itself to have let Master down. Master, in His wisdom and kindness, does not dwell on the point but it is clear that He is disappointed and for faggot this is almost too much to bear!
Faggot would love to hear your comments on this, please.
Fag charlie
My dear brother Charlie, thank you for the question!
Believe me, I absolutely feel your pain and frustration! I’ll admit this: every time you mentioned being forced to perform this with your Master, I literally flinched in horror. I felt like I was reading about gruesome torture.
Frankly, I do think this is a form of faggot abuse. Of course, since we are faggots we don’t have “rights” per se, but neither does a dog … but normal people don’t abuse dogs, do they? Why would a Master torment a faggot like this? I understand that some Masters like to play games with their faggots as an amusement, but this is clearly upsetting you. It would upset me, too.
Here’s the other thing I don’t understand: a Master who is occasionally demanding that his faggot fucks him is (in my opinion) degrading himself and surrendering some of his power and respectability. To effectively submit to a Master, a faggot needs to respect him. I don’t understand why any superior and dominant Man would degrade himself in this way. It would make me question whether or not he’s really the Man for me.
You seem like a much meeker sort of faggot than I am, Charlie. I don’t want to give you advice that isn’t going to help you. I’ll tell you what I would do: I would respectfully ask my Master to stop demanding this of me, mainly because it makes me lose respect for him. Couching it in those terms puts the onus on the Master’s reputation as a Man, rather than my personal preference.
But I will tell you that I am so very proud of you for your cultivation of a perfect faggot outlook and personality. You’re humble, service-oriented, and gentle. You’re the type of faggot any Alpha should be proud to own, and the type of faggot I’m proud to call my brother! I love you, Charlie! Thank you for writing!
The following post is part of a thread testifying to the life of complete service of a faggot named John who lived as the property of a gay Alpha named Master Norman. CLICK HERE to read all of these posts in chronological order!
I get a lot of questions about life as an owned faggot, life as a faggot object, and life as a faggot slave. Every so often I’ve been able to feature a really intense, all-encompassing view of the life of a faggot slave. For example, longtime readers will remember by old thread about Tim, a live-in faggot slave of an abusive straight Alpha. These more intense examples are hard to find, because most of these fag brothers are too immersed in their responsibilities to ever have the time to communicate with me.
I was recently contacted by a faggot named John who spent more than twenty years as the in-home faggot property and cash fag to a gay Alpha named Master Norman. I received John’s testimony in a few pieces, so I’m assembling them here as one full account. However, it paints a vivid picture of a life spent in completely immersive service to a very powerful Man!
[A note before you read: John refers to himself as “it” throughout his narrative.]
At the age of 26, it became the property of Master Norman. As Master explained years later, He took control of it because it impressed Him as a hard worker with plenty of income potential.
THE NEW ARRANGEMENT
It met Master Norman at a party. He asked for its phone number and later arranged to meet it for coffee. After several such meetings and long discussions, He proposed the arrangement described in the account and accepted it for a trial period of three months. There was a contract specifying its duties in detail and giving Master Norman the option of extending the contract for as long as He wished. it did not have the right to an opinion. At the end of that trial period, He claimed ownership.
Master took charge of its finances. He confiscated its credit and debit cards and its checkbook and let it use them only with permission and only for a single purchase or use at a time. It was required to explain why it needed to spend the money and beg Master to be allowed to do so. Master allowed it a weekly allowance that it was permitted to use only to buy small things such as coffee or snacks at work necessary to maintain the minimal interactions with coworkers. It had to keep a record of all such expenditures and present it to Master on Sunday for review. Any unused money had to be returned to Master.
Master required it to live as frugally as possible and reduce personal expenses to a minimum. It ate cheap food so that Master could have better food. It wore cheaper clothes so that Master could wear higher quality clothes. It took public transportation so that Master could afford a car worthy of His status. It socialized with others only at work
In addition, it paid Master a monthly rent. Master once explained to a friend of His that the rent covered His mortgage payments and utility bills. Master had an old house that had a small maid’s apartment off the kitchen. This provided a fiction for tax purposes that it was just a renter.
It also paid for all groceries and minor household items like cleaning products and gardening supplies (at the major weekly grocery shopping, it asked for cash back—this was how it got the weekly allowance mentioned above, paid for out of the money in “its” bank account) Master paid for all major items such as furniture and appliances but then assessed it an additional “gift” each month to help pay for them. On the rare occasions when Master took it along with Him when he went to a restaurant, Master allowed it to pay for the meal.
In return for Master’s acceptance of it into His household, it did all household chores (cooking, cleaning, minor repairs and general upkeep) and yardwork, thus saving Master the need to pay others to do these chores. If the repairs or yardwork were beyond its abilities, it paid for the workmen hired to do them. For major repairs such as reroofing the house or painting the outside of the house, it gave Master a series of monthly “gifts” until the cost was paid off.
