Hi fag Sam,

Let’s call me Flynn (anonymous purposes). I have always been attracted to masculine and muscular men and I have tried submission but it just didn’t work for me. But in my head, it sounds like a great idea. I’m very sensible to touch, which means it’s hard for other people to get into intemacy with me. And on antoher hand, I always felt like I’ve always been a top, but I’m a very socially anxious person, so I dont’t feel very confident just even showing myself.
I’m working on getting fitter, but I know this is not the only way I can improve my self confidence. Do you have advice ? And do you know how can I explore being a top and a Master (since I also feel like I need to be desired and worshipped) ?

I’m sorry if it’s not very clear but I really wanted to talk it out.

I’m intrigued by your question. I cannot escape this nagging feeling I’m getting from your words … let me explain.

I think I might be the only person in the Hierarchical space to accurately chronicle the phenomenon I’ve dubbed “Alpha Latency”. I’ve dealt with multiple cases of it, and have even helped “cure” a couple of Alphas who were suffering from it.

And I do mean suffer. You see, Alpha Latency occurs when a natural-born Alpha is convinced that he should be a bottom or at least reciprocal. Many times this “convincing” comes from early childhood trauma or molestation. Due to this conditioning, the Alpha does things that go against his natural programming as an Alpha (like bottoming or sucking dick) and it makes him deeply unsatisfied. This lack of satisfaction then leads to even more confusion and unhappiness. 

You sound suspiciously like a Latent Alpha. These desires you kept mentioning in your question (about submission not being satisfied, or wanting to be desired and worshiped) make me think your true Alpha nature is trying to break free and lead you to happiness, but it’s being blocked for some reason. 

I do think you desperately need to try and dominate a faggot. Try receiving worship and service. Get verbal, get aggressive. I bet something gets triggered in you if you do. 

I’m curious about your reaction to this advice. Please give me some feedback if you can. Thank you!

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