(For anyone contemplating such an arrangement, note that rent counts as income and is hence taxable. “Gifts” and purchases such as groceries do not, Since Master was renting part of His home, it could deduct all or part of the major expenses that He paid directly as expenses on the rental property.)
Master also managed the investment of its income and controlled the amounts deducted from its salary for pensions and insurance. His control of its finances extended into all areas.
THE SEXUAL SIDE OF BEING OWNED
Master Norman was a gay Alpha, although He did not use that term. He acknowledged that He was a Master, but He didn’t like to be called that, preferring “Sir” or “Esquire.” He was a lawyer and wore suits and ties for work and dressed in rather upscale casual wear otherwise. He eschewed leather, saying that “wearing the hide of a dead cow was a form of drag” and that “it was an attempt on the part of the insecure to borrow the supposed masculinity of a bull.”
Master did not use it for sexual purposes, explaining that His interest in it was purely financial. He did not find it to His taste. He used others for His sexual needs. Occasionally if He had a partner who needed sexual relief, He might require iI to suck the man off. If Master had had a stressful day, He might use it as a whipping boy if no one else was available. Master did not permit it to engage in sex. On the first day of each month, when it presented the rent check to Master, Master sometimes permitted it to kneel and masturbate before Him. If it didn’t ejaculate within a minute or so, Master would withdraw the permission.
He did use others for sexual purposes. On your hierarchy, they would probably be classed as betas or subs. Some of them were long-term.
Almost every Wednesday a man it dubbed “the professor” because of the way he dressed and behaved would visit the house. As part of its duties, it would escort him to the playroom in the basement, ask if he wanted anything (the answer was always “no, thank you”), and then leave him. Master would join him later. Their sessions always began with Master spanking him. What else went on between them, it does not know. It could hear the spanking but then there would be no noise audible upstairs for a half-hour or so after the spanking stopped. It had to clean up the playroom afterwards and put away the paddles and belts and floggers, etc., Master had used. Very occasionally, Master would call it to the basement and have it suck the professor’s dick for a while. On those occasions, the professor still wore his suitcoat, white shirt, and tie, but his trousers and underpants were pushed down around his ankles. The Master did not make it suck the professor until he came. After a few minutes, the Master would order it to leave. After it closed the door to the basement stairs, the spanking would resume.
Master also had men He fucked. They followed a pattern—all in their early to mid-twenties, all well-built and good-looking, and all well-dressed. Those who came to the house were always dressed in high-end casual—trousers rather than jeans, well-polished shoes rather than sneakers, long-sleeve shirts rather than tees. Master would see an individual once or twice a week for half a year or so and then move on to a new person. He seemed to like them to be very verbal. Even upstairs it could hear them begging Him to fuck them and then telling Him what a great fuck He was. Again, when they arrived, it would show them to the basement playroom, ask them if they needed anything (on the first few visits they often asked for something to drink, but they soon stopped doing that), and then leave them to wait by themselves. To judge from the noises coming from the basement and the toys it had to clean and put away afterwards, Master abused some of them sadistically. But for the most part, He appeared only to fuck them. They always left looking very disheveled and dizzy.
Master also saw other men outside the house, but it doesn’t know what He did with them. As far as it knows, it was Master’s only cashfag, but there could have been others. It was His only domestic servant.
It was never kept locked in chastity. As explained before, it was allowed only one ejaculation a month, when it presented the rent check to Master. Incidentally Master made it wear a condom when it knelt before HIm and jerked off. None of its cum was to sully the floor of Master’s office. It was difficult at first not to cum spontaneously at other times, especially when Master was disciplining it for its failures to observe the rules or keep His house and property as He wished. But it eventually learned that fags experience sexual pleasure only with their Master’s permission.
THE END EVENTUALLY COMES
Master was 43 at the time He took charge of it. He retired 22 years later and moved away, dismissing it from His service. Thanks to Master’s control, its finances were is excellent shape.
Master gave it two month’s warning of His intention to move to Hawaii after He retired. He explained that it no longer interested Him and that He had made other arrangements. He helped it find a condo to buy (with its own money) and let it keep the bed and other furniture in its quarters as well as much of the kitchen equipment. It continued to work for Master until the last day, oversaw the movers, and prepped the house for sale. After Master left, it never heard from Him again. It had no way of contacting Him
Of course, when Master left, it was bereft. Master had provided structure and order and purpose in its life, and those security blankets were suddenly gone. It took some time for it to learn to function on its own. It still doesn’t feel right for it to be unowned.
I thank John for his honesty!
My heart does break for John because he clearly adored Master Norman, and now Master Norman is gone for good and John is all alone after a couple of decades of faithful service. I’d be curious to hear from faggots who claim to be ready for such a life – what do you think after hearing about John’s life of service? Is it for you?
I really admire the lengths John went in order to fulfill his purpose! I love how, even through his heartbreak from losing his Master, he still yearns to return to that life! That’s because serving superior Men is its own form of deep satisfaction!
Thank you, my dear brother! Your example of faithfulness will stay here and cherished for a lifetime!
